mirror, mirror upon the wall, who is the fairest of them all?
mirror, mirror made no reply.
the mirror went black.
and cracked from side to side.
i am young and i am alive.
i want to talk about things.
i am young and i own my life.
i need to talk about it.
i am one, but i asked for two. i didn't get anything. how i always memorize every single misery. and i seem to glorify everything inside of me. the hero never dies if the lover hides between the sheets. in the plain parade, all i'm given is sadness, proof enough to feel i'm loveless. wise eyes telling me twice, it isn't my kind of joy. at perfect times i drop my guard and lose but win somehow. filters that i use give me an excuse. i take away what is real, i feel it, and it blows my fuse. don't step back. thats all it takes to make me fall in fast. tomorrow you'll find that i'm not around. but don't be uptight because i loved you last night. i never felt by heart that i could behave the way the rules were made. i hang around for another round until something stops me. i'm foul in clear conditions, but i'm handsome in the fog. vacant and free, yeah that is me. just tell me how and i'll please you for free. tell me i'm good, i know i'm bad. the lies make me feel fine although it is sad. i'm hanging on to the same old song. i'm dating ancient ghosts. i made your bed and i was in it when your faith was dead. i've been your mother, i've been your father, maybe i was your whore....who could ask me for more? sometimes we'll talk over dinner like old friends, until i go and kill the bottle. i go off over any old thing, break your heart and raise a glass.....or ten. i'm wasting my life, you're changing the world. i get drunk and watch your head grow. you can always say that summer had its charm, and that you did no major harm. oh spare me if you please.
nobody will ever let you know when you ask the reasons why. they just tell you that you're on your own and fill your head up full of lies. explanations never come in time. this is the age that my past should be gone, but its just stronger than the aims i have. i'm trying hard not to be ashamed. not to know the name of who is waking up beside me, or the date, the season, or the city. i drank all that i could, much more than i should in simple despair, just to find someone. i came to on a corner with some help from a man, and fuck i dont seem to have learned that a man in need is guilty indeed, so he paid and got laid in return. there are some things to remember, and some things to forget. as long as we remember, there's something to regret. most delicate time could well end in a moment.
take this body, study me, and know my name.
tell me i'm the only one.
tell me there's no other one.
tell me i'm the only one for you.
stay here, but don't get too near me.
leave me alone, but don't ever let me go.
show me, but don't ever teach me.
touch me, but don't try to reach me.
hold me, but don't ever try to keep me.
love me, try not to need me.
ask me, but don't ever make me.
save me, but don't ever forsake me.
call me, but dont ever say my name.
now nothing can amaze me, as everything is behind me. nothing else can please me, since all i had has been set free.these symptoms are so deep. something here is so wrong. nothing is complete. i think i'd better stay here on my own.so spare me if you please.
the comfort of fireflies is long gone before daylight.
my art is better than your art.
