So pretty in your pain profile picture

So pretty in your pain

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall. Pour real life down on me. 'Cause I can't hold on to any

About Me

First things first when you look at my pictures you have to look in all the folders to see all my fun pictures plus there are lots of pictures of me in all the folders but my OCD wouldn't let me put them all in the me folder so just look at them all please...
~ About me~
My name is Kelsey I am 17 years old and a Senior at Seckman High School.
So I have this amazing boyfriend named Ryan Tunstall. Don’t fuck with me cause he will fuck you up I promise. He’s very protective of me but I love him so it’s ok I don’t mind it to much… I FUCKING LOVE YOUR GUTS BABY!!! I miss you more than I thought was possible…
I have two best friends Anna and Heather. Heather is my little monkey / girlfriend she’s not really my girlfriend it’s just a joke we have… I’m very protective over her specially now that she is pregnant so if anyone messes with her I’ll kill them I promise. I’ll die for these girls…
I love music more than my own life you will probably NEVER see me not listening to music EVER or singing something.
My all time idol is Amy Lee from Evanescence if you don’t know who she is then you don’t get to talk to me and you probably should go kill yourself now.
I love to read when I’m not with Heather or Ryan I ALWAYS have a book in my hands probably about vampires ha-ha *monkeys maybe that’s why I bite so much*
I have REALLY bad OCD which means I HATE germs really bad and everything has to always be really clean or I freak out bad gah.
Ok I am talking your eyes off so I’m leaving now. If you want to know anything else IM me.
IM me
AIM - XxBr0k3n43v3rxX
YAHOO - Lifeamoungthedead
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My Interests

~Lyrics~

And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.
And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?

I feel your heart against mine
So take a breath and close your eyes

Your lungs have failed and they both stopped breathing
My heart is dead and its way past beating

Well look who's dying now
Slit wrists sleeping with the girl next door

Don't shake, I hate to see you tremble
Trembling you've lost your touch
Haven't you run so addicted

My knuckles have turned to white
There's no turning back tonight
Kiss me one last time

This is were we both go numb now
You broke my heart again this time
You're fading now, you crossed the line

Hold your breath.... bottle it up and save it for the next one.

Couldn't take the blame.
Sick with shame.
Must be exhausting to lose your own game.
Selfishly hated,
No wonder you're jaded.
You can't play the victim this time,
And you're too late.

Don't cling to me, I swear I can't fix you.
Still in the dark, can you fix me?

If you love me, then let go of me.
I won't be held down by who I used to be.
She's nothing to me.

Couldn't hide the emptiness, you let it show.
Never wanted it to be so cold.
Just didn't drink enough to say you love me.

I can't hold on to me,
Wonder what's wrong with me.

I can't save your life,
Though nothing I bleed for is more tormenting.
I'm losing my mind and you just stand there and stare as my world divides.

Don't scream anymore my love, 'cause all I want is you.

To let you blame it on me,
And set your guilt free.
I don't want to hold you back now love.

I can't change who I am.
Not this time, I won't lie to keep you near me.
And in this short life, there's no time to waste on giving up.
My love wasn't enough.

I long to be like you,
Lie cold in the ground like you.
There's room inside for two and I'm not grieving for you,
I'm coming for you.

We're all grieving,
Lost and bleeding.

All our lives,
We've been waiting
For someone to call our leader.
All your lies,
I'm not believing.
Heaven shine a light down on me.

Don't look down,
Don't look into the eyes of the world beneath you.
Don't look down, you'll fall down,
You'll become their sacrifice.

Right or wrong.
Can't hold onto the fear that I'm lost without you.
If I can't feel, I'm not mine,
I'm not real.

Though I patiently waited, bedside, for the death of today.

How can the darkness feel so wrong?

It's growing colder without your love.
Why can't you feel me calling your name?
Can't break the silence,
It's breaking me.

All my fears turn to rage.

Take my darkest fears and play them
Like a lullaby,
Like a reason why,

Guess I thought I'd have to change the world to make you see me,
To be the one.
I could have run forever,
But how far would I have come
Without mourning your love?

Should it hurt to love you?
Should I feel like I do?

~Quotes~

Love means... Never having to say... Your Sorry...

