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Cozmic Kid

Hey, mister deejay, won'tcha hear my last prayer? Hey, ho, rock 'n' roll, deliver me from nowhere!

About Me


I'm a walking contradiction...on one hand I might have lived several lifetimes in my 34 years, known both love and heartache that would shock some, seen life bloom and been intimate with death-- yet I am also a clean slate--new to almost everything even though I have been and done so much. I am a dreamer. I am a nerd. I still want to believe in fairytales. I'm disabled and that's been a blow to me, but I won't let it define me. I think I was born in the wrong time...I should have been a teenager in the 1950's, walking my best girl home and carrying her books, hoping to get a kiss on the cheek, and playing that new Buddy Holly 45 in secret because my parents don't believe in the 'devil's music.'

My Interests

I love everything creative...art, writing, music. I play the guitar everyday, and sing (even though I do it so badly)...I love animals. I play video games even at my age. I'm a fool for the simple joys in life.

I'd like to meet:

I want to meet someone that inspires me to write songs about them. Someone to stand in the rain and kiss and not care that I'm getting soaked. I want to meet someone that likes to hold hands, that understands the beauty in such a simple, innocent gesture. I want to meet a girl that I can laugh with, cry with, be silly and romantic with, and share a million little secrets. I want to meet a girl that believes in love, that believes in magic, that believes in the whole improbable, silly, notion of something real.

Music:


Better than any therapist, music has been there for me when I want to forget myself for a while, when I'm raging, when I feel like crying, when I feel so numb I can't even function, some singer I've never met will do my speaking for me. I'm insanely eclectic with my music. My music is just as important to me as breathing is...I don't feel right, or even half alive if I don't have my music playing, or a guitar in my hand. It's just that simple. It would be impossible to list the music I like. I wouldn't even attempt it.



Lawd, don't you wish it was true? weiners and beeeaaaans! Who woulda thought that you'd fall for his line?

Movies:

Stand By Me.....My favorite movie all time. I am Gordie.
Almost Famous ( wish it was my story).....Before Sunrise (what a romantic night!).......Eddie and the Cruisers (words and music)....High Fidelity (The lists, the neurosis--it's so me)......Peggy Sue Got Married (She loves you, ooo ooo ooo)....La Bamba (stars don't fall out of the sky)......Grease 1&2 (will watch anywhere, anytime)......Mask (my movie for when I want to cry).....Say Anything (hold that boombox high!).......The Warriors (come out and play-iyay).......Urban Cowboy (I got the smarts real good)........The Wedding Singer (somebody kill me please).....The Crow (Can't rain all the time).....American Werewolf in London (steer clear of the moors).....The Postman (Tom freakin' Petty!)......The Pale Rider (one of Clint's best).......The Outlaw Josey Wales (Favorite western of all time)......Young Guns (yoohoo--I'll make you famous).....The Lord of the Rings trilogy (You will suffer me)......Enemy Mine (you big ugly head)........The Princess Bride (What a love story....Some Kind of Wonderful (I would have picked Watts from the get-go).........The Star Wars saga (No! That's not true! That's impossible!).......Superman (If you've got me, whose got you?).......Rocky 1-6 (Gonna fly now)..... The Karate Kid 1-3 (know them all by heart. Be very afraid)........ That Thing You Do (I am Spartacus).........The Last Dragon (I AM!).......My Bodyguard (you broke my nose)......Walk the Line (marry me).......Shaun of the Dead (there's a girl in the garden)........Crossroads (NOT the Britney Spears one!)..........The Shawshank Redemption (get busy living or get busy dying)..........The Man With No Name movies (they're all awesome).........and the list goes on and on and on...

Television:

Television got it SO wrong when they let Firefly go.

Books:


I read constantly. I read just about anything I can get my hands on...Oh yeah, if there's ever a time I'm NOT reading, come check on me because I'm probably dead. Thanks.
Some of my all time faves: The Dark Tower cycle, (I say thankya, big-big!),The Talisman, Bag of Bones, Christine, Hearts In Atlantis...all by Stephen King
Speaks the Nightbird 1&2, Boys Life, Swan Song....All by Robert McCammon
Carrion Comfort, Summer of Night....by Dan Simmons
Where the Red Fern Grows.....by Woodrow Wilson Rawls
White Fang....By Jack London
Dark Rivers of the Heart, From the Corner of His Eye..By Dean Koontz

Heroes:

My Leia. God I miss you so much. You always took care of me. I took for granted, I know, the dedication you showed me. The way you looked after me, cuddled me when I was cold and sick and having seizures. Worried about where I was, hurried to me when I called your name, followed me when I got up to leave. With you I was never ever alone. So many books we read, you and I. You always made me happy, my girla-girla. I know I'll see you again.

