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a whisper of tragedy killed all the sparrows

death is a simple escape from truth, the truth that when the lights are out, so is hope.

About Me

zup people! my name is jesse and i live in suffolk va. my lifes pretty fucked up so ill keep it simple.i had a bad mommy, a dead daddy, and three siblings that i raised for the first 12 years of my life.one thing lead to anothrt now im here for all to see.im 18, bout 5'6, 150lbs,grey eyes,brown hair and a dead pesonality,but i do love cream cheese.
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Name: jesse lee payne
Birthday: october 19, 1987
Birthplace: richmond, virginia
Current Location: suffuck, virginia
Eye Color: grey
Hair Color: brown
Height: 5'6
Right Handed or Left Handed: right
Your Heritage: french, irish, and cherrokee
The Shoes You Wore Today: some off brand wal-mart junks
Your Weakness: my knees
Your Fears: loose rabid dogs
Your Perfect Pizza: supreme with pinapple
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get my identity back
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "wanna fuck?"
Thoughts First Waking Up: whos callin me now?
Your Best Physical Feature: eyes
Your Bedtime: whenever i fukin feel like it
Your Most Missed Memory: my babi gurl...
Pepsi or Coke: kinda like both
MacDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates: group...always the possibility for an orgy afterwards!
Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: COFFEE!
Do you Smoke: uh huh
Do you Swear: fuck yea
Do you Sing: i can...but choose not to
Do you Shower Daily: of course
Have you Been in Love: uh huh
Do you want to go to College: hope to
Do you want to get Married: uh huh
Do you belive in yourself: lol...not really
Do you get Motion Sickness: dont think so.havent spun in violent circles lately.
Do you think you are Attractive: a lil
Are you a Health Freak: so so
Do you like Thunderstorms: hell yea
Do you play an Instrument: no
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: ...maybe
In the past month have you Smoked: ...maybe
In the past month have you been on Drugs: ...no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: uh huh
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: hell no.fuck oreos
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: never tried it
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: yes
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: i wish
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: i dont think so...
Ever been Drunk: too many times
Ever been called a Tease: hehehee
Ever been Beaten up: im invincible
Ever Shoplifted: yah
How do you want to Die: in my favorite corner. in the fetal possition stabing myself repeatedly till i cry
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: an enginneer
What country would you most like to Visit: cambodia...i here the chicks r easy...
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: any
Favourite Hair Color: any
Short or Long Hair: short to medium
Height: 5'0-5'8
Weight: 110-160
Best Clothing Style: black
Number of Drugs I have taken: 1.......2.....3..4,...
Number of CDs I own: lmao...none
Number of Piercings: started with 1, had up to 10,back down to 2
Number of Tattoos: none...never will have any either
Number of things in my Past I Regret: too many to count
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right now, makin money so that i can afford to have others

I'd like to meet:

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I LIVE: in a dark and forboding reality
I WORK: too hard for too little
I THINK: that life gets a kick outa me when im down
I SMELL: the aroma of seared emotional flesh
I LISTEN: to the sands of time slowly pass
I HIDE: my past in fear of the demons therewith
I WALK: a path of tormented agony caused by my own storm
I WRITE: this to maybe let others taste the pain in which i bear
I SEE: my own miscalculations as a result of my downfall
I SING: the nocturn of regret, in the symphony of scared dreams
I CAN: try to hold back the demons that thresh my heart in an attempt to destroy it
I WATCH: the days pass in a clockwork fashion
I DAYDREAM: of what it woulda been like if i was loved instead of resented
I FALL: because its what i seem to do best
I WANT: to be happy
I CRY: the poisoned tears of a life denied
I READ: the story of my life, and it makes me weep
I LOVE: only one, and shes the reason i battle my demons
I RODE: the high horse, then was suddenly and violently bucked off, right into the dirt of a twisted reality
I SOMETIMES: let go, and am struck by the horror of my second face
I FEAR: of losing control, and never regaining it
I HOPE: that my life will change
I EAT: the sacrament of tears
I DRINK: the blood of the unforgivin
I PLAY: the sonata of my woes
I MISS: the days in which pleasure had no pain
I FORGIVE: none, for those who have wronged me shall pay with their lives
I DRIVE: myself to a unecapeable insanity
I DREAM: of true love, and unimaginable happiness
I KISS: the shadow of the one that loves me so far away
I HUG: the memories that i charish of days long passed
I HAVE: only time and distance separating me from u
I REMEMBER: everything
I DON'T: want to give in
I BELIEVE: that there is light within, and i shall seek it to the end of my days
I OWE: u my life, my love, and my soul.
I KNOW: that thing will get better
I HATE: the thought of not having u by my side forever and always
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