To the world you may be one person, But to one person you may the world...

A person who aims at nothing is sure to hit it...

Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget...

The moment you doubt yourself is the moment you fail to succeed...

Don't cry for anyone who won't cry for you...

Achieving starts with believing...

In oder to succeed, you must be willing to fail...

Love is giving someone the ability to destroy you but trusting them enough not to...

Don't cry because it's over, smile cause it happened...

Happiness will never come to those who fail to apprecate what they already have...

A friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out...

You should let me love you let me be the one to give you everything you want and need...

I did it because I can I can because I want to I want to because you said I couldn't...

I like walking in the rain cause no one knows I’m crying...

I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be, A reason to start over new, and the reason is YOU....

How can you break my fucking heart and tell me you still love me?¿?

Be grateful for what you have... It could be gone in a split second...

I'd like to meet:


Amy Lee
The woman who is endlessly saving my life.

Music:

- Evanescence -

- The Used -

-Tool -

- Panic At The Disco -

- 30 Seconds From Mars -

- Hinder -

- Alice Cooper -

- Led Zeppelin -

- T.A.T.U. -

- Hawthrone Hieghts -

- Fall Out Boys -

- Korn -

- Disturbed -

- Slipknot -

- Cold -

- Breaking Benjamin -

- AFI -

- Nickelback -

- 3 Doors Down -

- Carrie Underwood -

- The PussyCat Dolls -

- Rascal Flatts -

- Sugarland -

- Three Days Grace -

- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus -

- Dashboard Confessional -

- Underoath -

- Thrice -

- Bullet For My Valentine-

- New Found Glory -

- Papa Roach -

- GodSmack -

Movies:

The NightMare Before Christmas

Television:

The O.C.

The L Word

CSI

Smallville

ER

Gray's Anathomy

Books:

Stephenie Meyer Series

Heroes:



My Blog

I don't even know what to name this it just hurts

So yesterday was suppost to be the best day of my life because the new Evanescence cd was coming out my best friend was coming back to school and everything was going to be great and me and my dad wer...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Thu, 05 Oct 2006 08:39:00 PST

Story Time!!!!

Freshman year I made the choice to become friends with a girl named Amanda Kittrell, we were totally inseperable unless we were fighting then you couldn't keep us in the same room.Well there was a gir...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Fri, 01 Sep 2006 02:23:00 PST

Grandpa Joe

This is for my Grandpa Joe I loved him alot and miss him like no other... I Love You Grandpa You left me here all alone when I was sick and neededyou the mostThe pain you gave me made me try to throw ...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Fri, 17 Feb 2006 06:30:00 PST

Jeffrey *Jeffers* Espey

I made this Picture for Jeffrey *Jeffers* Espey he was a great kid and VERY loved at our school in this world and man we had so many inside joke with im its not even funny anymore.. I mean today at...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Fri, 27 Jan 2006 02:14:00 PST

Mindy Champbell

This is for a great friend of mine I lost her to a car accident 2 years ago and I wasn't able to go to her memorial service so I made her this Rest In Pieces Mindy I Love You and Miss You Dearly!!!...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Sun, 08 Jan 2006 06:59:00 PST

~My dear Angel~

Ok so I have this BEAUTIFUL friend everything about her is absolutly great and I love her to death and wow I'm even thinking about going to Boston to take care of her this summer just to keep her aliv...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Mon, 05 Dec 2005 05:17:00 PST

Wishes

If someone granted me one wish,And it could be for anything,I would wish that I could fly,That I could have wings....That way I could fly to you,When you're feeling down,Because it always heals your h...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Kiss

Point your lashes down....And you can picture my face...Im smiling...Open your mouth and speak with your heart...And you can see my soul...Im waiting...Place your arms around my waist...And you can em...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

She stands alone

She stands alone, both tall and true,The perfect picture of solitude,The soul of a woman encased in bark,With limbs that move in a majestic arc,Alone she's faced the stroms of life,The wind and rain, ...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Voices

When she loks in the mirror,She doesn't see what you see,You see,Skin and bones,The sunken face,And dark circles under her eyes,She looks in the mirror,And she seesthe opposite,She sees a girl,With to...
Posted by Cause I cant hold on to anything this good enough on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST