How difficult it is to change yourself when your seemingly natural characteristics resist it full force? I am experiencing this now. I want to be a better person, a better friend, a better Christian, a better lover perhaps. I would like to now choose generativity over stagnation in my quest to change. I would like the me of the past to stay as old news. Yet one can only traverse in a new direction one step at a time.
I guess I am one of those less fortunate souls that requires more struggle in general. I envy those who have had it easy, or at least straight-forward. Yet I reluctantly understand that my continued battles (and victories) can only progress towards making that better Brian.
So here is to the future... may it grow brighter every day as I step closer towards the light.
THE LIGHTER SIDE: I'm a Libra - actually describes me pretty well, I have a big sweet tooth - always room for dessert, I LOVE singing big band/lounge music (one day...), and I'm moving to Florida to get my BS in Computer Animation