[ . Miss. Venom . Lily . ]

Why HELLO THERE. . . My name is Ezabella Erin, I used to just go by my middle Erin, but not anymore, so please don't call me that, my first name is Ezabella, & yes it's my real name, it's on my birth certificate, it's my name. Ussseeee it.
I'm an Artist. It has, is and always will be my #1 passion.
Helping people & making a difference is my other.
I think the 2 connect a lot more than some might realise though.
I'm also an alternative model. which is another form of art.
I don't just bend over in a bikini on a beach, i actually make statements & art.
For those thinking about becoming a model because you think it's oh so glam, do what you want but do NOT go near Suicidegirls.
I mean it.
I love to draw, paint, photograph, pose, write, experiment & discover.
I'm the youngest of 7, yes Seven children. 4 sisters & 2 brothers.
A typical irish family.
My family migrated from Northern Ireland, I myself was born in Australia but i wasn't raised as an aussie.
I am IRISH muthafuckaaaa & i was raised in a strict Irish family to be proud of being Irish not Australian, this doesn't mean i have anything against Australia i just don't feel at home here, at all.
I have lived here - Melbourne, Australia, Birminghamm, England and Belfast, Northern Ireland & Dublin, South Ireland.
I desperatly want to go back and live in my home country.
I'm a qualified piercer, but i only pierce myself & my friends, i don't work in a parlour.
I really want to help people- who WANT to change. I think that's my part in the world, i'm going to help & i can & will make a difference with my book, my experiences and yes A HELL OF A LOT OF RANTING.
Can't handle passionate and opinionated firey people? Then i sure as HELL aint for you.
I was doing my Certificate 4 in Councelling but it was repeating to me things i'd already learnt earlier in life.
You don't need a text book to understand humans, you just need a working brain.
I ADORE Animals, i would anything for them, little fluffy angels.
The ♥ BOOK ♥ I'm writing is an autobiography called : 'Home made Monster- Self made Idol' about my journey/survival so far, i have a lot to say... Sometimes it feels like my mind will explode if i dont tell my story.
BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS PEOPLE!
DAMMIT.
It SHOULD NOT BE A TABOO TOPIC! PEOPLE ARE DYING BECAUSE OF THIS/THESE DISEASES!!!
WAKE UP PEOPLE!!! FUCCCCCKKKK, PHYSICAL ILLNESSES & DISEASES ARE NOT THE ONLY ONES. JUST BECAUSE YOU CANT SEE IT/THEM DOESN'T MEAN THEY'RE NOT THERE!!!
Take a look at me for eg, do you think by looking at me that i've been in more psych wards than birthday parties? No, i bet you don't.
BE AWARE, not everything is what it seems.
I have already been around the world but i want to do it again, now that i'm an adult, I'm very, very adventurous and wild. I want to travel and see beautiful things and people, i want to go sky diving and bunji jumping and climb mountains i want to be challenged.
Staying in one place for the rest of my life is almost as dull as death, i can do that when i'm old and disorentated in a fucking nursing home, for now i'm YOUNG and i want to actual LIVE LIFE.
I REFUSE to live a dull and boring existance.
I'm not scared of much, in fact i LOVE fear.. when i do occasionally experience it. I'm an adreneline junkie.
FEED MY NEED!!!
I don't stay in one place for long, i don't live in one house, with a family or a boyfriend, i drift, because i have no choice. But it makes me stronger.
I own many cats, but they live in 2-3 different houses. I love my kitties. They're my babies & I MISS THEM WITH ALL OF MY HEART. . GAH now i'm gonna fucken cry!
I rarely drink, smoke, or do drugs anymore & i'm finally off psychiatric meds!
My brain chemistry is not like yours can't get drunk or high every weekend i have to take it really slow. I cant drink because my brain chemistry cant handle it, i spaz out and bad things happen. Don't ask me to drink with you because i cant.
People ask me if it's boring being sober 24/7, the answer is no.. it's hard. it's hard as all fuck but i'd rather it be a difficult challenge than me being extrememly unwell by boozing & snorting my days & nights away & being fucking miserable.
I don't remember the majority of my life because i was a drunk/ high/ off my dial & i'd like to be able to remember at least a bit of my life so i can ramble aimlessly to my grandkids.
I will never, ever go back to the place i was in were drugs & spirits ruled my life.
There are far more important things in the world & things i have to try and change/make a difference! I cannot be selfish when there is SO much to be done.
So have i told you that I really want to help people?! who have also had it rough- get through the other side, it does take a lot of effort, energy & strength but it is SO worth it.
Trust me.
If you would like help or guidance in doing so PLEASE feel free to contact me, but please remember you must be ready & you must really want a better life for yourself.
Fuck me.. that sounded christian!! I AM NOT A RELIGIOUS OR PREACHY DON'T WORRY!!
I try to eat and live as healthily as possible, no wheat, gluten, refinded sugar. Of course i induldge myself sometimes in fast food but all in all my body is so fucked up i cant afford to just slip up here and there. No way.
I'm really quite lovely fucking fabulous once you get on my good side. I am a good person who does not take ANY kind of shit.
Yes i can be cruel if it is needed but such is life kiddies, build a bridge and get ovvvvver it.
Some people call me a psycho or a sociopath and i smile and continue skinning & mutalating their beloved family.
HAHA no, joke, i think some people have seen too many thrillers and think because i can detatch myself from any situation and move on from trivial bullshit, or that i've taught many lessons to many ungrateful & selfish losers that i'm a cold blooded killer. No, i do not kill people i simply give them a lesson in life.
If people aren't willing to listen to reason then sometimes they need to be taught the.. blunt way.
The weak need to be toughened up because people are so ungrateful for what they have sometimes they need it all to crash down around them for them to realise how lucky they really were.
