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&lt;&lt;Trista&gt;&gt;

Those who are afraid of death.....must not realize just how terrifying life can be.

About Me


I'm very much a free-spirit. I am intellectual and an extreme extrovert. I can be very kind-hearted, and sensitive, but also very guarded. On the other hand, I can be a real bitch if you cross me or someone I love...so just don't fucking do it! I have a crazy sense of humor (warped most of the time). I have been told I have a Borderline Personality, am very driven, Bi-Polar, sometimes bitchy, creative, unique, and never act my age..but hey..who really gives a shit! I swear too damn much, but we all have our vices. I don't like bullshit, so don't blow any of it in my direction. I speak my mind and won't change, so don't ask me to. I take risks, even if it ends me in trouble or heartbreak. I'm just me I guess, and if you don't like it then don't waste your time reading my profile.. I feed off of the differences in people. I could give a shit less if you are conservative/modest or hardcore/extreme. We all bleed the same...and blood is such an erotic color!!! Yes...I do appreciate a beautiful woman and if that makes you uncomfortable....oh fucking well!
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My Interests

If you don't experience a little pain then you haven't really experienced life.
I like music, books, anything to do with forensic science, body piercings, tattoos, the paranormal, theatre, Italian food (I'm Italian and German), staying true to myself on the inside, as my life and career demand a more conservative appearance on the outside. Death fascinates me. Just as the birth of a child is beautiful, I also think there is beauty in death. It is one of the things that we all have to look forward to so why not embrace it. And I have an interest in beautiful women and the power they hold in their eyes. There is just something very sexy in that.

I'd like to meet:

I am most interested in anyone who has an open mind to life, and can respect the differences in people. We all have our own unique qualities, talents, quirks, pet peves, disabilities, and disfunctionality. We all don't have to agree. We can agree to disagree and find respect for one another as people. This, I believe, is one challenge that plagues the whole world. Sadly, it is our lack of ability to honor individuality that makes us our own worst enemies. I don't give a shit what religion, race, sexual orientation, or socioeconomic status a person is. Who the fuck cares!! I have the most respect for people who are not afraid to be who they are, regardless of the consequences. Besides....conflict & controversy make things exciting.

Music:

I like goth/glam rock, but also hard metal/alternative,and some punk. Favorites; Sisters of Mercy, Bauhaus, The Cure, Siouxsie and The Banshees, Nine Inch Nails, The Cult, The Damned, Joy Division, David Bowie, Gene Loves Jezebel, Lords of Acid, Orgy, Tones on Tail, Love and Rockets, Violent Femmes, Goth/Techno, an awesome up and coming band Past Tense of Never, Marilyn Manson, Linkin Park, Evanescense, Metallica, Motley Crue, Sex Pistols, Black Flag, Korn, Nickelback, Ozzy, ThousandFoot Krutch, The Used, Good Charolette, Liz Phair, 3Doors Down, 12 Stones, Drowning Pool, and did I say Marilyn Manson? Oh yes...but he's worth another mention. I do feel that all music is art and there is room on this earth for all kinds.

Movies:

like movies that entice me emotionally, spiritually psychologically. My favorite movie is The Hunger with David Bowie. It is an awesome vintage, yet modern vampire movie. Nosferatu also kicks ass. Salem's Lot and most other vampire movies kick ass too. I am fascinated by the Faces of Death videos. Some of my other favorites are Pulp Fiction, A Clockwork Orange, Seven, The Exorcist, The Grudge, Silence of the Lambs, The Saw I and II, Rocky Horror Picture Show, and the Hellraiser movies. I have this very intense fear of clowns, and have since childhood, so scary movies with clowns in them really creep me out. SatanSpace.com - Evil, Satanic, and Horror pictures Psychological thrillers also seem to be on top of my list. Basically, anything dealing with the unknown, controvercial topics of the supernatural, dream or mind control, mental illness, serial killers, heart-stopping and mind-blowing shit really turns me on

Television:

I love HBO documentaries, and shows about forensic science. Although after 5 seasons of my very favorite show ended, I will always be partial to HBOs Six Feet Under. What an awesome series that was. The Autopsy series on HBO is sick in the best way too!! For some reason death fascinates me as much as life.

Books:

I look for the same thing in books that I look for in movies and television. Vampires, the Occult, Murder-Suicide, Bondage, Death and Forensic Science are killer!! The Bible is one killer book too. There is some really scary shit in there!!!

Heroes:

My heros are my children because they are still young enough that society hasn't tried to mold them much. They are true free-spirits, devoid of any prejudice, hatred, materialistic, or political values. Their love is genuine, honest, and unconditional.

My Blog

fuck you

you rape me of my faith spit on me and coarse through my veins i hate you so much i wish you were dead to release all the demons that reside in my head what in the fuck did i ever do i doubt you ...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Sat, 16 Jun 2007 10:20:00 PST

Gently through the night

She walks slowly in the cold rain....fully clothed, but so naked Fully exposed to the world, afraid......shaken A leaf falling from a tree, floating gently through the night Lost inside her hesitation...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Fri, 15 Jun 2007 07:42:00 PST

Vulnerability

Behind wondering eyes she hides Lost in the world and held captive by her own thoughts Echos of confusion....she fails to speak, she denies what lies inside of her soul Fear of failure, fear of h...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Sun, 01 Apr 2007 12:14:00 PST

The Game

My eyes only see that which my mind believes to be fact Fiery illusions dancing with the death of dream that once took me back I call for you in distant waters, floating swiftly with the wings of hell...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 11:33:00 PST

A Brighter Side of The Beautiful Darkness

Walking down a long stretch of highway Cold winter wind biting deep into my bones Sky thick with fog, darkness all around me Beautiful darkness leads me farther from home This road I must travel, thro...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Sat, 28 Oct 2006 02:52:00 PST

Open Your Mind

We are but mere traces, a shell of ourselves Roaming in a world so dark to the truth Surrounded by lies, corruption, and wealth Following what we are told we should do Why can't they se...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Wed, 20 Sep 2006 12:51:00 PST

Schizophrenia

Riding on the edge of insanity, my thoughts raped by the voices I hear in my head Absence of time, I feel nothing and everything,  life will unravel until one day I'm dead From the outside I may ...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Tue, 12 Sep 2006 01:04:00 PST

Suicide

A mental surge of anguish flows over me, tearing at my flesh as blood runs down my hands Life, but a fixated stream of lies, manipulations, broken promises, and pain, that my dying heart can no longer...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Thu, 31 Aug 2006 11:50:00 PST

Nursing Note: Mental Disorders

Did you know:  The definition of Mental Disorder is: Any disturbance of emotional equilibrium, as manifested in maladaptive behavior and impaired functioning, caused by genetic, physical, chemica...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Sun, 27 Aug 2006 12:10:00 PST

Numbness

Numbness: Absence of sensation, life without passion, death without purpose Numbness:  Love without sacrifice, faith without desperation, fear without consequence Numbness:  Risk without dec...
Posted by <<Trista>> on Sat, 19 Aug 2006 10:32:00 PST