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But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock

It's all too easy to fool someone into thinking they're living...

About Me


My name is Heaven, my mom's tribute to an 80's song by some Bryan guy (Bryan Adams). I'm not complaining, its a pretty song. I'm easy to get along with. I'm a cool person.My best friends are Tarra, Heather and Missy and Alexis.
Quote of the Month Moment
We are late night car rides, back seats of Volvos, and we are windows down no matter how cold. We are products of our past, making our future, but we are living for what we have right now. We are McDonald’s and French fries and dollar menu stomachaches, gallons of Mountain Dew and shared drinks and shared songs. We are music, lyrics, feelings and sounds. We are guitars and strings and frustration and tears, broken strings, broken words, broken souls fixed by songs from people who know where we’ve been. We are fathers and memories and memories of fathers, we are not forgetting, always holding on, only letting go of things that shouldn’t matter. We are from families that taught not by example and instead let us learn the hard way, but for that we are still thankful. We are thankful to have learned at all. We are long walks and long rivers and long silences with long thoughts that lead to short words that mean everything. We are entwined fingers, entwined hearts, connected eyes and one soul. We are living for each other. We are best friends with best friends and two of four people who still feel like kings. We are dances and matching shoes and I don’t want the world to see me, I just want you to know who I am. We are making fun of movies and falling in love all over again over every song from our youth. We are cigarette scars and torn up fingers and the kisses against them, permanent memories of pain that has long since left. We are the future’s souvenirs of how things used to be, and we are examples of strength and dependence and I just need you more than I can say. We are notebooks and writing and emotion on paper, we are typed conversations telling everything, teasing us with distance. We are all night phone calls, sometimes fun, sometimes a lifeline. We are our hands, we hold us together, we are the strength I have to say this: we are our world. Our world is beautiful.I add everyone that sends me a request...

My Interests

I like:
Books
Movies
Lawn Chairs
Cuddles
And anything that will give me a reason to play with finger paints.

I'd like to meet:

I love making new friends...
But...
I AM NOT YOUR FUCK BUDDY.
I AM NOT YOUR NEXT SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP
AND NO, I'M NOT INTERESTED IN CYBER SEX...
jeez.


Quote of the Month
Quote of the Month (June)
Leathermouth is the anti My Chemical Romance. Leathermouth is the side of me that I’m not proud of, it’s the side of me that holds a grudge. Fuck people that say when someone hits you in the face just turn the other cheek, and karma will get that person, but what if I am karma? What if the buck stops with me? What if I’m supposed to put this person down? After all, I’m a fucking human being; I have hate, mistrust, and inadequacy. Sometimes you just want to take someone by the throat until their breath leaves their body.Quote of the Month (May)
"Love isn’t real. It’s just a lie we all tell ourselves at night so we feel a little less lonely."Quote of the Month (April)
How sweet! You still believe in death... that's just so... quaint. Well, sorry to pop your death bubble, but there's no such thing. So make the best of things. Any real belief in death is just wishful thinking. Don't waste good drugs on killing yourself. Share them with friends and have a party. Or send them to me.-Chuck PalahniukQuote of the Month (March)
The ink is running toward the page, it's chasing off the days. Look back at boat feet and that winding knee. I missed your skin when you were east. You clicked your heels and wished for me...-Northern Downpour: Panic at the DiscoQuote of the Month (February)
Maybe they know what I know, that the true way to a man's heart is six inches of metal between his ribs. Sometimes four inches will do the job, but to be really sure, I like to have six. Funny how phallic objects are always more useful the bigger they are. Anyone who tells you size doesn't matter has been seeing too many small knives.Quote of the Month (January)
The opposite of love isn’t hate, it’s indifference. And if you care enough to hate me, then someday...maybe, you’ll care enough to love me. ANDYes, well we were all kids. We all thought the world was a good place, then we grew up. And realized that sex was indeed real and marriage doesn't really last forever.Quote of the Month (December)
Don't let the hand you hold be the hand that holds you down. Open your eyes and see. AND
His silence is protection, not indifference.Quote of the Month (November)
I couldn't help feeling used just now as I watched him walk away. Then I smiled. I just got used. Welcome to adulthood.Quote of the Month (October)
Oooooh, Shot down, just like Junior prom!
I.will.kick.your.ass!
Wes and WadeQuote of the Month (September)
"He hopped over a fence? Can you do that naked?"Quote of the Month (August)
"There's definitely a trashy X-rated vibe to our live set, mainly to put off homophobes... It's like aggressive, softcore gay porn. There's a little man love, maybe some smooching, definitely some crotch grabbing. I definitely used to fuck the monitors." -Gerard Way
Quote of the Month (July)
A lonely tear isn't lonely anymore when it is accompanied by others of the same kind. This is something I’ve learn recently. The Human mind is a fucked up thing. Which is something I also learnt recently.Quote of the Month (June)
"Look out look out, it's gonna eat your face off! It's gonna eat your face it's gonna eat your face! AHHHHHHHH!
"Why are you screaming? You called it."
-Heaven and Tarra (Watching The Fog) Quote of the Month (May)
"Who knew support groups were this exhausting?"

