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“Love seeketh not itself to please, nor for itself hath any care, but for another gives its ease,

About Me

MY LIFE AS I KNOW IT HAS BEEN PLEASURE AND PAIN LOVE AND HATE.MY CHILD HOOD EXESTENTIAL HORROR. MY ADOLESENTS WORE A MASK OF HAPPINESS WHILE DRUGS AND SEX WERE MY ESCAPE TO OBLIVIATE MY EXSISTANCE... MY ADULTHOOD A HUMBLING JOURNEY WICH IM STILL TRAVELING. I CAN SAY I HAVE LOVED, BEEN IN LOVE, HAVE ADORATION TOWARDS A BEING OF ENLIGHTENMENT. SO I CAN GO ON TO SAY THAT THEY HAVE LOVED ME, BEEN IN LOVE WITH ME, AND BEEN ADORED BEYOND THE WOMB OF EXSISTANCE.THREW THE CHAOS CAME MY SONS WHO I ADORE BEYOND WORDS OR JESTORS. AND DHARMA MY LOST LITTLE SOUL THAT CLINGS TO ME EVERY NIGHT SINGS HER SONG OF ANGELS THAT SLIPS ME IN TO MY DREAMS. AND LETS ME KNOW THAT SHE IS FINE AND EVERYTHINGS GOING TO BE O.K . . . . MY SOULS A MYSTERY EVEN FOR THOSE THAT HAVE WALKED SIDE BY SIDE OF ME. YET MY LIFE AN OPEN BOOK. TO TURN THE PAGE FOR THE NEXT SHOW. ONLY THE CHOOSEN ONES ARE WELCOME IN MY GARDEN MAY IT BE THE POOREST MAN IN EXSISTENCE OR THE RICHEST MAN OF THE UNIVERSE AS THE RICHEST ARE THE POOREST AND THE POOREST THE RICHEST. DECIPHER MY HEART AND YOULL BE THE BEARER OF THE KEY LET ME LOVE YOU FREE LIKE THE PAPILLON OF DAWN SO THAT IN TIME YOU SEE THAT I AM THE WICKED WONDER OF STARS .THE KEEPER OF YOUR HEART.There comes a time when you have to stand up and shout: This is me damn it! I look the way I look, think the way I think, feel the way I feel, love the way I love! I am a whole complex package. Take me... or leave me. Accept me - or walk away! Do not try to make me feel like less of a person, just because I don't fit your idea of who I should be and don't try to change me to fit your mold. If I need to change, I alone will make that decision. When you are strong enough to love yourself 100%, good and bad - you will be amazed at the opportunities that life presents you.”..

My Interests

Sweet Helen, make me immortal with a kiss! Her lips suck forth my soul: see, where it flies! Come Helen, come give me my soul again. Here will I dwell, for heaven be in these lips, And all is dross that is not Helena.”“Progress has not followed a straight ascending line, but a spiral with rhythms of progress and regression, of evolution and dissolution.”-Goethe (1749-1832)

I'd like to meet:

The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.If the doors of perception were cleansedeverything would appear to man as it is: In--finite..” ~~WILLIAM BLAKE~~"“A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are; we can be loved for who we are and not for who we’re pretending to be. Each unveils the best part of the other. No matter what else goes wrong around us, with that one person we’re safe in our own paradise. Our soulmate is someone who shares our deepest longings, our sense of direction. When we’re two balloons, and together our direction is up, chances are we’ve found the right person. Our soulmate is the one who makes life come to life.”GENTLY RAPPING AT MY CHAMBER DOOR.“Perhaps it will seem to you that the sunshine is brighter and that everything has a new charm. At least, I believe this is always the result of a deep love, and it is a beautiful thing. And I believe people who think love prevents one from thinking clearly are wrong; for then one thinks very clearly and is more active than before. And love is something eternal--the aspect may change, but not the essence. There is the same difference in a person before and after he is in love as there is in an unlighted lamp and one that is burning. The lamp was there and it was a good lamp, but now it is shedding light too, and that is its real function. And love makes one calmer about many things, and in that way, one is more fit for one's work.”Vincent van GoghLOSE YOUR SELF IN LOVE FOR LOVE AS BETRAYING AS IT CAN BE LIKE DEATH ITS INEVITABLE.SO LOVE LOVE LIKE ITS YOUR FIRST AND LAST TIME ALWAYS...I CANT SPELL FOR SHIT.WHO CARES DEAL WITH IT. AND I DONT HAVE ANY DEGREES. BUT LIFE AS BEEN MY DOCTRINE PROFFESION .I CAN BE SARCASTIC, WELL REAL SARCASTIC IVE BEEN TOLD IT’S A DEFENCE MECANISM. BUT WHO EVER LOVES ME KNOWS NOT TO EVER TAKE IT TO HEART. IT’S JUST THAT DUMBASS SIDE OF ME SOME TIMES IM SORRY IT’S JUST IN MY NATURE. JUST LIKE ITS IN MY NATURE TO FUCK UP EVERYTHING I LOVE BUT SOME HOW IF YOU HOLD ON HOLD ON LONG ENOUGH TO SEE THREW ALL MY WRONGS YOULL REALIZE THAT I AM FAITHFUL AND MY HEART IS PURE. HOW I LIVE TO HELP AND GUIDE THOSE WHO SEEK WISDOM AND KNOWLEDGE THREW SELF EMPOWERMENT.I BELEAVE IN THE POWER OF INTENTION.I PICK MY FRIENDS LIKE A NEEDLE IN A HAY STACK. I WAS TOLD ONCE AS A CHILD IF YOU MAKE ONE REAL FRIEND IN YOUR LIFE TIME YOU ARE TRUELLY BLESSED.I AM GREATFUL FOR MY BOUNTY OF FRIENDS ITS BEEN PLENTIFUL. I LOVE TO GET INTO DEEP CONVERSATIONS AND I LOVE TO LISTEN TO PEOPLE TALK AS LONG AS ITS NOT ASS COMING OUT OF THERE MOUTH. AND ILL ALSO BLOW YOU OFF WHEN I JUST WANT TO STOP AND NOT THINK ANYMORE. I DONT ALWAYS WANT TO BE SERIOUS I LOVE TO LAUGH JOKE AROUND. THERES A TIME FOR EVERYTHING MAKE IT YOUR OWN. SO I END THIS WITH DON’T EVER JUDGE ME FOR WHAT IM DOING JUDGE ME FOR HOW I FINISHED IT.WITH ALL THE WRONGS IN THE WORLD I TRUST EVERYONE I JUST DON’T TRUST THE EVIL IN SIDE THEM.PREVAIL IN THIS LIFE TIME AND THE NEXT . I AM THE LAST MAN STANDING.THE SAND MAN OF DREAMS.DEATH MY IMMORTAL BRIDE. THE ENDThis soulful connection is so strong that you're tempted to drop everything to try and make it happen. Don't. If it's meant to be, nothing you do can mess it up. If it's wrong, nothing you do can make it work.Truth is by nature self-evident, as soon as you remove the cobwebs of ignorance that surround it, it shines clear.

