My passion for writing started at a young age. I believe I was 11 when I wrote my first real poem! I can't imagine my life w/ out a pen and paper infront of me. I have actually developed a compulsion to collect pens, notebooks, journels,etc...and I adore all of my friends and family that contribute to all of my collections! I feel very blessed that the Lord has given me such a beautiful gift in writing. I don't have a certain writing style. I just write things down as they come to me and then the Lord gives me a little nudge to let me know its time to put it all together! And every time I am even more impressed at Him, and in such awe that He wishes to speak thru me! I mean what the heck, I'm just a stay at home mom, what do I know? So I'm a huge medieval junkie! I just love it all! I adore my Knights! I love the romance of it all! I am truly blessed to be a sweet maiden of the Most High, Yeshua! “Then must you strive to be worthy of her love. Be brave and pure, fearless to the strong and humble to the weak; and so, whether this love prosper or no, you will have fitted yourself to be honored by a maiden's love, which is, in sooth, the highest guerdon which a true knight can hope for.â€~Sr. Arthur Conan Doyle I can't imagine life without music or not being able to sing! I love all different kinds of music! It totally depends on my mood! The only thing I know is that I feel it deep, down within my soul and its almost like its a part of my DNA! Photography is such a true blessing! I adore the volume that photos speak to my soul! It's a straight path from my eyes, down to the deepest depths of my heart! That to me is true love! My grandparents bought me my first camera back in the 80's. It was one of those disc cameras! I pray someday to be able to have a real nice professional one, but for now my digital one makes me very happy! So I am a huge nature freak! I love how all my sences are stimulated! I could get lost in the woods for hours! Its where I am the closest to the Lord. I see Him everywhere! I love to hike and swim. I love trees! I love to look up thru the leaves and see the sun shining thru. I love to watch them sleep at night, how they surrender to the breeze. I love to fall asleep to the sounds of the leaves rustling. I believe I have an ocean soul! I hope some day to live near the ocean. I have only been there once. I love everything about it! The smell, the sounds! It is a complete part of who I am! I adore butterflies! They are always following me where ever I go! To me, they represent the Holy Spirit! They are so gentle and so pure! I am ButterflyXodus! My heart has always gotten me in all kinds of trouble, but I wouldn't change one second of my journey! Now that Christ has center stage, how can I go wrong! "Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life"~Picasso. I think that makes it quite clear!
There are so many that will miss you. We will always need you. I pray you have found your peace, sweet Stephen. Have fun singing w/ the angels!..
I love, love, love the Counting Crows! Adam, well he is just a beautiful, talented, soul! I will listen to them forever! Mat Kearney, Kendall Payne, One Republic, Sara Groves, David Crowder, Crystal Lewis, and POD are who I am really into know. I really love all kinds of music! Well I'm not a Country fan at all! Not for me! Classic to Punk!
"Peter you know that place between asleep and awake. That place you still can remember your dreams... That's were I'll always love you Peter Pan." "I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful." "I said good morning Gill." "Ventuuurrraaa.Yes, Satan? Oh, I'm sorry, sir. You sounded like someone else." "I'd rather spend one minute holding you than the rest of my life knowing that I never could." "Five hundred dolla!" "If things were different... I'd still follow you around all the time - because I wanted to, not because I had to." "You were just a little girl in a flannel night gown. And you were shovelling snow from the walk in front of our house. And I was the snow, I was the snow. And everywhere it landed and everywhere it covered. You scoop me up with a big red shovel. You scoop me up." "If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever." "Like I told my last wife, I said, "Honey, I never drive faster than I can see, and besides... it's all in the reflexes."
I'm not a big fan of TV! Most of the time, it's a waste of my time...and I don't like my time wasted!
Every time I read the Bible, I always learn something new and profound! I cry everytime I read this! Maya is amazing! I pray to be an amazing, published author, just like her! She truly inspires me!
