About Me
From God's Treasured Mom, sister to you all,
Lighthouse2God in the chatrooms/online.I love you all with God's unconditional love within me.My background is of Lebanese descent and Muslim family, even though I was not raised to live Muslim, the religious commitment was ingrained in my Mom and and was a stronghold in my life. My Mother and Father are from Lebanon. My Mom was illiterate in both languages, ARabic and English. There is 36 years difference in Age between them. (To me that is miracle) My Father had lived in America for about 25 years in Montana/ND as a Rancher. He went back to Lebanon to marry my Mother to get her out of an terrible/abusive situation. They came over to America around the 1950's and settled in the Ross Area on a farm. They eventually moved into Ross town, where I was raised. I am the youngest of 6 in my family 2 brothers and 3 sisters. My Father died when I was 7 years old and he was 81 years old at the time of his death. He was basically senile and and in the nursing home during the time I was raised by him. We moved to Stanley within a year after his death. The time I lived in Ross, the only time I was exposed to the Christian Faith was through the Lutheran Church in Ross. I only attended a few times with the basic of Religion not understood. One of my friends was a Mormon descent and that was a little confusing but the longing for family love was exposed. The age difference in siblings was spread apart between us, 4 years was my next sister and pretty much each sibling thereafter spaced similar. When we moved to Stanley my sister and I were basically the ones raised in the apartment. My brother Hamed (8 years older) was there for a year or so and then graduated and I also had my sister Bev who was raised with me too, she is 4 years older than me. I have recollected and been revealed that I received a New Gideon's New Testament from my sister when we lived in Ross and I clung to it as I learned to read, but It wasn't until the 5th grade when God's Word was planted strongly in my life. Another Red Gideon's New Testament was planted in my hands. I began to carry that always. I had certain pages I constantly turned to. I did not really understand but I turned to them. And God has shown his intricate hand upon my life and his plan for me and how he chose me and was with me every step of the way through those sciptures, and I even looked up names and verses in the meanings and I was so blessed and in awe of God's hand upon my life always, whether I was rebellious or in God's will. Soon after that, I was asked to attend Jet Cadets this was a (youth bible study/class) at a Baptist Church across the street of my grade school. But I was very lonely and considered very unpopular and an outcast amongst my classmates. My different Mother, speaking mainly Arabic (broken English/Arabic) and illiterate in both languages separated me from others. I did not deal with things well either. I had a low self-esteem of myself because of the issues in my life. I soon began to read my little NT, reading mainly the same passages each time, not with any understanding. After attending Jet Cadets, I longed for the Love of Jesus. Between two families alternating in picking me up each Sunday, I began attending Church. It was one Sunday night service, on Sept. 22nd, 1974 I went forward to accept Christ. I continued to carry around that little NT. My Pastor had me write scriptures and words of wisdom in it. I was discipled by my classmates and my Pastor & went through some one on one with my Pastor and then following I was later immersed by baptism, and that my Mother approved cause she thought I would be sprinkled like my brother, but her face was sour and my documents of Baptism are destroyed, but the commitment to God was solidified. And I knew in my heart that she knew this was very real and knew the difference of the Baptisms of my brother's and I. Therefore, my struggle began with my Mother began the night I accepted Jesus. She slapped me in face and said I was no good because of Jesus. She would prevent me from going to Church at times. And because I feel of a lack of foundation and longing to supported and loved by people, I began to fall away in my Junior and Senior years of school. People/classmates in school never really accepted me or welcomed me and there was times they called me names, say I was ugly,
nicknamed me Homer - which wasn't a compliment, my last name was Omar then. So all my school years it was not very pleasant, it was difficult time to grow up and I felt so lost with people and relationships and did not do well, oh I was a talker and outgoing but students did not treat me well. I did very well academically but socially it was very hard and hopeless feeling. So in choices, I began to do shameful things after I found myself drunk and practically passed out and lost my virginity because of that through forced relations. After that I did not care, I would find myself in worse situations with men cause no one would have me, I was abused by older men too, and one was from a Police chief whom I baby-sat his kids. Over and over I would find myself attacked or in situations of shame and I felt ugly and no good and would turn to wrong things in situations and shameful things and I would even see that what I was doing was wrong in God's eyes and God loved me, and that is why sometimes, I would start something and quit in the middle, cause of shame of what I was doing in the Lord's sight. This continued in my college years, going out with men, cause no man would pay attention