Music:

Cradle Of Filth Videos | “ EVERY NIGHT AND EVERY MORN SOME TO MISERY ARE BORN. EVERY MORN AND EVERY NIGHT SOME ARE BORN TO SWEET DELIGHT, SOME ARE BORN TO ENDLESS NIGHT.” ~~WILLIAM BLAKE~~
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Movies:

Do we, holding that the gods exist, deceive ourselves with unsubstantial dreams and lies, while random careless chance and change alone control the world?” PAPILLON,STREETS OF FIRE,CLOCKWORKORANGE,PINKFLOYEDTHEWALL,MERLIN,THENOTEBOOK,DA RKCITY,HEAT,RESEVOIRDOGS,DRACULA,eternalsunshineofthespotles smind.BUTTERFLY EFFECT.

Television:

YOUR A LONG WAY FROM THE RABBIT HOLE YOUR IN MY WORLD NOW.

Heroes:

MYDADMYSISMYSON amare et sapere vix deo conceditur""What is man without the beasts? If all the beasts were gone, man would die from a great loneliness of spirit. For whatever happens to the beasts, soon happens to man. All things are connected"

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My Blog

GO ON A MAGIC CARPET RIDE

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Posted by SINISTRUS on Tue, 24 Jun 2008 01:22:00 PST

SPEED RACER

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Posted by SINISTRUS on Fri, 13 Jun 2008 08:07:00 PST

The Death And Rebirth Of Self

Sometimes a part of us must die before another part can come to life. Even though this is a natural and necessary part of our growth, it is often painful or, if we don't realize what's happening, conf...
Posted by SINISTRUS on Thu, 12 Jun 2008 09:20:00 PST

I KNOW THE SCREAM OF THE BUTTERFLY

  CARELESS ABANDON A MUTTERING SOUND SHATTERS MY HEARING AS THE MOCKING BIRD SCREAMS. TELL ME THAT MY BONES GIVE YOU PLEASURE AS I WRITE POEMS IN MY SECRET BOOK. THE SUN WASHES AWAY THE TEA...
Posted by SINISTRUS on Tue, 03 Jun 2008 12:51:00 PST

LEPPER

IVE TAKEN ADRAG FROM ALEPPERS CIGAR. AND HAVE BECOME  A LEPERS MESAYAH. VAST INSULTS SKIM THE ROOM OF FABLED KNIGHTS THAT NOT DARE TO PIERCE THE TRUTH OF A HUMANS SOUL. I AM THE SHADOW THAT YOU H...
Posted by SINISTRUS on Mon, 02 Jun 2008 10:57:00 PST

10CC ON A BED OF ROSES

10CC OF MUCH NEEDED EMPTYNESS. GET THE PICTURE THREW THE OPEN DOOR AS I FALL FACE FIRST ON THE CONCRETE FLOOR. 10CC OF CROWED FACES I COULD BE IN THE SAME ROOM AND THE SHADOWS HIDE THESE FACES. I CAME...
Posted by SINISTRUS on Fri, 16 May 2008 09:23:00 PST

BABBLE @ DAWN.

CRAP ! I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY LATELY . AM I DEVILISHLY HAPPY OR CONSUMED BY THE NUMBNESS OF ROUTINE. I HAVE AVIEW OF THE SKY FROM MY OFFICE .ZONE OUT AT TIME LOOKING OUT THE WINDOW I KNOW WHAT IT ...
Posted by SINISTRUS on Thu, 24 Apr 2008 10:37:00 PST

Noticing Synchronicity

When events appear to fit together perfectly in our lives it may seem at first that they are random occurrences, things that are the result of coincidence. These synchronous happenings, though, are mu...
Posted by SINISTRUS on Thu, 27 Mar 2008 09:54:00 PST

Trial And Error

Anyone who has asked for divine guidance knows that it can be challenging to trust it when it comes. This is because divine guidance comes in many forms and it is sometimes hard to locate it. We aren&...
Posted by SINISTRUS on Thu, 27 Mar 2008 09:47:00 PST

T.J.

"Neither believe nor reject anything because any other persons or description of persons have rejected or believed it. Your own reason is the only oracle given you by heaven." -Thomas Jefferson (1743-...
Posted by SINISTRUS on Wed, 26 Mar 2008 07:12:00 PST