Kozue

Hi! I want to tell you about my amazing journey I have been taking ever since I came back to Japan, especially the last 2 years in Tokyo!I always always struggled so much with myself. I was my own worst enermy. So much criticism, paranoia,feeling unworthy,just feeling that I'm not capable of doing good at anything. I tried so much to help myself from it by trying to do well in music, drinking, studying psychology and etc...just anything that I thought it might help. I was so desperate, but nothing seemed to help me.I always believed in God, but I don't think I really believed that He was actually involved in my life. Last January, I started taking this course called Celebrate Recovery at church. Then my journey to recovery started.In the program, I had to admit I was powerless over my own problem and pain and accepted that God really exists in my life. Admitting that I had no power was easy since I tried everything, but REALLY believing that God actually will do things to heal me in my life was hard.It's been amazing since He has been really involved in my recovery road. I had to go back and visit myself in my childhood. I found so much anger, so much resentmet, so much unforgiveness there. It was so amazing for me to see each time we study a lesson in class, things related to the lesson happened. I was SO convinced and confident that God was so involved in this.I learned to come to believe that God the creator of the Universe is also actually the Creator of me! He created me for a purpose here on earth to do his work because he needs me for that. It brings complete joy and happiness for me to do things for God! I'm so happy that I can play the trumpet for God as He made me a trumpet player!I would love to hear about your story!!!Love, Kozue