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Ang

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About Me

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The true seeker feels no elation, even in that exalted state which I and all the gods unhappily long for. He understands the nature of things. His heart is not smudged by right or wrong, as the sky is not smudged by smoke.

A foolish man may be known by six things: Anger without cause, speech without profit, change without progress, inquiry without object, putting trust in a stranger, and mistaking foes for friends.

I am not detachment nor salvation, Nor anything reached by the senses; I am behold all thought and form. I am everywhere, and nowhere at all- I am Consciousness and Bliss.

Before you speak, ask yourself, is it kind, is it necessary, is it true, does it improve on the silence?

My Interests



BREAST CANCER AWARENESS
"For My Other Mother"

Reading, Writing, blogging, MySpace, Music, Poetry, Psychiatry, Psychology, Philosophy, Literature, Eastern Cultures, Cooking, My Daughter, My Friends, My cat Sushi, Rob Thomas, Johnny Depp, James Dean, travel, road trips, flea markets, estate sales, shoe shopping, Books, Any Book store, coffee, sleep, thunderstorms, the lake, the mountains, camping, gardening, collecting, photography, learning new things, meeting new people, Dos Equis Beer, Japanese Plum Wine, Vodka & Seven, Mexican Food, Italian Food, Indian Food, Chinese, lobster, crab & shrimp, late night breakfast, fresh pineapple, candles, a hot bath, quiet alone time.

I'd like to meet:

Rob Thomas just to hear him sing, M.Night Shyamalan just to get into his mind, Sigmund Freud just for his analysis, Dalai Lama just for his spiritual counsel, Frank Lloyd Wright just to build me a house, Cleopatra just for a tour of "her" Egypt, and Johnny Depp just to look at him!

“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.”
~Siddhartha

“Do not believe in anything simply because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in anything merely on the authority of your teachers and elders. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it.”
~Siddhartha

"Dreams are often most profound when they seem the most crazy."~Sigmund Freud

And to sit and think of all the desires and hearbreaks I tend to believe it has been delussional. There are only desires. There are only dreams. There are only memories. There are only past and present. There are only time pieces and pieces of time. Locked. Saved. Not Permitted.

You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.
~Siddhartha Gautama (Buddha)

If I were a tree among trees, a cat among animals, this life would have a meaning, or rather this problem would not arise, for I should belong to this world. I should be this world to which I am now opposed by my whole consciousness and my whole insistence upon familiarity. This ridiculous reason is what sets me in opposition to all creation. I cannot cross it out with a stroke of a pen.
~Zen Quote by Albert Camus.

Always aim at complete harmony of thought and word and deed. Always aim at purifying your thoughts and everything will be well.
~Mahatma Gandhi

Where love rules, there is no will to power, and where power predominates, love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other.
~Carl Jung

I am fulfilled. The elements of nature,the body and the ses, what are they to me? Or the mind? What is emptiness or depair? ~Ashtavakra Gita 20:1

Whatever I am offered in devotion with a pure heart--a leaf, a flower, fruit, or water--I partake of that love offering. Whatever you do, make it an offering to me--the food you eat, the sacrifices you make, the help you give, even your suffering. In this way you will be freed from the bondage of karma, and from its results both pleasant and painful. Then, firm in renunciation and yoga, with your heart free, you will come to me.
~Bhagavad Gita 9:26-28

"Accept the things to which fate binds you, and love the people with whom fate brings you together, but do so with all your heart."

There is always some madness in love. But there is also always some reason in madness. ~Friedrich Nietzsche

Find and follow the good path and be ruled by compassion. For if the various ways are examined, compassion will prove the means to liberation.- Tirukkural 25: 241-242

“Passion, it lies in all of us, sleeping... waiting... and though unwanted... unbidden... it will stir... open its jaws and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... passion rules us all, and we obey. What other choice do we have? Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief. It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion maybe we'd know some kind of peace... but we would be hollow... Empty rooms shuttered and dank. Without passion we'd be truly dead."

All sorrow comes from fear.From nothing else. When you know this, You become free of it, And desire melts away. You become happy and still.- Ashtavakra Gita 11:5

“One of the hardest things in life is watching the person you love, love someone else.”

Grief is a humble angel who leaves you with strong clear thoughts and a sense of your own depth. Depression is a demon who leaves you appalled!

"Humanity is divided into three classes: Those that are immovable, those that are movable, and those that move." ~ Arabian Proverb

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, pain of love lasts a lifetime.

