Here I go again. Here comes something beautiful. Here comes something that requires relentless abandonment. This season of introspection was unexpected. Much like a cooling breeze on a hot southern day, the kind of day when you can’t seem to breathe air b/c the humidity is so thick. The sudden burst of cool air from a random passing wind, in which most cases would be overlooked and underappreciated, is treasured and adored. Like an orgasm of the skin. Like finding an old friend at the strangest times in your life. Like falling in love with a complete and total stranger. In these ways, this season is consuming me with tragedy and delight. It’s tearing me in two. It’s developing me. It’s leading me to the path that I want. Hell, it’s showing me what I want. Finally. Some degree of clarity!In the madness around me, I’ve stumbled across some amazing facts. Love is a state of mind that can be the most intense heaven and hell. In some cases, blocked memories from childhood can reveal secrets about adult repression of emotion and issues with such. Global warming is as serious if not more as the overlooked media mass mafia that is stealing away the joy of knowing your worth and developing an unbiased opinion. Corporate based jobs suck. Eating large amounts of meat will make one more aggressive. Eating large amounts of sugar will make one more emotional and sensitive to unseen Marriage is a government scam. God is more than you ever dreamed, whether you accept that or not, the beauty of it is, He knew you would doubt or believe when you read the beginning of this sentence before the foundations of the earth were laid. I’m attracted to mystery and unresolved issues. I find things sexy that most would never think to. I need another vacation. I need concrete definitions of what’s going on in my life. I could be a control freak that has the occasional emotional breakdown. Accepting that makes me incredibly sad. Sitting back and remembering that my heart was made to hope and dream for something beautiful makes me inspired. Inspired to love, inspired to be…Inspired to not give a fuck what anyone thinks anymore.Here I am. Hard on myself. Happy to be alive. Struggling to find a way. Falling ridiculously hard for things that may break me one day. Most importantly, grabbing life by the balls and loving the hell out of everyone I can. This brings me joy. These things make falling all over again worth while.Fuck monotony. Fuck apathy. Fuck fear. I’m fighting these issues head on.My cell phone works. Call me. Come over. Let’s have wine and discuss.I mother effin love you, bitches.I edited my profile at Freeweblayouts.net , check out these Myspace Layouts! Myspace Graphics
