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About Me

I am not the same person I was yesterday and I don't want to be the same person I tomorrow that I am today...I am down with embarking on a never ending journey of awakening...

I am a verbal person, but I can be deaf when I feel overwhelmed...I recently met someone who has challenged me to understand communication in other ways and I like the balance it is giving me.

I can be a hypocrite and not take my own advice...I am learning to be softer on myself andgive myself the credit I deserve...the hand that hold me down tends to be my own hand. I have spend many years not allowing myself to feel and have worked hard to letting myself feel...I think putting yourself out there to feel runs the risk of having a longer fall down and sometimes it seems easier and more comfortable if you just stay low, but I don't like the way that feels, so I approached things differently with regard to the definition of insanity. I have worked very hard to fully feel things and I am abandoning the way I was in that aspect...I am diggin' :). I have feel beauty in everything I feel whether it be joy or pain because I know those painful feelings come from investing myself into something that once felt joyful and there is honor I find in experiencing those moments...I find an immense amount of joy in the things I do in life :)

I am what I am and I am down with that :)

My Interests

tonglen, bodhicitta, aikido, surfing, soccer, settling, art, appreciating things that are subtle, drums, the retiring sunset, redirecting energy, wood work, my vegetable garden, water tai chi, things that make me feel small...it is grounding and puts things into perspective, happy times :), walking, lyrics, laughter, travel

I'd like to meet:

I might like to meet someone that will be a future travel companion...specifically, someone who can pack a suitcase...

...you would have to let me know...

give me a pile of shit and I will try to find you a pony...I'm an optimist kinda gal

Music:

Laughter is my favorite sound. "The Story" by Brandi Carlile...I have one goal and that is that when I am old and wrinkled, to know that I earned every god damn line on my body with each having a story.

I saw Brandi Carlile on Oct. 14th...it was flippin' sweet...just ask Mel, she can vouch :)

Books:

Pema Chodron, my road atlas, The Five Love Languages, A Million Little Pieces. Paulo Coelho, Jeantte Winterson, Tom Robbins (I never liked water chestnuts until I read "Even Cowgirls Get the Blues")...

Heroes:

I hold neither myself or others on a pedestal...pedestals induce anger and resentment, but here are a few I am grateful for...Erin Ashmore, My parents...they provided me with a life full of opportunities...they were rational and looked after me, but were not strict, instead they allowed me to go out and learn things on my own through experience even if they knew I was going to end up in pain...watching me do those things and knowing it was the best way for me to learn is something I am very thankful for...

My Blog

Heart advice

I don't seem to hear the sound of the trains these days and so I let you go...Plymouth is netorious for it's trains and I have avoided them for a while now...I dropped you off at the railroad station....
Posted by :) on Tue, 23 Oct 2007 09:21:00 PST

Being an aunt and the beauty in imperfection

It is Saturday night...I worked tonight and then spent it drinking my yogi tea and reading about psychodynamic and biophysical theories for emotionally impaired children, while passing on invites to e...
Posted by :) on Sun, 21 Oct 2007 10:45:00 PST

my ideal woman(me and/or her)

I just wrote and I am going to again...my ideal woman(me and/or her)...we often see other people as we see ourselves...yes?  Right...I sent a message to a woman who I am very close to after I wro...
Posted by :) on Tue, 16 Oct 2007 09:06:00 PST

Heart, don’t fail me now...

This past spring/summer, I discovered the sweet sweet sound of Brandi Carlile spinning in the air.  I made sure to frequently check up on when she would be in town and when I found out she was, I...
Posted by :) on Tue, 16 Oct 2007 07:50:00 PST

a time and place for everything(this summer)

At the beginning of this summer, I decided I was going to stay with family in CA and spend my summer surfing...I didn't end up going...my aunt was diagnosed with breast cancer which I will get into in...
Posted by :) on Mon, 08 Oct 2007 04:43:00 PST

Lets get physical!

I am extremely physical and emotional in everything I do, so I am going to play with some physical science a bit even though I was touching a bit more on the kinesthtic aspect. here is what I was rand...
Posted by :) on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 10:08:00 PST

this is beautiful

jesuschrist!  This is a beautiful song...a brillant piece of work...I feel extremely drawn to this song... "Breathe In Breathe Out" by Mat Kearney --> --> Breathe in, breathe outTell me all of y...
Posted by :) on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 04:21:00 PST

when someone you love drops a bomb

I am usually all about standing up for what one believes in...personally, for myself, I am able to set boundaries out of self-respect in that regard.  Today, Thursday I in the middle of thed...
Posted by :) on Fri, 14 Sep 2007 11:25:00 PST

moon

I called my aunt today to see how she was been doing...the one who lost her husband in July...she just signed a contract that sold her house...she laughed when she called bc she was thinking she wante...
Posted by :) on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 11:17:00 PST

the crew, an open door to the end of summer

I have been extremely fortunate through life to be surrounded by wonderful individuals...a friend of mine is leaving tomorrow and a shit ton of us brought our asses out to R.O. to spend time with her ...
Posted by :) on Mon, 27 Aug 2007 12:48:00 PST