So...I was 30 years of age when I ask Jesus to be my Lord and Savior. I was saved July 24, 1999. It was a Saturday night. I had dropped my daughter Jade off at my Uncles house for an overnight slumber party w/ her cousin. I ended up going to see my cousin Wendy Sue and her mom. I love my cousin so much. She is such an amazing person and we have always lived parallel lives. If I wasn't going through it she was, and I followed soon after and vise verse. She is one of those very few people you have in your life who allows you to be yourself at all times, and you are just always alright in her eyes. I just truly adore her! So...before I was saved I was really deep into the metaphysical (witchcraft). I started dabbling in it when I was around 18 years old. I started out using a Ouija board and really didn't get heavily into it until I was around 24, 25 years old. At the time I was still dealing w/ the pain and scars of being abused by my daughters dad, and I was facing the fact that the new relationship I was in was going no where. I was introduced to a friend of my mothers who had been into the metaphysical for a long time. (And the really cool thing is that this woman's sister was the first person I had ever prayed w/ to receive salvation!) I was so hurt and so hungry for some answers. I was so hopeless and the metaphysical put the control back in my hands. It gave me back a piece of myself that was destroyed by the abuse I suffered at the hands of a man that I loved. I mostly focused on Astrology and reading Medicine Cards. I was so good at it. I knew all the astrology signs and all of the characteristics of all the signs. What sign would be the most comparable for me, and I could whip up your astrology chart in about 20 minutes and I was pretty good at it! My whole life revolved around it all. I couldn't get out of bed until I read my (horror)scope for the day, and I was bent ..ing it come true! I tried at one point to cast spells but I could never do it right! I laugh now cause I would get so pissed when they didn't work! I thought there was something wrong w/ me. Like I couldn't even be a good witch!LOL! I also remember being such a mean person at that time in my life. I devoted so much of my time and energy to this practice, but yet I was never satisfied, always sad, continually empty!So... That night of July 24th, My Aunt Gladys, cousin Wendy, and I were just sitting around the kitchen table chatting, and I can not even remember how the conversation started but if you know Gladys, she will not let any opportunity pass w/out talkin to ya about Jesus! Course I was in no mood to hear all this garbage she wanted to talk about! I was really happy w/ the place that I was in, (I think Aunt Gladys knew different!), but I was kind and let her speak. She was talking about hell and Satan and how I was going to go there if I continued to practice the metaphysical (isn't that such a charming name for satanism!!!lets give it a unique name and people will be fooled!) then I was gonna end up there and that Satan was my father! Then she started talking about the rapture and how I was gonna be left behind! I thought this woman was a nut ball! So I just sat in silence, getting so angry, and just let her talk. She told me she would pray w/ me if I wanted to be saved and I told her I was happy w/ the way things were. So she went outside for a little while and I told my cousin she better call off her mom cause I was getting pissed and she needed to just leave me alone. Wendy just said this is her house and that is just my mom! I told Wendy while she was outside that I know she believes what she believes and so do I. We can all believe what we want to! (Hahaha...what a crock!) So after some time she came inside, sat down next to me, grabbed my hand and told me that she loved me so much and that she wanted me to be there, in Heaven. She said she loved me too much for me to be left behind! So she asked me one last time, if I wanted to pray for salvation, and as she looked at me, my eyes started pouring tears and I just simply said yes. We prayed the salvation prayer and I literally felt my heart swell in my chest when the Holy Spirit entered me! It was amazing! We were all crying and she and Wendy were just so happy...course now I know why! I remember my tears that night cause they were not like any tears that I had ever cried before in my life. They were different, like I had no control over them. They just kept pouring down my face, and they were just so warm. I remember sitting there, asking the Lord to always let me feel that feeling in my heart, like I had when He first entered! My Aunt told me awhile later that when she went out side she was telling the Lord that if He wanted me and I was to be His child, He needed to send His Holy Spirit to deal w/ me cause she just wanted to smack me! LOL! Love her so much! So the next day, I picked up Jade, told her that I had asked Jesus into my heart and she looked at me w/ her big, brown eyes and said "Mommy, I have always had Jesus in my heart." She was 9 at the time! We went to church w/ Gladys and Wendy and then hung out at the beach for the rest of the day. It was an amazing day! Jade prayed that day at the beach and also received her salvation! I will never, ever forget that weekend! So...that night when I got home, I gathered all of my witchcraft junk: books, cards, etc...and set them all by my TV, on the floor. I sat on the couch and my Bible was sitting to the left of me. I looked at all of that stuff and look at my Bible and thought, I waisted so much time, money, and energy, and this whole time I had the one Book that held all of the answers I had ever needed. I didn't even want to waist a garbage bag or box on all that junk, so I got a laundry basket and made 3 trips to our dumpster! So...there you go! The beginning of my walk w/ Jesus! And it has only gotten better!