My Lego. I know ferrets have a reputation for stealing things, but I never thought that you could, in such a short time, so completely steal my heart. I tried to make each of your days new and fun and exciting...but I never expected that you'd do the same for me. You were chaos in white fur and pink nose and a crooked ear. You made me smile and laugh so hard with your antics, sometimes until I thought I'd start crying. Such big love in such a small package. That was my Lego.
Faramir. I miss you so much. You were always so sweet and gentle. I love how you used to come up and lay at my feet when you wanted attention, looking up at me with your big, bright, red eyes. And laughing so hard when you would spring into action to snatch a roll of TP and take off with it. It was hard to see you have such a hard time getting around those last months. I'm happy to know that you don't have to struggle with that anymore. Dance on, my albino-boy. Dance on. Bear and Yoda. I miss you so much. Junior. I hope your somewhere getting into all kinds of trouble and finding lots of remote controls! Wayne, I don't think I could have gotten through high school without you. I was born before you, but you always seemed older than me somehow. I'll never forget you. Punky. Your life wasn't long, but you sure lived it your own way. Most wish they could say that, I bet.
Bruce, I always knew it bugged you, having all us kids around, but you gave me the incentive to do good in school with your deal for the Macross collectables...and it was you who got me into Elfquest (sorry I never gave back the books I 'borrowed', but they have been well loved and taken care of). And I'm glad that I phoned you after I found out you got hurt so that we could talk one last time. I owe my art, and probably my friendship with Dana, all to you and our shared interests.
And finally, just a couple guys....

One was a misunderstood artistic and musicial genius with a mind for social change...one is a blues loving white boy from the motor city....and the other was once a kind of outcast, but now has fans everywhere screaming his name in elongated fashion wherever he goes. All three have gone through so much and continue to inspire me each and every day. I'd call them heroes...they probably wouldn't agree, but it's my page :)

My Blog

"Good For You"

"Good For You"--by Jason FreemanI never thought that you would let me goa thousand kisses shared, secrets only you knowthere's no home without you, I'm all alonehow could you? How could y...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Wed, 07 May 2008 04:02:00 PST

Tribute to Buddy Holly

This is just a little tribute to Buddy Holly. This is an unreleased song he did shortly before he died, and I think it's one of his saddest, most honest songs. I started learning to play it while goin...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 04:24:00 PST

Two one-take-wonders

TWO THINGS....I am NOT a singer. Never claimed to be. Not much of a guitar player either, but that's something I can work on at least. And two, these were both done in one take, so it's not like I wor...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 07:46:00 PST

An open letter to my best friend.

NOTE: I orginally wrote this a while back, during a long night I wasn't so sure was ever going to end. I never intended to show it to anyone, much less post it as a blog...part of me wanted to send it...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 05:05:00 PST

Can I have your photograph?

Since it probably won't surprise anyone who knows me, I'll reveal something about myself that is pretty silly...   ...I love to sing in the shower. I pick a CD and take it in the bathroom with me...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Fri, 28 Dec 2007 04:55:00 PST

Life after Death

I'm not Emo, I swear--even though it seems like I'm always writing about dark or negative things--but I can't help but think about death right now, what with all that has been happening of late. There...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Sat, 09 Jun 2007 05:09:00 PST

Moving is no fun

I hate moving. Because of my personality, I am more inclined to want things to stay the way I know them to be--where things are comfortable...but life doesn't seem to want to go along with me on this,...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Fri, 23 Mar 2007 02:04:00 PST

Meg is a fox

As if we don't have enough animals in our house already, we often open our home to displaced animals for a time, so that they can get some TLC while a permanent home is found for them. Recently we too...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 10:59:00 PST

These things are nice

This has been such a trying year for me in a lot of ways, and sometimes it helps to stop and think about the little things that make life worth it. So that's what I've been doing today. I thought I'd...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Fri, 27 Oct 2006 05:15:00 PST

Being Jason

  Dying inside, trying to hide can't get off this twisted ride of self destruction/suicide Broken dreams half-forgotten childhood themes I look all right on the outside but inside I'm not what I ...
Posted by Cozmic Kid on Wed, 18 Oct 2006 06:51:00 PST