'You don't know what you've got 'till it's gone.'
I practice tough love because i CARE, because i want to change things for the better. I don't do it to amuse myself or destroy people, i do it for the greater good.
If you can't handle that kind of blantent honesty & bluntness i suggest you leave this page & go add some other hot looking peice of ass because i'm FAR more than a pretty face.
I am one hard assed woman & i know it.
I've dealt with a lot of mental illness, both personally & from those very close to me. People really need to be better educated in this subject & i plan on making that happen.
Along with a hundred other areas!
I've only started to accept & love being a woman in the last year & a half, before that i hated females & myself for being one.. but no longer, i now love & respect myself as a women and my fellow females around me.
I do however dislike flimsy girls who make a mockery of what being a woman is all about, they need a right fucking kick to the face & i'll be more than willing to give it to them if i see it happening.
"In my heart, I think a woman has two choices: either she's a feminist or a masochist."
Yes i am a feminist, no that does not mean that i hate men, i do however dislike ANYONE man or woman who treats a woman with disrespect, also i believe that it is just common decency NOT to talk about certain things in front of a woman, eg: who you want to fuck, what porn you watched the other day and how you wanna suck on that chicks tits in the corner. WILL YOU FUCKEN SHUT UP!! MY GOD!!! DISRESPECTFUL MUCH?!?!! A WOMAN CREATED AND BIRTHED YOU HAVE SOME RESPECT!
This is obviously something i feel strongly about and if you talk disrespectfully or disgustingly in my presence i will have no objection to smashing something over your head and making a fucking joke out of you.
I can fight and i will do so with anyone who asks for it.
I'm tough & i like to fight - verbally & if it comes to it- physically for things i believe in.
A of a combination of many things has made me this way: being Irish, an Aries, a Fire sign & having had a pretty crazy & not so normal upbringing has amde me realise what is important in life, what to be grateful for & what is & is not acceptable.
Plus, i was a fuck off royal celtic warrior in a past life so don't mess with me.
I learnt to fight by a big fuck off alcoholic irish man [hench me having the same genes] who could lift 150kgs with out breaking a sweat, and was trained as a black belt in several marcial arts, and would kick anyone's fucking ass that he felt like. That and my severe build up of pure rage for the ungratefulness of this society, i have no problem in kicking ass.
No i do not beat up strangers at the train station for no reason, i stick up for myself, my friends & my fellow females & sometimes that can result to me punching people.. yes, i know i have a lot of aggression and i believe that voilence can solve things! or at least make jerks look like fucking idiots for getting their ass whopped by a 50-something kg girl.
When i first meet people i tend to just observe & not say much, don't take this as me not liking you, it's just something i do. I tend to scope people out & then decide if i dig them or not.
I'm an organ donor.. or should say, i will be an organ donor once i'm dead. I would donate blood but i'm anemic [yes my body is farked.]
When i'm older and have a house i want to become a foster parent, there are too many kids out there without parents who am i to create another being when there are thousands of children out there already in need of a family?!
Foster parenting all the way. Yeah it will be tough but i know what tough is and i want to give kids who've had a bad start to life a real opportunity to see that the world isn't as shit as they think and that they ARE worth it.
I just want to bundle all the wounded children up and hold them and love them and help them feel safe and worthwhile.
I wish i lived in the medieval ages [again- yes i really do believe that my spirit came from that time] i would be be a warior QUEEN with bright red long flowing hair & a fucking kick ass sword.
OR a sourceress with vivid green eyes that shoot magical rays of some description, who also owns a fuck off sword, because swords are wonderous. OOOoooh & axes! you should see my battle warrior axe! it's bad-ass.
My favorite words are: Copious, Fuck, Bang, Bulbous, Omnious, Kitty, Kill, Meow & many other random words. I also love words that sound like their meaning, like snort and twang. How fucking cool are they!
My favorite colours at the moment are Red & White.
My favorite animals are Cats & Snakes.
My favorite places in the world are Ireland & St Kilda in Melbourne, Australia.
My favorite drinks are Sugarless V, Pepsi Max & Coffee.
My favorite foods are yummy vego stirfries & cookups, chocolate! sushi, indian, mexican, italian.. oooo i love food!
My very best friend was my first real kiss & first boyfriend & is now my housemate; Lukey {The Alpajerk!} [23, Mt evelyn, melbourne, AUS] I created a monster when i made him his myspace! but really, add him, he is the best. Just don't try to steal him from me or i will FUCK you up. k? :)
And Mikey is my other bestie! [23, Mooroolbark, Melbourne, AUS] He loves kitties, and going on adventures with me & gossiping, oh my god he loves to bitch, but no he's not gay.
LOOK WHAT THE LOVIELIES HAVE MADE ME!!
Fan art is awesome!
If you make me something pretty i will [most likely] automatically love you.
Feed my ego, it's a hungry muthafucker! Reoww!
VENOM:
n 1: toxin secreted by animals; secreted by certain snakes and poisonous insects (e.g., spiders and scorpions) 2: feeling a need to see others suffer [syn: malice, maliciousness, spite, spitefulness]
LILY:
Any of various plants of the genus Lilium, having variously colored, often trumpet-shaped flowers. Any of various similar or related plants, such as the day lily or the water lily. The flower of any of these plants.
'Irish girls are unique in their character. They're a combination of a girl, mother, hooker and nun. They can bat their eyes, or blacken yours. They can love you with a passion and make you feel like a king. Depending on their mood, they'll chastise you for drinking, or match you pint for pint. They're like the grace of God... uncomprehensible but indispensable.'
I will never give up. I will make a difference, because i'm not a lazy selfish cunt, like you.
When i am Queen [once more].
BE PROUD OF WHO YOU ARE.
11:11 ... the special digits.