Maddi Mackay

i like to observe, and im very unpredictable with a colorful personality.i'll be the nicest person you'll ever know but if your a bitch then i'll tear you apart, cause i dont give a fuck about that. i like to do things that reminds me of whati most appreciate about who i am. i want people to one day read my writing and be inspired from it or even get something out of it. I love my guitar to. I have an amazing life and its here to stay cause i want to do it all,start living the life before i die. Sure we all have problems, but it’s just the way that you handle it. My life isn’t easy, I’m thankful for it because its made me the person I am today, Strong. sometimes im not good at remembering the details of what went wrong, becuase i want to move on and i dont dwell in the past. Ya I drink a machine, ya its no big, i like to party . I get bored easily and love my environment at a fast pass. I like getting the most out of life. Yes I am single, why? Because I’m tired of the bullshit, so there ya go, don’t ask me. maybe im waiting a little to hard for that mr.perfect to show, but i kno exactly what i want in a guy so i guess im a little picky ha, actually alot, but i'll be happy, i guess i get bord way to easily. and im not into hurting anyone. I've been the same person for as long as I can remember,but still learning.I know exactly what kind of girl I am and what I want out of my life. though i am still learning. I do what I want to and there’s no one that’s going to stop me. I’m at the point in my life were I just don’t give a shit. I’d love to talk, but u might not get what u want. I’m honest and u may or may not like what I have to say, I can be stubborn or a lot of fun, depending on who you are and how you’re talking towards me or about yourself. I’m extremely social and love meeting new people. Some people think I’m crazy, ya ya. I’m open to what people have to say to, and I’m sure we'll have something in common.My life number is 29/11 i think thats pretty neat.KNOWing The only thing there is to do is know yourself, adn u’ll lknow everything. Knowing ur self is all there is to know, people hide secrets. TIME No matter how hard it is , with time can heal problems that words cannot. What should not be delt with in words right away may not be as affective, though if u take the hard route around and choose to be strong and suck it up u can lead urself to victory Bitch ass I hate when people say money shouldn’t be your worry or a problem because its looked at as a sin or something. I see it as if ur broke and the lack of money is an issue then u should want money to make ur stress levels go down and fo us to all have a good time.I love reading the back of bathroom stalls sometimes its crap and sometimes its poetry. #1 i wont hang out with someone i meet off the internet unless its business. #2 my phone is business and family/ close friends that r worth it. #3i never make plans and never keep to a set plan. So until i have enough money to get a second phone i will take calls from people, but till then i just let people know where i might be or i might show up at to have a drink. Its their choice to be there. Not alone but with friends casue i hate looking like a dick when i know im just impatent and maybe love doing everything i possibly can at once.It something about comic books that just makes everyone happy it reminds me of checkered bathroom floors and chucks. The old comics as said in the film unbreakable are true art, how some one could draw figures with such masculine detail is amazing and the story lines are epic. Who doesn’t love a good comic made into a movie? Theres a few cuase imnot about to write them all down. When someone needs my help or wants me to do something i think before i act. See, at heart i believe deeply in personal freedom and individual responsibility. i think it is vital that people learn to take care of themselves so that they don't become dependent upon others. i believe that actions have consequences, and people need to accept the consequences of their actions if they are to learn from their mistakes and grow. i believe i wouldn't be doing anyone a favor if i lift someone out of trouble; they will never learn to lift themselves up if i keep rescuing them. And if i keep giving people a second, third or fourth chance,i have seen that people seldom develop the character they need to live decent and responsible lives.i believe that compassion has a role to play in my life, in a structure of values that is encourages people to take care of themselves. Uncritical tenderheartedness does as much harm as good. i much prefer if people understand, in factual, empirical terms, how they got into trouble, and how they can lift themselves out of the mess they are in. In an emergency, of course, i am there to offer help and if someone has helped me out in the past there is no question about my loyalty. But whenever it is realistic, i am convinced people should take care of themselves.Along with this i devote adequate time to taking care of my own needs and wants, in part because it makes me happy with my life and in part because that's what i truly believe every person should do. i cherish personal independence for myself and others. Fostering such independence is the best way i find there is to love and care for others. Lets never forget 5 Candy ice cream cones with the candy cons, Swings, Velcro, Making volcanoes in school, first bf at age 5 thinking that we would get married, people called me mad max, Pink and purple, Scrunches, Peaches, glitter, Canned food, Dinos, Face paint, Barbie’s, Stuffies, Road