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Moonlit Whispers, Sunlit Eyes

..dreaming... learning... changing... healing.. -You Will See..I Will Climb Up There-

About Me


. I am not always on here daily and frequently take quite a while to reply to messages.. Thank you for your patience and understanding! I can only do what I feel up to at the time.
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.About Sending Friend Requests - I'D REALLY APPRECIATE GETTING A MESSAGE ALONG WITH THE REQUEST.. OR I MAY NOT EVEN GET TO YOURS.. thanks :)
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............................................................ ....... THESE ARE ALL OF MY .. PROFILES...ANYTHING ELSE IS A FAKE!
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..(Random Meaningful Lyrics)..
"The world is just illusion.. trying to change you"
"Sweet Josephine never sleeps"
"The journey seems endless.. but I'll carry on"
"The heart may freeze, or it can burn..The pain will ease.. if I can learn.. there is no future, there is no past..."
"little angel ....tries to make it all worth while"
"Though the past, the unwanted memories, are holding onto you... All the power in the Universe, conspires to carry you"
"I will wait for you... endlessly"
"May I become your wings"

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I have many major health problems.. ...Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue, Chronic Myofascial Pain, Mycoplasma(possibly gone), Severe gait disturbance, Multiple Chemical Sensitivity, Allergic to a chemical in black dyes(in clothing, makeup, oils, gasoline, hair dyes, etc) Orthostatic Hypotension, possibly Hypoglycemia, Anemia, Lymes Disease, and I am usually fighting off more minor viruses as well. I also have major & minor depression, anxiety, and insomnia.
I'll explain much more later..
These are my main practices/treatments/therapies:
I see a Naturopathic Dr.(1x/Week) that works with Homeopathic Remedies.
I also see him as a Chiropractor about once a month
I was seeing an Occupational Therapist (3 X/Week), now only twice a month, that works with electro-acupuncture machines and Microcurrent for my pain/tightness and other symptoms, she uses Trigger Point Release Therapy and Cranio-Sacral Therapy also.. as well as other techniques.
I take Glyconutritional Supplements (up to 3x/Day) through Mannatech.
And other supplements
I work with meditation/relaxation techniques; Reiki, Reflexology, and other healing techniques.
I practice conscious gratitude, letting go, and non-attachment.. as well as many other positive lifestyle changes. I try to eat as health-conscious as I can. I'm on a high salt intake diet for my low blood pressure & Autonomic Dysfunction. I use an Ionic Footbath every few days, currently.
I am prescribed an Alpha Stim 100(cranial electro-therapy device) for depression, anxiety, insomnia, & pain.(Its a god-send).. I use this daily for at least 2 hours (its currently away being repaired).
I must spend at least 80% of my day resting, stretching, and just enjoying a peaceful environment.
I'm 23 and I've been dealing with major health issues since 1999, living at home with my mom as a dependant adult, unable to work or school, though I'm definitely on the road to recovery, it's a slow process with many ups, downs, and let downs, but with Much progress overall.. Healing isn't ever easy, quick, or mindless..it's a personal journey we all must take action in getting through. It's a major learning process, I can either fall and give up or keep going, no matter what... I'ts well worth the wait and effort for me.
If you are going to have me as a friend, know this... I am going through a lot of health problems..you cannot fix me and me hearing you wish you could doesn't really help me, this is my own journey and I must go through it.. you will hear what I go through daily, sometimes it sounds ugly, sometimes it sounds as if I'm doing Much better (it's a rollercoaster) and the best you can do is be there for me.. I appreciate any prayers or thoughtful gestures, kind words, etc.. I'm sorry if I sound really depressed at times.. I can be, but it isn't forever.. this isn't forever.. and if you stick around for the future, you will see a new, more happy and healthy me.
Most of my blogs are more for myself, or more of an inspiration to others that may deal with something similar.. it's a record of me healing.. and growing.. I've already come a long way.
It's hard for me to meet new people because I have to put forth more energy to get to know them, talk about myself, get comfortable with them.. so, many days I must stick to talking with my closest friends..(some days I can't even talk to them) I love to meet new people though, it just takes a while to really connect with me sometimes.
My main goal is to get well... so I can help others a lot more and pursue my dreams as well.
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. My main interests are:
Horses (riding, training, showing, competition, communication, psychology)
Modeling/Acting/Photography
Singing
Alternative Health and Healing
Making Jewelry, Accessories, Model Horse Blankets/Accessories, Unique Gift Cards
Creative Writing
Helping Others
Learning ways to help myself and others
My mom and I have two horses.. my old show quarterhorse gelding and a younger paint/quarterhorse gelding.. I hope to start getting back into horse related activities soon.
I am learning all I can about modeling and photography while I'm still at home because I plan to give modeling a try and possibly photography or acting as well. Many of my pictures are just creative shoots to see what I can do with different types of modeling/poses/photography (all of my pics are taken by me, so far) I will be working with different photographers, as my health allows, to gain experience, and start building a portfolio.. I may start contacting some agencies as well (when I can). I do not want to limit my work to more "gothic" styles and shoots.. I'm open to more mainstream looks as well. My own personal style changes as well, I never limit myself to one look, though I completely adore many of the gothic types of fashions(as you can tell). I love creating beautiful, creative, almost surreal, images that reflect my inspirations and the beauty I see in this world. I've never used Photoshop.
I used to always be in choir in school, usually a First Soprano, I have lost much of my singing ability with my health problems causing complications, but I've never given up and it's slowly coming back as my health is improving... I may continue working on my own "music" projects or consider joining a band at some point... I'm not sure yet. I love to sing though I have a bit of stage fright.
I'm learning a lot about alternative healthcare (through my own health battles) and different types of treatments, and the field interests me as well, especially different types of healers, energy work, and alt. therapies.. possibly even working with animals.
I feel odd because I had to learn these things due to my severe health complications and can't talk about it with just anyone because not everyone Needs to or wants to learn these things (it's a whole new way of living/knowing).. that limits my conversation greatly at times and it makes me look odd to some.
I've started creating some of my own designs for jewelry and accessories, as well as model horse blankets/accessories, and I've come up with an interesting gift card making style that I may continue working with.
I've almost always written poetry, and done very well in English/Creative Writing classes, so I'm going to continue and see where it takes me.
I'm one to always try to help anyone I can.. everyone struggles with many things in life and if I can help in any way, I usually at least try.. I always used to think I'd become a counselor, now I'm not sure.. but I will continue to help others when I can.. I have a feeling now I'll be helping others more with health issues.
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My Interests