to me before or ever think I was beautiful. So again shameful situations would happen in Minot, and in promiscuity and ways in my life. Memories still do flash Back, but God shows me that is not who I am and how much I am so beautiful in him now, in all of that God's Love is so unconditional and pure and he would not leave me. I saw it then in the rebellion and shame and I see it now so much evidence of God's intricate hand in my life.I lived in Stanley until I graduated with highest honors from High School in 1981. I enrolled into college at Minot State University (MiSU) in Minot, ND in the fall of 1981. My plan was to major in Accounting, but life seemed to be a roller coaster of
situations and influences. I met my husband that I have now, during my college years lived immorally with him and found myself pregnant before any marriage, but God was so Good, my husband was good and we married and were in love and he cared deeply for my situation. Because of lack of interest, I quit college and soon I married my Husband Wayne in May of 1983. By 1985, we were raising 2 children but still struggling in life, especially financially. I may have left my faith, but our Lord hadn't left me. He began to bring back some of the families of the past back into my life. I was in Rebellion that Continued from High School until I had my 2 children and was wooed back to church in 1986-7. My husband began college, I was able to attend college and my Lord Jesus found his way back into my life and into my family. That's when through my faith that I began to realize the uniqueness of "who" I am in the Lord and the
beauty of "who I am and am to be". That was the road to a new beginning and now
born again life to seeing how it is now for me, that There is no more shame, but an inner glow of God's creation of me.My husband Graduated from MiSU with a Biology Secondary Education degree and I graduated from MiSU with a General Studies Bachelor of Science degree in May of 1990. Finances held me back from completing my major in Math Education. My Husband accepted the position as a Secondary Science Teacher in ND in July of 1990 and he is presently teaching and assisting in many other areas for the school such as coaching, bus driving, etc. God began a road of healing and restoration of my life back to him. We began to raise our kids as Christian, began to forgive my Mother and family. I feel I am basically the only born again Christian in my family ( among siblings). So through the seed of the NT given by the Gideons, the vine began to grow through the Labor of prayer and God's watering. The vine began to produce fruit, My Husband came to Christ as we attended church and made decision at the church alter and committed to the congregation too in Baptism by water, my daughter came to Christ in her teens at youth camp and so did my son at camp, and both were baptized in water immersion. God was with me in HIS power and HIS Glory to help lead My Mother to Christ days before Jesus took her home in the year in September of 2002. Through 5 years of a son's rebellion against family and God, I travailed deeply and wept deeply in prayer for my son to turn to God, My son Jeff came to Christ in the summer at Camp in July 2003, Miraculously
through interceding prayers. And even through this he fell back with his group of drinking buddies, God miraculously had to take him out of rebellion and much havoc of drinking/violations and accidents during my son's senior year through 2004 until he enlisted in the Army reserves that summer. And I prayed that God would not let him go to Army unless I would see him united and back in Faith in him, And never fails! He chose God 2 weeks before basic training and now has gone through in the linguistics program for Farci language (Iranian/Persian) for the Army Reserves in Monterey California. After basics in 2004 he was stationed in Monterey California for schooling for a year and he then was stationed in Fort Wachuka Arizona as of December 2, 2005 for the interrogation/intelligence training in Farci Language and has now graduated on May 4th, 2006.I have a burden for my family and in prayer that fruit will produce. I find myself travailing in prayer much. I know I am a prayer intercessor for salvation and setting
people free from their bondage's and to instill faith in all generations, especially in the youth now generation. God has opened the internet ministry for me to be a Mother last October of 2005. In God's Ministry, I have prayed salvation, Baptism of the Holy Spirit, and I have been lead to deeper areas of intimacy with the Lord through the relationships of being Called to be a Mother and Sister to God's treasures around the world. We are HIS TREASURES, we paid with the price of Christ's Blood and life, and we are invaluable, cause we are HIS OWN, Jesus will never forsake HIS OWN. I weep when I read 2 Timothy 2 that shares this. I have led other people to Jesus and discipled many and exhorted/watered with Christ's Love. The seed that was once planted on ground to produce one Christian, God has multiplied eternally! It will not stop when I die, but our precious Lord is watering and producing through the seed of the Gideons NT and the Love of God's Word. Through the ages, I have really seen the intricate weaving of Christ in my life and