trips, Braces, Headbands, Crazy wild, Carefree, Captain crunch ,cheerio’s, Coco puffs- reeses ,Peace signs and sticking my tongue out, nachos, Swimming lessons, Princess outfits, Ice cream trucks, Picture books, things. . Now Budweiser, or light beer for that matter, martinis, shoes, clothes and fashion, travel, music, making music videos in the snow, writing lyrics, trying to sing, playing guitar, doign my hiar, buying product, scotch, skateboards, getting tattooed, watching heroes, privileged, prison break, smallville, viggie burgers from burger king, cartoons and the movies i use to watch when i grew up, camping, bmx’s, making appearances at events, Strippers, burgers, sweetest ting, shoes, my computer, many different selections of foundation, beer spills, wooden tables, tattoos, cereal, treseeme, any book written by chuck klosterman, and cool car, a lemonade slushy, cigarette, sushi, steet alleys, cars that smell like cockroaches and piss, films with Angelina Joli, Robert redford, carry grant, Audrey Hepburn or brad pitt, or that guy whos always hot in fantastic four, narcotics, slab of cake, bright colours with an accent of dull clours, super heros an comics,_____________________________________________________ ___ Do something that scares you every day.Fear gives us wisdom. It makes us work harder than we imagined we could. Stay curious. Be open-minded. Ask a lot of questions and get a lot of answers. and Pledge to "show up" in your life as yourself, not as an imitation of anyone else. -Maria Shriver.things that are mostly in my mind margaritas, woner woman lemons- bright drinks and candy- cellphone- im trouble maker not a money maker. - yea most people seem to piss me off. - music - movies- sandwiches -refering things to alien vs. predator -liquor&jazz -i love drinking tea -meeting new people is alright cooking things. - fire. sure- singing and song writing- and i have been playing guitar for a long ass time.- hmm being badass.- i know who i am and i know what i stand for.- so i guess im myself? is that hard to say. all u fakers.- nono. - basically my friends are way cooler than urs, unless u know them, thats cool. - fashion is awsome- beer is a must or the whatever the nights choice is- _how i don't give a shit about anything. or about pleasing people. including you.- how i can't spell- gastown- the bars and pubs and clubs.- the mall- carry grant. robert redford- love things that scare me, -love scars me to- Arizona's- -I used to do drugs. I still do, but I used to, too. -davie st- pirates, sharks and sarks- ink- and an dinasours- dislikes; wtf is drama really about.. really wtf. just chill u only got one life.- how i give up easy- ppl wanting to "holla" or ask if im really single-Dumb.- being trapped in every way.- not being able to trust - not being able to express my self the way i want to. but fuck it . i do what i want. - people trying to control the way I live, no. -Broken families, its greater then a heart break. being told complete shinfos. not gunna get me anywhere. dont care. how handcuffs hurt.and cops screw up new tats.( not all cops r bad) feeling low the off and on feeling of losing hope losing faith being outta beer? ha.ahgfahg ahsdgfjhaskdjg haksjdhasjhlkasjhg Life life Everyone feels down and everyone goes through the no ones ever going to love someone like me because i have all these flaws an problems. But as jim carry said” keep in mind what u want, not what u don’t want” and tell ur self that u can be loved first and formost. This is a world full of amazing things and u will find someone to love that will love u for those flaws and problems that u have and they will take that to keep ur love strong and take it as a blessing. Thats what love is anyway. Its the little things that happen to u or the little things that u have done or want to, its everything and its not careing about ur fuck ups. As long as u stay true to urself and be honest about urself in what u love.. I have come to think that i will never be right for a man, but right now this is actually ok because im to busy going off to take music production and audio engineering, but i guess i would need to find some one that will put up with all my bullshit and who is strong them selves. Sometimes i think that i shouldn’t be writing suck thoughts on this page, but i defiantly come to scenarios that just seem to work. i am true to my beliefs and i hold myself to the same expectations as i do with others. i am critical and tough with myself, which gives me a consistency when i am critical and tough with others. And even when others don't agree with me, people are likely to admire my frankness. i say what i believe, even if what i believe runs counter to the motives and beliefs of others.And i keep reminding people of two things that few people can argue with, even if they don't believe in them with my single-mindedness. Personal independence and personal responsibility matter to most people, and even the very compassionate admit that sometimes their hearts get in the way of what their heads know, which is to say that people should take care of themselves whenever they are able to do so. i remind people of this, in the honest way i live my own life and in the ways in which i respond, and don't respond, to other people Books Killing yourself to live >>&gt>>>>chuck klosterman. Sex, drugs and cocoa puffs*>>>>>>>>>>>>>&g t;>>>>>. Fargo rock city >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> >>>>>>>>>>>>>>. The Flirt>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ;>>>>Kathleen tessaro. Paint it black>>>>>>>>>>>>>> ;>>>>>>Jane Fitch I created my layout at KillerKiwi.net