THIS IS WHAT I DO NOW ~ IMVU
We held hands on the last night on earth. Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields and under trees, screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves. It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease. In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner."
The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress. The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick fall, but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two.
I rode alone.
You said, "The cinders are falling like snow." There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence. Of blue and grey. Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and the darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward, and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message.
Check out this bitch. 2006 Hyundai Sonata. Now I just have to get my license, rofl
You are listening to:
Malice Mizer - Beast of Blood
When asked about the PV (Promotional Video aka Music Vid) for this song, a band member (don't remember which one) commented that the intent was to show beautiful (or was it some other word...?) chaos. MM is shown 'playing' classical intruments. Well done. I love this song, and I love the video even more.
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Cliche:
Okay, so I decided maybe I would do something different and actually put something (omg) ABOUT ME! It...kinda helps. Lemme know if I forgot anything. Anyway, here we go!
I have five favorite colors: black blue red silver and pink.
I usually like all shades of the above.
My favorite number is 5.
My official colors are black and silver.
But I wear a lot of black and red.
I only wear make-up to dramatize my eyes; silver eye shadow, black liner, blue mascara.
I hate my glasses and want contacts. Preferably ones with some weird shape in them.
But clear is fine too.
I would like to be famous without the fame.
I'm lazy.
I'm addicted to World of Warcraft and Ragnarok Online.
I love anime.
But I don't watch it much.
I am a student at Indiana-Purdue University Fort Wayne.
I would like to transfer to UCLA or Stanford.
I am a Visual Arts major, specifically Graphic Design.
I would like to eventually design video games.
I tend to lose contact with my friends during the summer.
Weird, huh?
I like to meet people but I'm scared to be the first to talk.
I wish I could fix that.
It takes me a while to feel comfortable around people.
Wow, I am so lame.
I love music.
I like girl/female fronted bands.
Sometimes I am so helplessly emo.
I used to be even more.
I miss Malice Mizer.
But I haven't listened to any newer v-kei
I have secretly wanted to be the next Mana.
Just without all the fame.
And it could never happen because I think I suck at writing music.
I like to make tencho/trance music though.
Infact, I think I suck at a lot of things.
But that's all Shawn's fault.
I'm just now realizing that maybe I'm not as dumb as I thought.
I love Renaissance era clothing.
Elegant Gothic Lolita is even better because it's black and cute.
I believe in faeries.
I want to be a faerie EGL. That's a nice idea for cosplay.
If you steal that I'll fucking kill you. It's probably been done before anyway.
I want to spend my college years going to anime conventions.
I don't have enough money for more than one though.
I design and sew Elegant Gothic Lolita accessories, but I'm too lazy to start selling them.
If you're interested in buying or just want to see what I can do, shoot me an email at [email protected].
I want to be a fashion designer in Japan.
hNAOTO is my hero.
I don't have a job. I'm a leech and I'm fucking proud.
I like to live it up.
I will stand up for what I believe.
I'm very logical, so sometimes I defend things that I don't really like.
Apparently, I can be mean and a real bitch sometimes.
But that's only because the truth hurts.
I'm also very insecure.
I don't know as many people as I would like to.
I tried to be one of those 'omg I must change my website layout every day' girls.
I only changed my layout about every 6 months.
I've had the same layout on my site for over a year.
I started a new layout but I never finished it.
I love ebay.
I still don't have a car.
But I'm working on that.
I'm actually very self-conscious.
I have lots of friends in places I've never been before.
I seem to be going to places where they all are though.
I used to be a cutter.
I still want to kill Shawn Kreps.
Because it's all his fault.
I won't though, because I don't have any super cool powers to cover up the evidence.
Or maybe I just need super cool powers to kill him and leave no evidence.
I like to make my boyfriend jealous.
It's actually scary when I do so.
I do it quite often.
I do it to piss him off immensely.
And it works everytime. I am so evil.
I don't regret typing all this after I've posted it.
I never study.
College is easy.
I have made continuous efforts to learn Japanese.
I always forget everything though because I don't speak/read Japanese everyday.
Would you like to help me?
I could learn if I did it everyday.
I have a thing for Japanese sailorfuku.
Not that type of thing you perv. I just think they are really cute.
I think girls are hot. Specifically asian girls, but anyone with long eyes is fucking gorgeous in my book.
I am not bi.
I hate guys, but I like them more than girls.
I hate guys who only date a girl because she's hot.
I hate girls who only date a guy because he's not.
But good looks are a plus.
Ray is really hot.
He's also younger than I am.
I will wear the pan---skirt in our relationship.
I want to get not-so-famous and buy a big house.
But I would be just fine living comfortably with my husband.
I don't plan on having kids.
I want 2 surgeries: tube tying and breast reduction.
I love to wear skirts.
I'm a somewhat tomboyish lady.
It works cause I can fit in with the best and the rest of them.
I secretly enjoy talking about myself and my accomplishments.
But I'm actually too lazy to act upon those accomplishments.
I will work for money though.
I love DDR, but I love parapara even more.
I used to dance from the time I got home from school (2:45ish) 'til the time I went to bed (12).
I still want to dance, but the space I used has been taken over by random crap.
I spent $100 just to get ParaParaParadise and a controller.
By the time I could actually play it, it had gone down to about $50. Now it's sometimes even less.
I need new clothes!!
I hate the clothes in the stores so www.ebay.com.
GOODWILL!
This has turned into just random thoughts to I'm going to end this now.
I have to go to shcool now, so I'm not really done. It's a lot, so I'm going to highlight the main points in each statement.
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