Music:



Rob Thomas,Matchbox Twenty, Evanescence,Seal,Eric Clapton, Nina Simone,Kelly Clarkson, Kidd Rock,Eminem,Kanye West, Daughtrey,Three Doors Down, Greenday,Metallica, Three Days Grace,Foo Fighters Linkin Park,Goo Goo Dolls, Guns&Roses,Elton John~Boston, Kansas,Enigma,Loreena McKinnit, Blues,Indie,Ambient,Ethnic

Movies:



M.Night Shyamalan movies: Signs~The Sixth Sense~ Unbreakable~The Village~ Lady in the Water~The Happening~ ~Others: Blood Diamond~ ~The Beach~ The Departed~Babel~ Shawshank Redemtion~ The English Patient~ ~Out of Africa~ A Beautiful Mind~ Girl Interrupted~ The Green Mile~ What's Eating Gilbert Grape~ Finding Neverland~Pulp Fiction~ Goodfellas~Blow~The Libertine~ Crash~To Kill A Mockingbird~ Bridges of Madison County~

"The Libertine" (The best of Johnny Depp, I think)

Television:

The Tudors, HOUSE, E.R.,Scrubs,Greys Anatomy,Planet Earth,American Idol,Everybody Loves Ray, Roseanne,News Junkie, National Geographic,Discovery, History,Sundance & IFC channels.

Books:

Siddhartha,Poisonwood Bible,A Fine Balance, Shantaram,Of Spirits & Madness, Life of Pi, Dark Star Safari, Biographies,Psychology, Philosophy,Medical Journals on Psychaitry or Mental Health and of course Poetry.

Heroes:

My Dad is my Hero!

PiscesFebruary 19—March 20 Neptune, God of the Sea and master of illusion and mystery, rules Pisces. Those born under this sign have an affinity for the performing arts, music, writing…anything that allows them to dream and create a more beautiful world. This same tendency toward illusion can also be expressed in self-delusion, as Pisces would rather ignore anything that isn’t in keeping with their lovely vision of the world. Pisceans possess a high level of emotional intelligence, easily perceiving the feelings of those around them, which makes them wonderful teachers and guides of the soul.

My Blog

The End of the Raven

On a night quite unenchanting,when the rain was downward slanting,I awakened to the ranting of the man I catch mice for.Tipsy and a bit unshaven, in a tone I found quite craven,Poe was talking to a Ra...
Posted by Ang on Wed, 29 Oct 2008 11:44:00 PST

Scattered

Battered and tattered, loose and scatteredSomething's on my mind.Leaning and dreaming, wonderful meaningI feel like I'm losing my mind. Dragging and lagging, whining and naggingI'm tired but I'm wired...
Posted by Ang on Thu, 09 Oct 2008 12:56:00 PST

Seasons and the Moon

Goodbye to you, my trusted friendThe broken walls we tried to mendTogether we broke all of the rulesWhen we both thought we were way too cool Together we climbed the hills and treesSkinned our hearts ...
Posted by Ang on Sat, 27 Sep 2008 07:12:00 PST

Wicked Attraction

There are those who seek true loveAnd those who seek peace of mindBut those who find true loveLeave their peace of mind behind They say when love finds youInside your heart you will knowYou will lose ...
Posted by Ang on Sat, 02 Aug 2008 05:44:00 PST

Chronically Acute

Whirling, swirling, dancing, twirling Bending, rendering, happy, surrendering; Making, taking, laughter, breaking;   Breathe the frigid air, Take all the time you need, Let the sun touch your f...
Posted by Ang on Mon, 17 Dec 2007 01:15:00 PST

Labyrinth

I want to get off of this ride Plant my feet firmly on the ground It's too much work to hide All these secrets I have found   I'm finding my way out of this maze Every new corner leads to a dea...
Posted by Ang on Sat, 15 Dec 2007 12:38:00 PST

Wicked

It's too dark, I can't see It's too quiet, I can't hear It's too cold, I can't feel   I am numb and sit real still Waiting for a sound Something I can see Something I can feel   But it's...
Posted by Ang on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 12:56:00 PST

Black Fly

Every moment of you within those hoursI tried to get control of all my desires I never believed that you would tell me a lie With the black fly on your necktie   A warm and gentle touch You...
Posted by Ang on Fri, 23 Nov 2007 06:42:00 PST

I Am

I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, a cousin.   I am a granddaughter, a niece, an ex-wife and a friend.   I am a student of life: Socially, spiritually, (philosophically) psychologicall...
Posted by Ang on Tue, 20 Nov 2007 05:11:00 PST

Doormat

It must be the season To feel a little gloomIt might be the reason To feel stuck in your room.   When things don't look so pretty And you wear a desperate mask, You don't want the pity, But no...
Posted by Ang on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 05:03:00 PST