Strange. I hate this. |
It's beyond strange returning somewhere you've lived for years and have it feel less like home than a place you can barely remember. At least on good days. On good days the Outland really does feel li... Posted by BellaDonna on Sat, 16 Jun 2007 01:17:00 PST |
Daisy |
I'm having a hard time writing about the here and now. I guess it's because it feels like the same thing. Day in and day out. And maybe it's cause of the experiences I had when I left the Fortress. I... Posted by BellaDonna on Sat, 07 Apr 2007 06:10:00 PST |
In the Fortress |
I'm back. In the Fortress. I might have called it home before all of this, but it's not, and it probably never will be. Nowhere will be. I can survive anywhere, but no place feels like home.I feel ... Posted by BellaDonna on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 02:24:00 PST |
Heading back |
No more excuses. I'm on my way back to the Fortress. It may take a while, I'm not sure how many rides I'll be able to get going this way. We'll see, it could take a long time and that's OK with me. ... Posted by BellaDonna on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 08:17:00 PST |
To live |
I've been here for awhile. I've taken an extended vacation. I don't know how boss will feel about this. But I couldn't make myself leave. I kept coming across people and things that made me feel lik... Posted by BellaDonna on Fri, 05 Jan 2007 04:05:00 PST |
A friend |
I made one today. His name is Adam. I came across him on my wanderings away from home. I know I have to head back. There's no excuse at this point. I must go back to the Fortress. There's no life f... Posted by BellaDonna on Sat, 16 Dec 2006 03:29:00 PST |
Digging through the Ruins |
I know that..s why I stayed so long, why I couldn..t leave. I had to dig through the place, what..s left of it. I don..t know what I thought I would find. What proof I would come across. I wanted s... Posted by BellaDonna on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 02:19:00 PST |
What is real? |
I want to write more about home. I keep thinking about it. I know I need to write about, cause I can..t talk about it. It..s hard to think about it.I stayed home. I thought I might only get there an... Posted by BellaDonna on Mon, 27 Nov 2006 08:53:00 PST |
I feel different here |
Drinking. I haven..t been doing as much of it out here. I can..t. I get a drink or few when I can. With the drivers. I do. They drink all the time. They can get alcohol, but most people live like ... Posted by BellaDonna on Thu, 16 Nov 2006 06:40:00 PST |
Home |
It..s not a dream. Or a nightmare. It..s real. I have a home. I know for some that..s hard to believe, but I come from someplace.I walked the last day. We lived so far off the main road, no one co... Posted by BellaDonna on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 02:12:00 PST |