Some Interests Of Mine:
Spirituality, Modeling, Acting, Singing, Photography
Dancing/Belly Dancing
Making Jewelry/Accessories
Writing, Poetry/Lyrics
Collecting & Customising Model Horses
Riding, Training & Showing Horses
Equine Psychology
Equine Massage
Equine Photography
Coffee Shops(not for coffee)
Gothic festivals,events
Cranio-Sacral Therapy
Trigger Point Therapy/Myofascial Release
The Lymphatic System
Pain Management
Healing Using Energy, Healers
Clairvoyant Reading & Healing
The Subconscious Mind
Levels of Consciousness
Neuronets
Homoeopathy
Essential Oils
Bach Flower Essence Remedies
Bio Energetic Synchronization Technique (B.E.S.T.)
Acupressure
Acupuncture
Microcurrent Technology
Cranial-Electro-Therapy Treatments
The Meridian System
Self-Imagery
Dreams/Interpretation
Meditation/Self-Hypnosis
Crystals, Gems, Pendulums, Dowsing.. Divination
Tarot
The Tao
Metaphysical Science
The Laws of The Universe
Quantum Physics
Organic Foods
Pilates
Tai Chi
Holistic,Natural Healing
Reflexology
Reiki
Shamanism
Power Animals
Chakras, Auras
Palmistry
The Fifth Kingdom/Aquarian Age
Indigo Adults
Indigo-Crystal Ascension
Electro-Acupuncture
CHI Machines
The Upledger Institute
Ramtha's Teachings/RSE
Vampires/Vampyres
Otherkin
READING/LEARNING
...Always adding more interests

