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Chris

The greatest and most certain love doesn't prevent you from becoming the butt of an infinite laughte

About Me

perpetual student. constantly in love. hopeless romantic. broken hearted. i would rather have more lovers than friends; unfortunately, most people would rather have more friends than lovers. hence, my life is an archeology of unrequited loves. my torment is matched only by my willingness to continue to say YES!! to torment...

My Interests

dance parties, the revolution, the complete disorganization of the senses

I'd like to meet:

anyone with a sense of loneliness and a sense of chaos, but also a sense of wakefulness and a sense of broken heart, like a ripe fruit about to burst...

also: people who love to dance!!!

Music:

all that shit on here was kind of old. not that i don't still like it all, but lately i've just been listening to mix CDs that my friends make for me because i have yet to move into the 21st century wireless internet age.

like good music? MAKE ME A CD!!!

Movies:

me and you and everyone we know, sick! the life and death of bob flanagan -- supermasochist, the persecution and assassination of jean-paul marat as performed by the inmates of the asylum at charenton under the direction of the marquis de sade, zizek!, i ♥ huckabees, napolean dynamite, derrida, secretary, dancer in the dark, amelie, ghost world, lost in translation, 1991: the year punk broke, david lynch, hal hartley

Television:

twin peaks, america's next top model

Books:

slavoj zizek, shantideva, georges bataille, alain badiou, henry miller, judith butler, freidrich nietzsche, chogyam trungpa, jacques lacan, milan kundera, gilles deleuze, haruki murakami, jacques derrida, michel foucault, charles baudelaire, fyodor dostoevsky, felix guattari, nagarjuna, jeanette winterson, ed podvoll, karl marx, sylvia plath, vladamir nabokov, sigmund freud, martin heidegger, franz kafka, gampopa, willa cather, philip k. dick

Heroes:

did you ever know that you are my hero?

My Blog

on love and lack, part 2

as something of a gloss on the previous enigmatic blog entry on the subject, consider the following elaboration: "The term 'love' is to be conceived here as articulated in Lacanian theory--that is, in...
Posted by Chris on Thu, 06 Dec 2007 02:39:00 PST

i need help with my birthday

once again i find my birthday rapidly approaching (now just two weeks away! yikes!). i have written before (endlessly, it seems) about how i have a hard time with my birthday. i'll not bore anyon...
Posted by Chris on Wed, 21 Nov 2007 06:47:00 PST

on love & lack

"But one has to admit that if there is one domain in which, in discourse, deception has some chance of success, it is certainly love that provides its model. What better way of assuring oneself, on th...
Posted by Chris on Sat, 29 Sep 2007 03:23:00 PST

uggghhh...

i need to change my life in some sort of radical way. do you have any suggestions?
Posted by Chris on Tue, 11 Sep 2007 08:09:00 PST

i am still alive (but internet challenged)

the subject says everything i need to, i think. i haven't been making the internet a priority lately. i don't have my own computer. i don't get online often, and when i do, i usually just have ti...
Posted by Chris on Mon, 25 Jun 2007 01:53:00 PST

good news/bad news

good news: i found a place to live. it's a house in the u-district. it's cheap and it seems like it's full of cool people. i move in a week or so. it's a relief to have finally worked that out.bad new...
Posted by Chris on Sun, 11 Feb 2007 03:48:00 PST

let's dance...

i was going to write a review of my week of dance craziness--you know, sort of let people know where the fun spots are, what places are lame, that sort of thing. but i decided i had so much fun i'm no...
Posted by Chris on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 02:43:00 PST

analyzing hysteria

Freud said (more or less): "The significance of bed-wetting in the early history of nuerotics is a topic that should be explored thoroughly." He then (of course) immediately brings up the subject of m...
Posted by Chris on Thu, 18 Jan 2007 03:29:00 PST

new year

i thought that after the new year i would feel ready to head out in the world, take charge of shit, and make things happen. nope: i'm still feeling intellectually rapacious and anti-social. all i ever...
Posted by Chris on Sat, 06 Jan 2007 04:23:00 PST

sometimes, i feel like crap!

yesterday i had the worst hangover i've ever had in my entire life. well, at least physically (i've had worse emotional hangovers). now i'm (mildly) sick (only mildly, because i do have the immune sys...
Posted by Chris on Sat, 23 Dec 2006 06:26:00 PST