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How many times can I break 'till I shatter

About Me

My name is Gloria
I just graduated from Seckman Senior High School!
I'll be 19 in October
I have 1 other Myspace, but I rarely use the other ( www.myspace.com/my_blissful_nightmare )
I have one shared account but I refuse to get on it anymore
I used to be a cutter and I'm not proud of it, but I'm not gonna deny it either cause its part of who I was and if you have a problem with who i am or who i was you might as well leave now cause I won't put up with anyone judging me who's trying to be my friend.
I smoke, but I'm trying to quit and I'm finally starting to do a bit better
I was adopted as a baby
I'm part inuit, alaskan, whatever you want to call it, but I don't like talking about it so don't call me asian, chinese, or anything like that.
I'm pretty open about a lot of stuff now depending on the person..
I don't give a shit what people think about me unless its a good good friend
I've dyed my hair so many times I lost count
I miss the strawberry blonde color.
I'm bleaching it as soon as I get the money.
I have a boyfriend as of July 16, and I'm happy with him even though it'll be long distance (He lives in TN).
I'm sorry if you have a problem with it but honestly I don't care if you bitch about it, if you're really my friend you should be happy for me.
I plan on moving to Tennessee after I get out of college in 2009. (No I'm not just going for Josh.)
I have 4 sisters (One's unofficial, the other will be an in law soon) and 4 brothers apparently that i just found out about.(ones an in law)
They are Melissa (half sister), Libbie (Step, and shes pregnant!), Tammy (Andy's fiance), Andy (adoptive), and Andy (in law), Jesse (half brother) and Christopher (I think.. half brother??)
I have a lot of dark secrets
No you may not ask about them.
I'm bipolar, and have anxiety and OCD
I'm obsessed with safety pins, amongst other things
I wanna get a tattoo but I'm too scared, same with getting my tongue pierced
Thats all I can think of.

My Interests

music, movies, poetry, sleep, safety pins, cosmotology (hair/makeup), IMing, talking, smoking, drinking
.:~Quotes~:.
.:~LYZIE QUOTES~:.

OMGSECKSINABAG

Pop balloons, not pills!

Isaac and I are going to eat Ramen. Lady and the Tramp style.

When do I dramatically break up with you?

.:~JEFF QUOTES~:.

HOLY RACCOON

Taco Nacho Quantum Leap!

.:~KELSEY QUOTES~:.
DIE FUZZY DIE!

It was the chair! (Jesse: You did it. stop denying it.) THE CHAIR DAMMIT!!!

.:~LEAH QUOTES~:.
THE STUPID ROLLING BALL OF TOFU IS NOW MY ARCH NEMESIS! D. I DONT KNOW IF ITS MINE XD
Leah: WHO CARES. XD

(about 10 minutes later)
Leah: Ohwell.
Leah: GIMMETHAPOUNDDD.
Leah: POUNDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
Leah: POUNDPUDOPIFH ASDK;JF HAS;LKFH BLAFJPOUND.

LeahSue: Iwastalkingaboutmovingyeah. D:
Gloria: I dunno where yet.
Gloria: I got sammy in TN
Gloria: and you in TX
Gloria: and Lyzie in... ME?
Gloria: oh god
Gloria: that sounds wrong XD
Gloria: LYZIES IN ME.
LeahSue: YOU'RE PREGNANT WITH NEVI?
LeahSue: HOLYFURK.
LeahSue: ;O

Leah: This is madness, MADNESS I TELL YOU, MADNESS GLORIA, FOR THE LOVE OF GO- Leah: ._.

Leah:I want to bite my nails so bad. Dx
Glory: o_O...
Glory: DONT.
Glory: DONTDOIT
Leah: I'm not.
Glory: THINKOFTHECHILDREN.
Leah: I'm stopping.
Leah: :3
Glory: DOITFORTHECHILDRENWOMAN.
Leah: Then you continue to quit smoking for the children. D

I'd like to meet:

Samantha, Dane, Lyzie, Leah, my soon to be neice or nephew *both cause both of my sisters are pregnant*, the person who is just a sperm donor to me, aka biological father... not that he would know who I was but whatever...

