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About Me

table table table {background-color:; background-image:url(); background-position:Top Center; background-repeat:no-repeat; border-coloI was born in the Ozark Mountains. I learned a lot about myself in those hills. Like how I'd rather take pictures from the tree stand when my dad would take me hunting. The imagination of my youth is what I want to keep more alive than anything. I don't crave chaos quite like I used to. I am coming around to what is important to me after several years of revisions and mistakes. It is how I have become who I am today. Ok.

My Interests

moving forward. music. reforming SpacechatteR. writing stories and music reviews. taking pictures on chrome film and developing them into slides. looking out windows for long periods of time. self-guided ghost tours. wishing- and then learning to be satisfied with what I have. watching independent films and humming tunes while walking around. casting out darkness. symmetry.

I'd like to meet:

david lynch. tim burton. danny elfman. jeremy enigk. hope sandoval. kevin shields. gary lightbody. david sedaris. augusten burroughs. kevin spacey. parker posey. chloe sevigny. vincent gallo. amon tobin.

Music:

spiritualized. trail of dead. dj krush. hope sandoval. reindeer section. mojave 3. firehose. 8 bark. mogwai. massive attack. pinback. colder. royksopp. radiohead. sufjan stevens. black rebel motorcycle club. underworld. jose gonzalez. thievery corp. nightmares on wax. my bloody valentine. fire theft. dj shadow. slowdive. snow patrol. the faint. the cure. fischerspooner. blur. fugazi. dead kennedy's. lush. catpower. swervedriver. amon tobin. low. godspeed, you black emperor. pj harvey. stereolab. yumebitsu. the black heart procession. hot chip. air. belle and sebastian. silversun pickups. jesus and mary chain. sunny day real estate. i love you but i've chosen darkness.

Movies:

lost in translation. shallow grave. virgin suicides. garden state. lost highway. blue velvet. saint ralph. me and you and everyone we know. little miss sunshine. house of yes. sordid lives. there are lots more if i could think

Books:

i have been trying to write my own.

Heroes:

those who can avoid burying their heads in the sand.

My Blog

mistakes

today i can decide what will be. not denying what has happened. not denying that i let it happen over and over. but denying that what has been must be again....
Posted by joshua on Thu, 06 Dec 2007 08:02:00 PST

the death of unconditional love

in my dream my parents were plotting my death. they would try their best to send love my way when i was around them, but it was vacuous. i had found out they were trying to poison me. ...
Posted by joshua on Wed, 22 Nov 2006 11:40:00 PST

my grandmother

My grandmother's rum cake became stronger each year. Some people cook with rum, while others use several ounces of it as a sauce for what has already been cooked. My grandmother belonged to both. &nbs...
Posted by joshua on Sun, 15 Oct 2006 04:29:00 PST

faith.

i'm not much for religion, but i have a longing for spirituality. i once heard that religion is for people who are afraid of hell, and spirituality is for those who have already been t...
Posted by joshua on Fri, 06 Oct 2006 07:51:00 PST

all you can eat madness

i'm not sure i will be attending a chinese buffet for a long time. the first indication i should have stepped back out those golden, clanky doors was when i saw an italian shrimp and c...
Posted by joshua on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 05:55:00 PST

dance-off

I once heard that Brittani Spears and Justin Timberlake ran into each other at a club after their not-so-congenial breakup. Well guess what! When they met on the dancefloor they exchanged not wor...
Posted by joshua on Sat, 23 Sep 2006 09:59:00 PST

parts.

i am certain this will come together, but in the meantime it feels like i am grasping at pieces just out of reach. this is uncomfortable. suppose i were to snatch these pieces up and put t...
Posted by joshua on Thu, 14 Sep 2006 07:15:00 PST

compatible.

right now everything is ok. i'm trying to work on a new short story and the words just will not come. i would normally become agitated and distance myself from even myself, but i'm t...
Posted by joshua on Sat, 09 Sep 2006 08:53:00 PST

post acute withdrawal syndrome

everything is vibrating rapidly. these lights attract insects...and other creatures. adding machines click in the foreground while heads hang low. lower now. hello. how may i help you toda...
Posted by joshua on Sat, 02 Sep 2006 08:05:00 PST

evacuation.plan

i realize now that i have never learned patience. even though i have been in nashville for over four years now, i still cannot trick myself into thinking i have settled down. what i ...
Posted by joshua on Fri, 18 Aug 2006 02:05:00 PST