Quote of the Month (April)
Just because people smile and laugh…it doesn’t mean they aren’t broken. Doesn’t mean they aren’t hurting. All it means is that they’re trying with everything they have to be invisible."
"That’s bullshit."
"Invisible to whatever’s hurting them."

Quote of the Month (March)
So why do we still want, desperately, passionately want, the naive people, the children and the fools, the idiots who don't believe such an obvious truth, to keep living in their little perfect orchestrated lie?

Because we're clinging to the only hope we have left in our cynical, self-made prison: that it's us who are wrong.

Music:


Honestly I listen to everything.
My favorite stuff is by My Chemical Romance, 30 Seconds to Mars,the Used, AFI, Atreyu, Godsmack, Frank Sinatra, Duke Ellington, Adair, Angels and Airwaves, Coheed and Cambria, Something Corporate, Billy Holiday, Buddy Holly, Beach Boys, Aerosmith, Panic! At the Disco, and anything from Metallica's 'Black' album or before it.

Movies:

Serenity (and Firefly).
The Young Frankenstein
Ten Things I Hate About You
Queen of the Damned
Lord of the Rings
The Boondock Saints
Harry Potter
The One
Kiss of the Dragon
Romeo Must Die
Mallrats
Dogma
Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
Mission Impossible
Superman
Center Stage
Aeon Flux
Pitch Black
The Chronicles of Riddick

Television:

Smallville, Supernatural, Gilmore Girls, The Suite Life of Zach and Cody
Inuyasha
Sailor Moon
Family Guy
Mind Freak
Full Metal Alchemist
Chrono Crusade
Animaniacs
Degrassi
Radio Free Rosco
Avatar: The Last Airbender
Robot Chicken.

Books:

Invisible Monsters
Obsidian Butterfly
Night Play, Queen of the Damned
Touch the Dark
Lullaby
Alanna: First Adventure
Harry Pottera
Fight Club
Artemis Fowl
The DaVinci Code
Angels and Demons
To Kill a Mockingbird
The Prince of Tennis
Hikaru No Go
Bleach
Chrono Crusader

Heroes:

Rogue-"Dreams die sometimes. Might seem like the end of the world...but it's really just the start of a whole 'nother one."Mother Teresa-"Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless."Laurell K Hamilton-"Mercy will get you killed, but sometimes it's all that makes us human."Dr. Seuss-"Adults are just obsolete children and the hell with them."
God might be dead, but Nietzsche is dying.

My Blog

Happy Holidays kids

Hey, I just made a total elf of myself. Check it out by clicking the link below.http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=1322181270This elfin' greeting brought to you by OfficeMax®....
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Wed, 12 Dec 2007 12:56:00 PST

And I wish for you

Though I know you are over me now.
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Fri, 16 Nov 2007 06:26:00 PST

Ashley had a baby...there were no heads popping

Preston Michael-Wynne ZahnerBorn: Sept 9th, 2007 Weight: 8lbs 8ozHead: 13 inChest: 13 inBody: 20 in   I soooo have a squishy faced nephew!
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Tue, 11 Sep 2007 09:19:00 PST

It’s not about birth. Not really. Its about you, me and life.

I never really understood the point of wakes. I get the whole funeral thing but I just don't understand why people get together in a big room and pretend to be happy when it's so obvious they aren't. ...
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 02:21:00 PST

Hey kids, I totally got trampled.

I got kicked in the face. Tarra had an ass on her head. But I saw Shiny Toy Guns and the Used and that makes me a happy kid. I love you all for holding things down when I can't and I love that you don...
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 11:34:00 PST

Today I played the fool

God it feels good. Familiar. I guess it's not only three am when I hate myself.It's certainly all the time that people hate me. Why should you like yourself when other people don't? People always sa...
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 11:59:00 PST

Clothes Off- Gym Class Heroes ::greatest video ever

So, Pete Wentz makes an appearance dressed as Elvis, and Panic at the Disco show up in animal costumes and have a dance off. Its great and everyone should watch it! In other news, Tarra goes into surg...
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Tue, 26 Jun 2007 07:12:00 PST

The last time I slept

Two days ago. And I still don't feel tired. Fucking shit!  
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Mon, 23 Apr 2007 11:03:00 PST

I have a tendency to screw up...look, I did it again.

So, this should be a really indepth sort of look at why I'm a shitty friend. But it's late and that isn't gonna happen. It's just, I wish I didn't make other people feel like that. Like they aren't im...
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 01:18:00 PST

The men in comic books are so fucking perfect...deep, sensitive and profoundly black and white

Honestly, hasn't anyone else noticed it? That comic book men know what to say and when to say it. And they know that deeper meaning to life or at the very least, the reason they do the things the...
Posted by But I Don't Have My Jellyfish Sunblock on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 07:29:00 PST