I'd like to meet:


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I strive to show kindness, respect, and loyalty
I am generally a very sweet, caring, forgiving, understanding, supportive, loving, genuine person, I hardly ever get angry and I couldnt dream of being mean.
I'm also shy, somewhat stubborn, sometimes fearful, usually anxious.
I now have a much brighter outlook on life on my "good health" days, and feel like I can get through anything now.
I'm always there for those I care about, but I have very little energy that limits me daily..
I hate giving up on people and things..
If I'm connected to you in any way...I'm there for you always & am never past helping in any way I can (unless you majorly cross me)
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. I am overcoming these illnesses.. and I try to think above bitterness.. it is what it is, I appreaciate what I've been through, and it's tranforming me into someone I admire in many ways.
I've also come to somewhat of a conclusion/belief that it's happening for a reason and I'm glad I'm able to learn the things I have...which I wouldn't have learned if I'd never gotten ill... as ugly and unfortunate as it has seemed or seems, it's also, now, a thing of beauty to me.
What keeps me going is a lot of hope and faith in the things "I" believe in, including myself and my dear friends, the beauty I see, the future I imagine, my own spirituality.
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I am just me.. I may have been through a lot, but in ways I'm glad...It gives me a deep understanding of a lot of things, I try not to judge Anyone, especially if I can see a connection with someone's behaviour and their own health.. it's brutal to us (mind,body&spirit) if it's not "right"... and there's more connected to our health than most would like to realise.. I feel like I'm going through this (partly) to be able to help those that are going through things, like I did, and still am.. because it's scary and painful.. though I've only experienced the pinpoint tip of the iceburg of suffering, and everyone experiences things differently and their bodies and minds react differently, I know enough to where I think I could help almost anyone with anything if they allow me to. Helping people is just a huge part of me, and helping you, in turn, helps me. Sure I get taken advantage of a lot, and I'm usually unappreciated, but I woudln't change it for the world.
I am not perfect.. I have a path and I'm walking it, picking up bad habits and faults along the way, I just know I'm on the "right" path for me.
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I'm not as "serious" all the time as some may think, it's just hard for me to truly open up and be comfortable around people (as well as have the energy) to get to the point of being a goof. I don't know if I've ever been 100% comfortable around anyone though.. I hope someday I can be.
I consider myself a dork, and can be very childlike (when comfortable).. and I adore some of my friends for being that way too!
. I'm on here for friends, and networking Only! Please Do Not Hit On Me, I don't like it or appreciate it and there are more mature ways to express your interest in someone. I'm not looking for a relationship at this time, though I'm keeping my eyes open... if someone has interest in me, they must be willing to be a friend first or they will only push me away.
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THANKS FOR TAKING THE TIME TO READ MY PROFILE, I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!

Music:

