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About Me

i like music, friends, family, and b-grade horrors from the 80s.
and the 80s in general.
and big hair.
and zombies.
and sleeping.
and love and cuddles and smiles.
i am no longer the drinker you once knew. a …a happy lil troll pimped my profile!

My Interests

somewhat neurotic, tall, with bouts of paranoia and a healthy mixture of vanity and self-loathing. (usually tending towards the latter unfortunately).
i love everyone, unless you're an arrogant broom-head, or you mess with my peeps. :)
i lack clarity, but i know what i want. actually, i can be very confused and indecisive. i usually figure out what it was i wanted once it's too late. and then i am blessed with the opportunity to analyze my mistakes over and over again to the point of delirium.
my friends and family are my life; without them i just sleep and drink.
i enjoy many a thing. even those things that you probably consider silly and boring.
i've graduated from an apparently useless bachelors degree in international development; i can't find a job in the field and honestly don't feel particularly confident that i'm qualified for one anyway.
however, i'm currently working at 2 eye surgery centres as a venerable Administration Officer and Clinical Coder... it's not too bad, in fact i mostly like it... except for the early mornings, and how they make me dress. yick...

i have,... 20,... piercings, but they've been dropping like flies. i recently lost at least 4 from my ears. i like piercings, but mine are starting to get a little sore, especially my ears which have been excessively studded for too long now i think...
i miss old friends, i miss old times. but i'm trying to teach myself to appreciate and focus more on the present and future rather than dwelling on my currently depressing past.
i find life fairly unimpressive.

Music:

some of them; creepshow, (the original) misfits, demented are go, mad sin, the dead kings, horrorpops, blood sucking zombies from outer space, tiger army, nekromantix, operation ivy, the distillers, milwaukee wildmen, the cure, scum rats, blitzkid, rancid, demented scumcats, lars frederiksen and the bastards, the smiths, reinstated, discord union, rezurex, siouxsie and the banshees, the cramps, the clash, zombie ghost train, gutter demons, black flag, david bowie, minor threat, circle jerks, the damned, dead kennedys, the glove, kittie, johnny cash, early afi, batmobile, against me!, the meteors, blondie...

Movies:

i love movies! i have 90 or so dvds, not including my beautiful box sets... anyway, i especially adore cheesy b-grade horrors. some of my favourite films, in no particular order: house, braindead, children of the living dead, chopper chicks in zombie town, class of nuke 'em high, rockabilly vampire, sgt. kabukiman n.y.p.d, surf nazis must die!, the toxic avenger, citizen toxie, leprechaun I thru III, psycho beach party, ghoulies III, land of the dead, gremlins I & II, tank girl, kung pow, plan 9 from outer space, the howling III, dawn of the dead, who's harry crumb, labyrinth, anchorman, return of the living dead, the nightmare before christmas, the bride of frankenstein, evil dead 1 & 2 and army of darkness, prom night III, maniac cop, frankenhooker, beetlejuice, spinal tap, willow, the man with two brains, who framed roger rabbit, child's play III, bride of chucky, the fly, the three amigos, the princess bride, sin city, fear and loathing in las vegas, the thing, story of ricky, earth vs the spider, edward scissorhands, night of the living dead, from dusk till dawn, return to oz, shaun of the dead, and anything with john candy in it, he's my doll!!

Television:

i don't watch tv. movies are great tho. and cartoons.

Books:

nothing at present. i can't wait to get back to uni...

Heroes:

this boy (my brother) is amazing!!

and this girl (my sister) is truly wonderful!!

kendall is probably one of my greatest heroes. he has stood by me through thick and thin, never EVER tried to cause me any hurt or pain, always stood up for me, and always been there for me when i needed someone. thankyou!

My Blog

alone

she tries all day to earn her way,the mirror cracks as she searches herself...don't hate her, she only wants to love
Posted by her on Mon, 28 May 2007 01:06:00 PST

slowly...

her heart is filled right to the brim. but she doesn't realise that it is in fact locked now. she certainly doesn't have the key. her feet are bare. her hands are scratched. her nails ripped and her ...
Posted by her on Sun, 13 May 2007 02:11:00 PST

Alone, She

As she walks alone she senses a melody that she cannot identify. Her heart is cold to the touch and her skin is exhausted from holding in all those tears that should be flowing from each and every por...
Posted by her on Tue, 24 Apr 2007 11:29:00 PST

alcohol is the devil, if there is a devil.

i'm never going to touch alcohol again. or cigarettes. i'd stopped smoking but the stress of last week had got me started again. but alcohol. it has the capacity to ruin everything that brings you jo...
Posted by her on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 07:35:00 PST

to all you haters, you only make me stronger. hahaha!! j/k :)

but yeah seriously. i know i'm being really fukn annoying right at the moment. with the drinking and the ups and downs and such. but if you really love me you'll just bear in mind that it's only tempo...
Posted by her on Mon, 09 Oct 2006 01:36:00 PST

...

and cold.
Posted by her on Wed, 16 Aug 2006 07:18:00 PST

something

they say it's not working hard enough. but it's working, maybe, just hard enough. doesn't matter how long it takes. no time for anything but what she recommends. those hearts are getting so sticky, bu...
Posted by her on Wed, 16 Aug 2006 04:10:00 PST

um

it's not my own; and i watch in despair. it's not my own. i'm watching; but i'm watching alone. my own cannot lie. i wish i could lie. but i, but she, but i hoped to be gone. what holds me...
Posted by her on Mon, 07 Aug 2006 04:18:00 PST

oh, me

i'm wondering these days, i'm wandering these days, and what has become of this, my life, my breath? i feel, i am, a waste. like a self-imposed eviction. i've ostracised myself from you, fro...
Posted by her on Thu, 25 May 2006 03:44:00 PST

one day i hope

all i can feel are the burning weights that wrench her down. sometimes she tells me there's no tomorrow. i believe her, because the world i see is through her eyes, and her diseased vision impairs my ...
Posted by her on Wed, 14 Sep 2005 07:40:00 PST