NOT THAT PERSON BELOW... and you wonder why I don't really like Men anymore.
Doom Generator
Your boyfriend
Where: At the beach
What: A Pencil
When: When you’re not expecting it
Why: Insanity
A 200 Question Fun Survey 4 Myspace (All The Bzoink Surveys Put Together)
Full Name:: Gloria Lyn Collins
Birthday:: 10/21/88
Birthplace:: Columbia
Eye Color:: Brown
Hair Color:: Naturally dark brown
Height:: 5'5
Weight:: 165ish
Right handed or Left handed?: righty!
Your Heritage:: Inuit and American and idk what else o.o
My Worst Habit:: Low self esteem
Zodiac Sign:: Libra
Shoe Size:: 8
Pants Size:: o_O 15ish?
Innie or Outie?: INNIE
Parents Still Together?: Adoptive, yes. Biological never were.
The Shoes You Wore Today:: My vans look-a-likes that have music notes. and my shocks
Your Weakness:: The person I love and my family and friends.
Your Fears:: The dark, heights, small spaces, being alone, and a lot of others.
Your Perfect Pizza:: cheese is just fine with garlic sauce to dip it in :3
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:: Lose more weight and be with the person I love.
Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:: I don't want to get out of bed.
Your Best Physical Feature:: Eyes and smile supposedly.
Your Bedtime:: Whenever I pass out.
Your Most Missed Memory:: Jesse
MY FAVORITES
Favorite color?: Hot pink and Black
Food?: o___o Mostaciolli
Sport?: Swimming, Basketball, Volleyball, Soccer
Animal?: Koalas and Pandas
Ice Cream?: Vanilla with other yummy stuff on it.
Candy?: WONKA BARS
Store?: o____o Hot Topic
Salad Dressing?: Ranch
Actor?: Hummm Jim Carrey
Song?: Too many to list
Letter?: Q!
Number?: 143, 3
Gum?: Juicy Fruit
Holiday?: Halloween
Season?: Fall and Spring
Toothpaste Flavor?: I like crest for kids :3 I don't care if its for kids
Radio Station?: 105.7, 98.1, 93.3...
Perfume?: black berry vanilla or something like that
Scent besides perfume?: HoneySuckles, Axe-but I can't remember which one it is
Body part on the opposite sex?: Uhm... I like lips and neck and arms and eyes...
FRIENDS AND LIFE
What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: I'm not really sure anymore.
How Do You Want To Die?: With the one I love, in love, and in my sleep.
Turn ons:: The only people who need to know that already know it.
Turn offs:: A lot. Cockyness, arrogance.
Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?: Leah..
Who's The Loudest?: Sarah's pretty loud but so is leah... and Jesse's loud too lol.
Who Makes You Laugh The Most?: Jesse
Who Have You Known The Longest?: Uhm.. that im actually still friends with? Probaby Rob guywise, girlwise I'd have to say Danders
Who's The Shyist?: hummm.... NEVI.
When Have You Cried The Most?: probaby when jesse's dad died, jesse and i broke up, parents took my car away, zach made me feel like shit and so angry i just cried and almost broke my hand...
What Is The Best Feeling In The World?: Being in love and having the feelings returned.
Worst Feeling?: Being in love with someone you know you could have but you just cant have them
Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?: It doesn't matter too much with me as long as im around family and friends
If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?: hmm... my depression and weight. which is changing.
How Long Do You Think You'll Live?: till im ready to die.
FINISH EACH SENTENCE
Let's walk on the: ocean
Let's look at the: stars
What a nice: evening
Where did all the:
Why can't we: BE FRIENDS, WHY CAN'T WE BE FRIENDS...
Silly, little: child.
Isn't it weird that: weird breaks the "I" before "E" except after "C" rule.
Never under any circumstance: stab your friends in the back.
I wish: everything would go back to normal.
Everyone has a: darker side.
I am: happy
HAVE YOU EVER
Been In Love?: Twice in the deep neverending black hole makes you fly kind of love-Jesse and Ciara (No offense to everyone else....)
Been To Juvie?: Nope!
Mooned Someone?: Yes lol
Been Rejected?: Yep...
Ran Away From Home?: Almost
Pictured Your Crush Naked?: XD Who hasn't?
Skipped School?: Yup
Thought About Suicide?: I used to a lot.
Slept Outside?: Not lately but yes.
Laughed So Hard You Cried?: Yeah
Cried In School?: Unfortunately
Thrown Up In School?: Unfortunately
Wanted To Be a Model?: hahano
Cheated On Someone?: It's not something I'm proud of.
Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?: haha yes
Seen A Dead Body?: D: Yes
Been Bitched Out?: Yes
Drank Alcohol?: A few times.... .
Smoked?: Daily
Been On Drugs?: Nope
Eaten Sushi?: Nope
Been On Stage?: Yes
Gone Skinny Dipping?: Not yet
Shoplifted?: Yes
Been Drunk?: Smashed
Been Called A Tease?: oh yes lol
Been Beaten Up?: nope
DO YOU
Swear?: FUCK NO.
Sing Well?: Thats what people tell me.
Shower Daily?: Every other
Want To Go To College?: Im in college
Want To Get Married?: yes
Believe In Yourself?: most days
Get Motion Sickness?: rarely anymore
Think You Are Attractive?: sometimes
Get Along With Your Parents?: occasionally
Like Thunderstorms?: no
Play An Instrument?: clarinet
Own An IPOD?: yes
Pray?: occasionally
Go To Church?: never
Sleep With Stuffed Animals?: only one, my foofers but i can't find it D:
Keep A Journal/Diary?: used to
Dance In The Rain?: yup!
Sing In The Shower?: Yes lol
THIS OR THAT
Pepsi or Coke?: Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King?: MCD
Single or Group Dates?: Single
Chocolate or Vanilla?: Choco
Strawberries or Blueberries?: Strawberries
Meat or Veggies?: Hmm..
TV or Movie?: Movie
Guitar or Drums?: Guitar
Adidas or Nike?: Nike
Chinese or Mexican?: Never had mexican o__O
Cheerios or Corn Flakes?: Cheerios!!!
Cake or Pie?: Cake
MTV or VH1?: VH1
Blind or Deaf?: Blind
Boxers or Briefs?: Boxers
CAN YOU
Do The Splits?: No
Write With Both Hands?: Poorly with my left but yes
Whistle?: yes
Blow A Bubble?: ^_^ Yush
Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?: I can curl it
Cross Your Eyes?: nope D:
Walk With Your Toes Curled?: Maybe?
Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?: nope lol.
Dance?: sure?
Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry?: kind of.
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You Touched:: my daddy. HUGS :D
You Talked To On The Phone:: Jesse
You Instant Messaged:: Jesse
You Hugged:: Daddy
You Yelled At:: Mom
You Played A Sport With:: o___________________O That was a LONG time ago.
WHAT'S THE LAST
Time You Laughed?: A few minutes
Time You Cried?: Yesterday
Movie You Watched?: uhmmm... Win a date w/ tad hamilton
Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?: Green apple or a mint i think
Joke You Told?: this blonde one.
Song You've Sung?: HEY THERE DELILAH WHATS IT LIKE IN NEW YORK CITY YOUR A THOUSAND MILES AWAY BUT GIRL TONIGHT YOU LOOK SO PRETTY YES YOU DO, TIME SQUARE CANT SHINE AS BRIGHT AS YOU...
RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT
Where Are You?: in lala land
What Can You See Out Your Window?: houses and trees and a street and stuff
Are You Listening To Music?: HEY THERE DELILAH
What Are You Wearing?: tank and jeans
What's On Your Mousepad?: o___o; my sweet 16 thing of me when i was like just a baby. well. like 4
BELIEFS
Do you believe there is life on other planets?: sure
Do you believe in miracles?: i've experienced one, so yes
Magic?: DO YOU BELIEVE IN MAGIC IN A YOUNG GIRLS HEART...
Love at first sight?: Yep
God?: I believe in God, but not the bible or in church.
Satan?: Not really, no
Ghosts?: Yes
Santa?: YES. QUIT TRYING TO TELL ME HES NOT REAL.
Evolution?: Kind of
IN A BOY...
Fav Eye Color:: Brown or Green
Fav Hair Color:: Black
Short or Long Hair:: Depends on the person.
Height:: as long as you're taller than me
Weight:: doesn't weigh too much more than me...
Best Clothing Style:: punk
RANDOM
What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?: greece
Number Of CD's I Own:: too many to count
Your Good Luck Charm:: the cross i always wear
How many pillows do you sleep with?: one
Do you drink milk?: yes
Person You Hate Most:: RB
Most Outdated Phrase:: errrr
Do you think God has a gender?: I see God as a he ... but I beleive there's a female out there too I guess
Where do you think we go when we die?: Wherever you want, or whatever you picture your heaven to be.
How many rings until you answer the phone?: 2
What is something scientists need to invent?: hmm... I'm not sure.
Are you a health freak?: not really
Are you a virgin?: hahahahha!
If you could travel into space, where would you go?: venus or pluto or neptune :3
What is the worst weather?: like really bad storms
Did you play with Barbies as a child?: yup
How many grades have you failed?: none
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Music:

To narrow it down till I feel like filling this out, rock, some 80's, country, country, country, metal-some at least, and techno
How you really say "I love you." by lenatheraven
Name
...believe in true love?
Your hands say We fit together.
Your eyes say You're amazing.
Your hugs say This is where you are meant to be.
Your kisses say You mean the world to me.
Your body says Just curl up next to me.
Your heart says I love you.

Movies:

How to lose a guy in ten days, Dukes of Hazard, Health Inspector, promise of the rose, hearts in ice, black dreamhole, mean girls, mr. deeds, nightmare before christmas, corpse bride, edward scissorhands, sleepy hollow, secret window, Just like heaven, sweet home alabama, ghost rider, hannibal rising, back to the future, back to the future 2, back to the future 3, chasing liberty, tomb raider, tomb raider the cradle of life, when a stranger calls, simply irrisistable, the ring, the ring 2, the grudge, national treasure, American Pie, American Pie 2, American Wedding, American Pie Band Camp, Garfield, Bring it on, Black Snake Moan, Happy Feet, Stranger than Fiction, Stay alive, the list goes on, lol.
Greed: Low
Gluttony: Low
Wrath: Medium
Sloth: High
Envy: Medium
Lust: High
Pride: Medium

Television:

Charmed, South Park, Baby Blues, Family Guy, American Dad, Futurama, Whos line is it anyway, robot chicken (with seth green still working with it), home movies, and a few others.

Books:

Most books by Meg Cabot and Sharon Creech, Hama Kimi series, Model Series, Love Hina series, Paradies Kiss series, I.N.V.U. Series, Fruits Basket Series

Heroes:

Ciara Daniella Owens
Ciara is one of my heros because she has been there for me through every last little thing. No matter how many times I had to cry over the same thing, no matter what it was, no matter what time it was, she has been there for me. She may be halfway across the country but surely without this girl my life would crumble. Ciara understands every last little thing I go through merely because she's pretty much been through everything I'm going through or have gone through. She is one of the few people who saved my life and were there for me through the big things and the little things and knew exactly how to help me in her own unique way. This girl is my everything, my life, my love. Well, at least my everything for my girl loving side, haha. Ciara, I love you and I want you to always remember that!
Jesse
Jesse is also one of my heros because he was after all, the first man I ever fell in love with. You know the love, the deep never ending black hole kind of love. That keeps you falling forever. He also is one of the people who saved my life, and without him I probably wouldn't be here. He learned what he needs to do to pull me out of panic attacks, how to calm me down when I get upset, always been the shoulder I can cry on. There was a time period to where we didn't really talk for about 2 years, and even then, when Jeff Espey died he was there for me and let me cry to him. He understands me better than any other guy I've ever met and knows pretty much every last little thing about me. I also look up to him because throughout his lifetime he has been through so much and still he stands strong. I have rarely seen this boy actually break down. He's taught me how to cope with things, pick myself back up when I fall, and many other things that I will be forever grateful to him for.

My Blog

You Are...

You are (Originally written in June of 2006)   You are the thought that starts each morning,     The thought that concludes my night.You are the one who keeps me going, &nb...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 07:22:00 PST

Broken

False hopelies in her eyesthe only thing keeping her from wanting to diealone insideher heart now shatteredfallen apartbroken and tatteredDying insidebut breathing and wellpushed awayand alone she fel...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 07:33:00 PST

What have you done??

Emotions mixingso full of love, yet full of hateBetter hurrybefore you're too lateShe'll pull awayand hurt no morebe happy againbe like beforeShe loves you a lotOnly wants whats bestuntil thenShe'll p...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 09 Jul 2007 07:30:00 PST

June 2007

Okay so my june so far. I've had a lot of fun ^_^ Jesse and I have hung out a lot!! And gotten a LOT closer. I got to spend the weekend at his house (by his mums request to take care of his pets while...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Sat, 30 Jun 2007 03:40:00 PST

So the truth is finally free.. (Jesse, Chelcey, and myself)

Jesse just unofficially told me that he and chelcey are together. Ya know, I wouldn't of cared, really. As much as all of you wouldn't believe me... but I woulda eventually gotten over it and dealt wi...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 23 Apr 2007 01:34:00 PST

Because of Your Love

my heart pounds, my heart beats, for you your love showed me the way your love led me to the light your love saved my life..... you saved me from someone i've always feared the person hiding deep insi...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 03:13:00 PST

With You

Inside I'm dying My heart is crying and my face is forever smiling Hiding the pain deep inside To cover up all the times I've lied To forget all the nights I've cried Please my love, forgive me With y...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 03:11:00 PST

Blackened Rose

Run your hand down her cheek give her strength so she's not so weak be her friend someone she can trust she needs your love, not your lust to save her from the darkness giving her love with one simple...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 03:09:00 PST

Bottle of Blue

You never thought it'd happen to you when you took a drink from a bottle of blue. You finished it off, tossed the bottle aside, you never thought it'd be you who died. As you jumped in your car, and s...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 03:06:00 PST

My Sweet Savior

My sweet savior please protect me from the lies, the insanity save me from the crues unknownout in the shadows where dangers lurk in silence Please, you are the key that will unlock the part of my hea...
Posted by xX.Emo Beauty.Xx on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 03:05:00 PST