No Ordinary Love
"if you're frightened of dying and and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. but, if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels freeing you from the earth..." hmm... well, im a moody motherfucker. i wish i could live in a fellini film... ive been told that i "change like the seconds on a clock..." i love to laugh uncontrollably... but i also cry uncontrollably too. my friends and family think i could be a great comedianne, though i am hardly ever *trying* to be funny... with my leo moon and born year of the dragon, you can say that i am extremely hot tempered. i am a deeply possessive girl when it comes to matters of love. my ears are sensitive to bullshit, and i am 'allergic to filthy liars'. after the death of my father on Valentine's Day, 1998, i began painting as a release, an artistic outlet. i am proud to say that i am completely self-taught... i feel like a gypsy, because i flutter from place to place, happy to not settle down anywhere. i can fit my entire wardrobe in one suitcase or trash bag, and im really quite proud of that. i keep as little possessions as possible because i feel they only weigh me down. i hate to make my bed, because it makes me feel claustophobic. i like the idea of having a cozy, "lived-in" bed that i can jump back into any time of the day. i always wake up with one sock off. it is strange to me, but it happens often. kindergarden was my favorite time. and now i prefer to stay in and make art because crowds and most people make me tired and weary... as you can see, i am in love with nature, especially trees and sky. i have such an intense relationship with trees that you can say that i am a "treefucker" instead of a "tree-hugger"... my perfume of choice is a certain rose oil with very special powers... i dont think ive ever been on a date. my relationships always start out and end up very intense, that they always become like a marriage. perhaps i am old fashioned, because i like to feel that i "belong" to the man i choose to be with. and the men i am with, always embrace that sense of possession... i am fluent in farsi and english. speak and understand spanish fairly well, and a bit of french too... my family blood is persian, turkish russian, but my grandma calls me dervish. i am considered a "haji" because i have made the pilgrimage to mecca...then one night a boyfriend said, "baby, please dont be 'eye-fucking' nobody tonight..." this was amusing to me as i love to explore irony and dichotomies...and on a different similar note, here are some of my paintings and photographs...