AFI
American Head Charge
Anders Manga*
And One
Android Lust
Apoptygma Berzerk
Assemblage 23
Avenged Sevenfold
Basshunter*
Behind The Scenes
Bile
Blaqk Audio
Bleeding Through
Bloodwire
Blutengel*
Bone Thugs N Harmony
*Charon*
Children Of Bodom
CHTHONIC
Coal Chamber
Combichrist
Clannad
Cradle Of Filth
Crossbreed
Crystal Castles
Dark Tranquility
Das Ich
Days Of Our Decay
Deadstar Assembly
Deadsy
Deathstars*
Demon Hunter
Depeche Mode
Devildriver
Diary Of Dreams*
Die Form
Dimmu Borgir
Dir En Grey
Dope Stars Inc
Dry Kill Logic
Eiffel 65
emilie simon*
Entwine
Enya
Evanescence
Fear Factory
Flyleaf
40 Below Summer
Funker Vogt
Godhead
Gothminister
Graveworm*
Haggard
Hanzel Und Gretyl
HIM
*How Like A Winter*
Hungry Lucy
*Icon & The Black Roses*
ICP/Twiztid
Ill Nino
Inactive Messiah
James D Stark*
*J. Caldron*
Jesus On Extasy*
Kandles At Nine
Kittie
KMFDM
Korn
Lacrimosa*
L'Ame Immortelle
Lockjaw
Lollipop Lust Kill*
London After Midnight
Malice Mizer
Marilyn Manson
Midnight Syndicate
*Mind.In.A.Box*
Moi Dix Mois
Moonspell
Morphine Shot
Mortiis
Mudvayne
*My Dying Bride*
Nine Inch Nails
Old Man's Child
Opeth
Orgy
Otep
Placebo
Poisonblack
Pride And Fall*
Project Pitchfork
Psyclon Nine*
Qntal
Rammstein
Razed In Black
Repentance
Rob Zombie
Sabachthani*
Scream Silence
She Wants Revenge
Shiny Toy Guns*
Sinisstar
Skinny Puppy
Slipknot
Society 1
Sopor Aeternus & The Ensemble Of Shadows
Stabbing Westward
Stromkern
Switchblade Symphony
TATU
Theatre Of Tragedy*
The Cure
The Dead Birds
The Foreshadowing*
The Kovenant
The Last Dance
The Rasmus
Therion
The Sins Of Thy Beloved
The 69 Eyes
Third Realm
30 Seconds To Mars*
Tiamat*
To/Die/For
Tristania*
Type O Negative
Velvet Acid Christ
*Virgin Black*
VNV Nation
*Widows Effluxion*
Within Temptation
WeltenBrand*
Wolfsheim
Wumpscut
Zeromancer
......more to come
Recently Acquired CDs:
Blaqk Audio-Cexcells
Mind In A Box-Crossroads
Pride and Fall-In My Time Of Dying
Diary Of Dreams-Nekrolog 43 Otep-The Ascension Within Temptation-The Heart of Everything
Weltenbrand-The End Of The Wizard
Bloodwire- Transformation

Movies:

Party Monster, RENT, Tuck Everlasting, The Phantom Of The Opera, Legend, Mona Lisa Smile, Donnie Darko, Memoirs Of A Geisha, Interview With A Vampire, Bram Stoker's Dracula, Gone With The Wind, Ever After, Dark City, Queen Of The Damned, Clueless, Ginger Snaps 1, 2 & 3, Blade 1 & 2, Cold Mountain, Lolita, Vanilla Sky, The Lost Boys, 28 Days Later, Constantine, Thirteen, Mean Girls, High School Musical 1&2, Girl-Inturrupted, Rock Star, Anti-Trust, Troy, Alexander, Kingdom Of Heaven, The Lords Of Dogtown, The Day After Tomorrow, Underworld, Vanity Fair, The Chronicles Of Narnia-The Lion, The Witch & The Wardrobe, The Secret, What The Bleep Do We Know, Casanova, Pride And Prejudice, The Prestige, The Illusionist, Tin Man, A Boyfriend For Christmas, The Long Shot, Stardust, Bridge To Terabithia, The Last Mimzy, Elizabeth, Elizabeth:The Golden Age, Becoming Jane, Enchanted, Princess, The Water Horse, Martian Child..
(To Name A Few)

Television:

Make Me A Supermodel
Am.NextTopModel
All 'Top Model' Series
The Janice Dickinson Modeling Agency
Janice and Abbey
The Agency
Project Runway
Anything on models,fashion..
(current shows)Wildfire(RIP), Kyle XY, Greek, Degrassi, South of Nowhere, Instant Star, The Hills, One Tree Hill, Quarterlife, Ugly Betty, Heroes, Moonlight(RIP), October Road, Men In Trees,..& more
Anything with horses and other animals..
Random other dramas and comedies
Movies on TCM and other channels
A lot of movies!!
Everything on the Veria Channel!