realized my identity and specialness in the eyes of Christ. Through the trials and tribulations the molding of of my Father hands to the growth and rebuilding of my life that much fruit is being produced in my life and others. Only through my yielding and obedience the Holy Spirit and not turning to sin, do I see my relationship prosper with Jesus. Jesus truly is my Savior and my Life! He truly loves me and is My Lord! I Love You Jesus and Thank You Jesus for who you truly are and who you have made me to be and you are faithful to complete me to the end. And as you do this in me, you do this anyone who desires and asks, Hallelujah!! For your Glory and Honor and Praise, I live, move and have my being in you Lord. You ARE LORD!! Thank you Jesus, melt me mold me fill me use me, Hallelujah!! Spirit of the Living God Fall afresh on us!!Background information:I was born in Stanley ND in 1963 to Lebanese parents - Albert and Reda Omar, youngest of six. Grew up in Ross for 8 years and then Stanley-Graduated from HS in Stanley in 1981. Moved to Minot and went to College off and on and Graduated from MSU with a General Studies Bachelor of Science in 1990. I was married to my Husband Wayne in May of 1983. We have two children, Danielle who has completed 3nd year of College at Trinity Bible College in Ellendale with an associates degree and will continue now in the Spring at MSU in Minot ND and was married to Anthony Ramos on December 31st, 2005 Jeff is in the Army Reserves and just recently on Nov. 17th, graduated with
High Honors in the Farci Language (Iranian/Persian) from the Linguistic Academy
in Monterey, California. He graduated on May 4th, 2006 in Ft. Wachuka, in Southern Arizona for the the intense Interrogation/Intelligence/Language Training. I know I will be praying much for him, because of the battle in the mind and mighty calling of God on him.We moved to Towner in July of 1990 for my Husband to take the position Secondary Science Teacher and is still teaching and doing many other things for the school such as coaching, bus driving, etc. He is truly an example and role model to the peopleof this community and those around. Students have come back and praised him and thanked him for his character and preparation and caring person he is for them in their college studies and life.I have recently experienced a Missionary trip to Bustamante & Sabinas Hidalgo, Mexico in July of 2004. We had mighty warrior and guardian Angels around us in the 2 accidents, one in Austin Texas and the other in Sabinas. God was in Control and took care of us well. It was an awesome and very surreal experience. I will share more on this
trip how God drew me deeper into the listening and interceding as warrior/deeper anointing of God.I look at the special uniqueness in my birth and life through my heritage and age difference in my parents. I realize that the Lebanese descent is a blessing and the life of my Mother and Father as a positive influence and characteristic is in me, where as growing up I looked at it with shame. My Mother passed away in 2002 and I was proud
of her being my Mother and I her daughter. I have had an opportunity to meet with my Lebanese relatives in Calgary, AB Canada and I am feeling so good inside to meet up with my roots. The wedding was an unbelievable and intense moving experience. So much love, fun and wholesome experiences, I will cherish it deep inside my heart and I
have some wonderful DVD with some drama acting that will get you rolling on the floor (You may need a translator).I am self-employed and spend my time now praying and ministering on the internet and my community and my church, and I have been a caregiver, housekeeper, nurses Aide, waitress etc. in the past. Presently secretary of my Church at Glad Tidings Assembly of God in Rugby duties are done in the home. And now God has called me to a God's Treasured Mom in ministry to those on the internet, chat rooms, Dawson McAllister Prayer rooms and whereever the Lord Leads me to speak, pray, and ministry in the Holy Spirit and Truth and I feel I am called to the NATIONS. We are our Father's treasures, because we were bought and paid with His Son Jesus, his blood/life and we are valuable now, clay jars holding the treasure of Christ within us. Hallelujah!!I am also had been pursuing my Masters online through University of PHoenix Arizona and I would need to take Math equivalency test to teach in Math Secondary High School Education. I am at a stumbling spot though, need finances to complete the one class, and to travel to Arizona and take test, test cost and travel. then I would student teach next fall of 2006. Prayers are much appreciated on this ----- MY INTEREST IS NOT THERE AND I AM NOT COMMITTED TO THIS ANYMORE, MY HEART IS IN GOD FOR THE NATIONS and THE NUMEROUS BEYOND COUNT HE HAS GIVEN TO ME TO CONTINUE TO NURTURE AND LOVE AND BE THERE FOR THEM. SO SCHOOLING, this does not look like the way - God has another way to speak and do his ministry!!!!. HE WILL TAKE CARE OF MY SCHOOL LOANS AND ALL MY NEEDS. Also, I will note, I recently sold my ministry and business - Lighthouse Of Vision Store- (Avon Products/Christian Store) in Towner on ..h, 2004, That was a time of deep obedience cause I Lost it all, 35,000 of goods auction off for only 3500 dollars and I had to pay 1500 dollars loan to a lady. God is so precious, I know through obedience and surrendering it all, God is always faithful and the deepness of HIS ENDURING AND EVERLASTING UNCONDITIONAL LOVE is shown, for his Glory and honor and praise!!! Sincerely in Christ's Love and Faith, Sandra (Omar) Judkins of Towner, North Dakota
