I am a strange creature...secretly sick and twisted! But also someone fragile, yet still strong within my mind. I am forever stuck between seeing the best in people and telling them to go fuck themselves. I gave up on people long ago due to the misuse and abuse of myself by others. I’m a depressed and cynical individual, yet somehow I still have the ability to love, trust and respect the occasional beautiful people who stumble my misguided and wayward way! “Beautiful†meaning those who are likeable, those who are kind, caring and respectful in return. People who I see something special in, something to be treasured and looked after! As much as I have suffered at the hands of Love, I still value the meaning and feelings which go with this ‘word’, the emotion, the trust and all those delicate beautiful things! Over the years I’ve gained and gathered this knowledge. The experiences I’ve had, the horror, the suffering, but the joy and happiness as well. That of falling in and out of love, that of regret and that of sadness. The longing to be Loved and to Love, it remains! Meeting new people is always good, especially when you find out later on what their first impressions actually were, believe me...I’ve heard a few! I never judge people but I do agree that first impressions are remembered. I do spout the strangest things at times, yet everything I say has some kind of meaning behind it. There’s nothing that can be said or done that will shock me, I’m very open-minded. I am always willing to give anything a try at least once, why not? Even if it isn’t everyone else’s cup of tea! I hate writing about myself and obviously I’m not gonna write loads about how totally fab I am because I’m not (well maybe I am just a little bit!). It’s up to other people to find out about me and see whether I am actually interesting and worth taking to. I guess that is why I have such a small number of close friends, because I don’t like to waste my time with people who aren’t willing to make an effort to talk back and be friendly, unless I really like someone...then I might make a little more of an effort! And once I love you, I will bend over backwards for you...literally! I think everyone has that certain something and like with everyone you meet, there are parts about them you like and parts you don’t. All I can say is why not give it a go! I can be a little shy when I meet new people and I tend to hold back certain things about my personality until I really get to know someone, but once I feel comfortable, slowly, a whole other crazy side of me is revealed. Not a crazy like “insane crazy,†more of a “wild†crazy side! Like tie you up to a tree in a public park in the middle of the night and fuck your brains out kind of wild crazy side! You'll know I'm comfortable with you when I can sing in front of you. I’m always up for a laugh no matter when or where. I don’t take things too seriously, life’s way too short to ass around with things we don’t want to do...so why do it? I totally agree with anyone who has ever said that working for a living sucks...it fucking sucks ass! I don’t actually know how to sum myself up right now, I wouldn’t really want to try for that matter...â€Head-Fuck†says it all! As long as I’m happy I don’t really care what I’m doing...no one should! All I know is when I laugh I really laugh, when I cry I really cry, and when I’m angry I fucking lose it! I'm forever learning, forever wanting to learn, forever changing!
