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Valerie

quos deus vult perdere prius dementat...

About Me

"I must warn you, you must handle me delicately: I am covered with a mantle of iridescence as easily destroyed as a dust flower..."Anais Nin

My Interests

Lost in a Roman wilderness of pain. Sadness. The withdrawal method. Books. Music. Film. Dance. Theatre. Drop D tuning. Sensitive, skinny, tattooed shaggy-haired boys wearing eyeliner.

I'd like to meet:

the bastard that did this to me.

Music:

Tool. She Wants Revenge. Nick Cave. Zero 7. Depeche Mode. Queens Of The Stone Age. Kyuss. Indie 103 FM. Fiona Apple. Radiohead. The "Rent" soundtrack. Eighties metal. Frank Sinatra. New York City streets on icy nights. Music that takes me back to childhood and junior high/high school. Old school R&B/rap.

Movies:

A. STREETCAR. NAMED. DESIRE. The Shining. Sixteen Candles & all of that genre. Slingblade. Who's Afraid Of Virginia Woolf? Whatever Happened to Baby Jane? Sunset Blvd. Cabaret. All thirties/forties/black and white. Fame. Fame. Fame.

Television:

I Love Lucy, The Brady Bunch, Leave It To Beaver, and The Twilight Zone. My So-Called Life. Ab Fab. Six Feet Under. Sex And The City.

Books:

Catcher In The Rye...all Salinger. All Capote. Bukowski. Bret Easton Ellis. The Bell Jar. The Great Gatsby. Mildred Pierce. Rosemary's Baby. Little Women. Flowers In The Attic. Valley Of The Dolls. Go Ask Alice. The Virgin Suicides. Helter Skelter. Something Wicked This Way Comes. Dracula. Alice In Wonderland. Grimm's Fairy Tales.

Heroes:

Eddie Izzard. Carrie Bradshaw. Anne Sexton. Victoria Lucas. Patsy and Edina. David Bowie. Watson, Eli Lilly, Glaxo Smith-Klein, Wyeth, Knoll, Endo, Pfizer.

My Blog

recluse

"a mad(woman), a recluse, a lover...tender, vicious...never the same...stories pounding out of a violent and depraved life...horrible and holy...disturber of the peace...laureate of the Los Angeles ne...
Posted by Valerie on Sat, 28 Apr 2007 10:48:00 PST

the dark I know well...

There's a part I can't tell About the dark I know well... You say, "time for bed now, child" Mom just smiles that smile Just like she never saw me Just like she never saw me So I leave, wanting just t...
Posted by Valerie on Sat, 17 Feb 2007 11:27:00 PST

how time flies...when compassion dies

Christmas bells are ringingChristmas bells are ringingChristmas bells are ringingSomewhere else...Not hereChristmas bells are ringingChristmas bells are ringingChristmas bells are ringingOut of townCh...
Posted by Valerie on Thu, 28 Dec 2006 10:49:00 PST

am I just so sick in the head, I need to be bled dry to quit?

I let the beast in too soon, I don't know how to live without my hand On his throat, I fight him always and still Oh, darlin', it's so sweet...you think you know how crazy, how crazy I am Y...
Posted by Valerie on Wed, 11 Oct 2006 10:02:00 PST

a most bitter fate...

Amor volat undique Captus est libidineIuvenes, iuvenculeConiunguntur meritoSiqua sine socioCaret omni gaudioTenet noctis infimaSub intimo cordis in custodiaFit res amarissima... ...
Posted by Valerie on Thu, 14 Sep 2006 04:45:00 PST

died from the lack of it...

And so with that, I thought I'd take a final walk The tide of public opinion had started to abate The neighbors, bless them, had turned out to be all talk I could see their frightened faces peering at...
Posted by Valerie on Thu, 07 Sep 2006 10:21:00 PST

hypnic jerk...

What you did to me made me see myself something different Though I try to talk sense to myself, but I just won't listen             ...
Posted by Valerie on Thu, 10 Aug 2006 05:39:00 PST

Valerie's guide to understanding emo boys

  Emo boy: "I like you so much...I have an enormous crush on you. I know there's no way you could ever like me back, but if you ever did...it would make me so happy". Translation: I really want t...
Posted by Valerie on Fri, 04 Aug 2006 09:32:00 PST

Every morning I wake to the Arcade Fire...

  They say it fades If you let it Love was made To forget it I carved your name Across my eyelids You pray for rain I pray for blindness...
Posted by Valerie on Thu, 29 Jun 2006 07:40:00 PST

first thoughts

As Axl Rose used to say, "Oh my.....God..."
Posted by Valerie on Wed, 28 Jun 2006 08:19:00 PST