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About Me

Computer Geek, Musician, Artist, Gothic-Industrialite, Cancer Survivor, Skydiver, Resident Psychopath

These are a few things about me, but if you want to know more you will have to ask. You may meet any one of my many personalities at any time. At times I am a manically depressed pity pot. At others I am the greatest show on earth. I may be angry enough that destruction of the human race seems beneficial, or I may love everything I see and be at one with the world. I do not understand myself, so don't expect that you will ever be any different.

I drink life in big gulps. Especially now that I have gotten through cancer treatment I have a new found drive to do everything I can in life now! I love skydiving, and other crazy sports. I'm engaged to a beautiful woman with a 3 year old daughter. They make my life more fulfilling than I thought possible.

I hate wasting time with bullshit. If I'm not moving towards something then I am wasting oxygen. Keep moving, keep your head high, fuck the rest. We all might die at anytime so live each day like it is your last.

I don't know where I would be without you. You have opened up doors in my life that I didn't think were possible. Thank you for all you are and do for me!!!

My Interests

Computers: I love working with computers. Not only as a past-time, but as a profession. There is always something new to learn, and new problems to fix. I am A+ and NET+ certified and have an A.A.S. in Information Technologies and another A.A.S. in Computer Programming. I am now starting on my Bachelors.

This is what graduation means to me.

Music: Music is the one constant in my life. I began playing violin in Jr. High, but after an accident left me without full rotation of my forearm, I am unable to play it anymore. I am now working with keyboards, and synthesizers. This allows me not only to play the violin, but any other instrument I desire.

This is where I spend my days at home.

Skydiving: I love skydiving. I tried it a few times going tandem(strapped to someone), and found that I wanted to continue. I am now taking courses to work toward being certified.

You can see my first jump Here

I'd like to meet:

Like Souls: There are so few in this world who could possibly understand what drives me and what runs through my mind. Those that do are difficult to find. Friends are the greatest things in this world to have. They break up the monotony of day to day living.

Music:

Gothic, Industrial, Darkwave, Ambient, Metal, Death

If it's dark or just plain insane I love it. I have recently gotten into new-age and ambient music for meditation and relaxation purposes as well.

Movies:

I am a movie freak. People get pissed because I have seen everything already. Well I guess my favorite movies are the ones with sad endings. They make me feel better about my life. Happy endings are too depressing.

Television:

I don't watch television. Not because I'm anti-television. I am just not interested in anything that is on. TV has become a series of mind-numbing reality shows, that have no reality. I would rather make my own show out my life, and become more interested in the world around me. Spend some time just watching the people around you and all the drama and chaos of the world. Then you'll find TV a lot less interesting.

My Blog

Darkness of Past

Contemplation fuses into darkness,Returning spirits of old.Swimming within me they grow,Consuming, gripping.The things in me I fear,Coming to the surface.Stuff it down, stuff it down,Don't let it out....
Posted by Shadow Man on Wed, 25 Apr 2007 03:07:00 PST

Circle of Life

Anger always seems to be a bi-product of sadness.I feel sadness then anger, always.I believe it is my coping mechanism.For so long I believed my sadness made me worthless,so I used anger instead.Now a...
Posted by Shadow Man on Fri, 13 Apr 2007 04:02:00 PST

I Am My End

The unknown is the greatest fear man can have,Only overcome by absolute faith.Perhaps my issue is a lack of faith?Like anyone I have fear,fear of life, death, all things unexplainable.I suppose then I...
Posted by Shadow Man on Mon, 05 Feb 2007 02:08:00 PST

Where Am I???

The more I understand, The more I realize I know nothing. The more I am on a path, The more I have no direction. Feelings of peace and oneness with my creator, Leave me aloof from my peer...
Posted by Shadow Man on Thu, 19 Oct 2006 10:24:00 PST

Growing Up

Life comes at you fast.You can either run and hide for cover,Or face it head on.Old fears fade away,Facing this existence.No longer hiding from truth,No longer denying reality.Pain becomes more and mo...
Posted by Shadow Man on Wed, 23 Aug 2006 03:50:00 PST

Reality Is A Lie

It's an odd thing, being human. So lost in ourselves that we don't know what reality is and what self-inflicted delusion is. Is it all a dream, or is this something we all share. Do I sleep when I lay...
Posted by Shadow Man on Mon, 24 Jul 2006 02:39:00 PST

It Was Always You

I always wondered why it was I could never find love, why I always seemed to be alone. Even if I was with someone, I was never truely happy. The newness of the relationship would die out, and I would ...
Posted by Shadow Man on Mon, 12 Jun 2006 02:06:00 PST

Today

What can I say about today,given a second chance at life.Long and hard is the road,that leadeth out of hell.So much of life was a struggle,just trying to survive.Never knowing when I might slit my wri...
Posted by Shadow Man on Tue, 06 Jun 2006 03:56:00 PST

Tip The Scales

Do I really exist, or is this all some weird dream in my head? Try as I might to understand, I can see that my efforts are futile. I move on, enjoying the moments I can, trying my best to move past th...
Posted by Shadow Man on Mon, 22 May 2006 03:21:00 PST

After The Fall

In one my night my life changed completely, No longer alone, no longer uncertain. Doubt becoming a distant memory, To the undeniable future I see. Fear still lingers, its tentacles creeping, Tr...
Posted by Shadow Man on Tue, 02 May 2006 02:06:00 PST