Books:

books on: healing, alternative medicine/treatments, energy, auras, chakras, intuition & psychic experience/awareness, clairvoyance, tarot, crystals, indigo/crystal children, consciousness, managing/surviving with chronic illnesses & conditions,...many others..some specific books I adore:
Hands Of Light (A guide to healing through the human energy field)
The Seven Spiritual Laws Of Success (A guide to the fulfillment of your dreams)- by Deepak Chopra
Hands That Heal- by Echo Bodine
Love Cards, Destiny Cards - by Robert Camp
How To See and Read The Aura
Body Reflexology (Healing at your fingertips)
Some Magazines:
Gothic Beauty, Industrial Nation, Outburn(sometimes), Body & Soul, Reiki.., Alt Health magazines
Recently Acquired Books:
Love Colors-A new approach to love,relationships, and auras-Pamala Oslie
The Passion Test-Janet Bray Attwood/Chris Attwood
Learning Their Language-Intuitive communication with animals & nature-Marta Williams
Love Yourself,Heal Your Life-Lousie Hay
Staying On The Path-Dr Wayne W. Dyer
Acupressure For Emotional Healing-Michael Reed Gach/Beth Ann Henning
Tune Your Voice-
These Things You Shall Do..And Greater-Greg Simmons
The New Earth, The Power Of Now by: Eckhart Tolle
The Children Of Now by: Meg Blackburn Losey
Pendulum Power

Heroes:

The people that have saved my life and those that have helped me see hope in my future and push me to never let go of my dreams.. they will never be forgotten..

My Blog

I'm In A Painting!!

One of my pictures has been re-created into a painting by a friend of mine on myspace.. "Dennis" He wrote to me many months ago asking permission to use one of my images for his artwork, I told him I ...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Fri, 04 May 2007 04:00:00 PST

What I'm thinking and planning..(Please Read)

So I'm planning on seriously venturing into modeling now, as well as going for anything else that I want in life. I dont have a set plan of "how", I just know I will do it and it will fall into place...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Tue, 17 Apr 2007 07:13:00 PST

Days Like Today (written 2 days ago)

I wrote this on December 12, 2006 while I was pretty much stuck laying in bed over the last few days. I was scared   Days like today can come out of nowhere Days like today can tear me down Days ...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 11:42:00 PST

More Thoughts - somewhat continued from previous blog

  there's a difference between being happy in a relationship, and happy in love.. there's also just being a generally happy person, I'm just not sure if the two are as connected as some people t...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 07:55:00 PST

Thoughts And Things I'm Learning

  love is so elusive, it seems how can you give unconditional love to someone if you can't give it to yourself and in turn.. how can you give someone something you obviously don't believe in? th...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Tue, 05 Dec 2006 06:38:00 PST

My Winter In MN (as beautiful as it can be) - Just A Rant

my effects and side effects of winter in MN the pains all over my body increase.. my legs feel like they have constant growing pains, and they tighten up, which makes it harder for me to walk, which ...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 07:55:00 PST

Gothy Horses - Updated Pics!

Update - Friday, Nov 24 : Two New Mini Creations! these are for horses that fit in the palm of my hand practically.. so theres a huge size difference..     ..............................
Posted by Enigma Rose on Thu, 23 Nov 2006 06:18:00 PST

(Please Read) My New Theory..

I know I've been posting a lot lately..but this is kinda important, and to me... it's Huge!   Brand New Theory About My Health Conditions.. when I was in the womb, my mom noticed I didn't ever k...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Wed, 22 Nov 2006 06:40:00 PST

New Projects! (Horsie Stuffs)

Here's 3 of my new little projects I just started today.. it was fun, I spent about 3 1/2 hours on these..trying to figure out what to do and how to do it ;) I have about 5 more ideas to start new one...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Tue, 21 Nov 2006 08:48:00 PST

Just a diary entry from today.. kinda long

my mom doesn't like to hear about my worse days..usually she starts wanting to "fix" it, or think of things that could help over time, when I already know it's just somthing I have to go through for ...
Posted by Enigma Rose on Mon, 20 Nov 2006 10:02:00 PST