washing and conditioning my hair. driving around graveyards in search of a new last name. spending hours in bookstores. learning really hard languages. dancing in the rain. playing hide and seek. dressing in drag. sleeping in. pretending i play the piano. talking about myself. brooding over the state of the universe. staring at the stars. inventing dance moves and naming them after italian food. stealing shopping carts. jumping on the bed. downloading music. pretending to be a know it all. jumping in puddles. doing impromptu monologues for myself in the bathroom mirror. five minute dance parties. catching lightning bugs. you know, just normal stuff.
visionary artists of all mediums.
this video is adorable. and the song is the cutest ever.
please give me something dark and moody. or something pulsing with life and soul. give me something that hasn't become so mainstream that i can't selfishly relish in the fact that i listen to it and you don't (but don't worry, i'll introduce you to it so i can selfishly hold the title of the one who discovered it first...tehehe). give me something to dance to. both on the dance floor and on the stage. give me something. but give me something good.
i was defined in music by a very close friend once: "you are the intro of concerning the ufo sighting (sufjan stevens)...transatlanticism (death cab for cutie) reminds me of standing in your kitchen...no man's land (sufjan again) is you cleaning your room or fiddling about...cathedrals (jump little children) is falling asleep in the afternoon..." i couldn't agree with him more.
of course, i like to think i'm daniel cowman...
Sometimes I like to pretend like I'm a character in a really good indy film. But really I secretly wish my life were a romantic comedy. Either way I love movies. LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE!!! BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN!!! donnie darko. jarhead. lovely and amazing. imaginary heroes. garden state. me and you and everyone we know. the hitchhikers guide to the galaxy. lost in translation. eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. i heart huckabees. fight club. american beauty. love actually. stage beauty. shakespeare in love. the last of the blonde bombshells. spanglish. in good company. the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe. all things harry potter. mean girls. saved. bring it on. bring it on again. finding neverland. peter pan. elizabethtown. mona lisa smile. the hours. but i'm a cheerleader. legally blonde. legally blonde 2. beautiful. miss congeniality. 28 days. 10 things i hate about you. romeo & juliet. moulin rouge. chicago. titanic. apollo 13. forrest gump. the terminal. braveheart. clueless. center stage. the company. the cutting edge. dirty dancing. little man tate. vanilla sky. minority report. ai. spirited away. nausicaa of the valley of the wind. castle in the sky. gattaca. contact. the wedding planner. wedding crashers. the 40 year old virgin. dodgeball. just married. the big tease. the nightmare before christmas. the corpse bride. the exorcism of emily rose. a charlie brown christmas. the christmas story. all about the boy. better than chocolate. latter days. kinky boots.
ok i won't lie. i like to come across like one of those people who thinks tv is stupid and trashy. i mean, who doesn't want to be that elitist intellectual who dismisses television as something vapid and mind-numbing? but see, i'm eclectic. and i really love to flip the channels and get sucked into some home renovation show. ty pennington makes me cry EVERY TIME i watch extreme home makeover. and i love samantha brown on the travel channel. that bitch is fierce. i want to be her friend. give me project runway and give it to me now. and i don't mind a little bit of america's next top model. so you think you can dance? well, so do i. i love all things hbo. and all things jj abrams thanks to my buddy sam. and give me televised gymnastics, cheerleading, and figure skating. give me house and grey's anatomy nonstop, ploise, and i'll pretend i'm a doctor and give you an mri, a heart echo, and i'll intibate like a pro. television ain't so bad kids. don't believe anyone else who tries to tell you otherwise. because they're lying and trying to look like they're better than you.
in absolutely no particular order: NONFICTION: conversations with god [changed my life]. japanland: a year in search of wa. how to be happy dammit. the know it all: one man's humble quest to become the smartest man in the world. acting power. more power to you. the creative habit. our musicals, ourselves. FICTION: the da vinci code. angels and demons. lord of the flies. all quiet on the western front. the harry potter series. bee season. big fish. a home at the end of the world. close range [which contains the short story brokeback mountain]. boy meets boy. are we there yet? nick & norah's infinite playlist. tommy's tale. the fountainhead [changed my life, too]. the encyclopedia brown series. the hardy boys series. the chronicles of narnia. castle in the attic. seven day magic. the westing game. can animals and machines be persons? PLAYS: all of shakespeare. arcadia. the trestle at pope lick creek. equus. how i learned to drive. the glass managerie. the shape of things. our town. night of january 16th. the cradle will rock. la ronde. the miracle worker. POETRY: sex education: the poems of janice moore fuller. the realm of possibility.
one time i lied and said nolan ryan was my hero. and kathleen turner. just because i HAD to have a hero. see, i don't really have any heroes. i never really got into that when i was young. i always looked up to my ideal self though. that's what i've always strived for and pushed myself towards. either that's really lame, super egocentric, or i missed out on a major part of growing up. you tell me.