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Tamia ~kikaiyashin~

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About Me

I spend most of my free time making music. Band site is down in my favourites. Project Black Box baby!
~tamia~
Current, exact Location: My basement
Temperature: Warm and kinda humid
People around are: MIA
Music playing: The hum of my computer
Weather is like: Dark outside
Day: Thursday
Date: Jan 4
Year: 2007
Time: 19:15
Mood: Lonely!
= You =
Your most popular name is:
T
Race: Aryan
How old are you? 21
When were you born? Dec 9 1985, 00:25:00
Your starsign is: Sun Sagittarius, Virgo Rising
Most known qualities of this starsign: Philosophical, tactless, flighty, loves travel
Can you be stereotyped? Everyone can be...the accuracy of said stereotype is another matter
Describe your dress style: Hipster/Scene
Favourite item of clothing: Jeans
Most worn item of clothing: Jeans
Currently wearing: Pyjamas
Make up wearing: None
Jewellery wearing: My silver ankh pendant
Favourite item of jewellery: The same silver ankh
Any distinguishing features? My weird ass scandinavian nose, dancer's neck, pouty lips, and I've been told I have intriguing eyes
Height: 5'10"
Eye colour: Lightning blue
Hair colour: Bionda-rossini (strawberry blonde but Italian sounds cooler)
Hair style: Layers throughout, long emo kid bangs with one short piece in front
Hair length: Between my jaw and shoulders
Scars: Back of my left hand, back of my right thumb
Any disabilities? I ate a jagged metal Krusty-O and have to be fed through a tube that goes directly to my stomach now.
Glasses/contacts? Yeah, I'm near-sighted.
Can you drive? That's when I'm supposed to wear said glasses
If not, do you intend to?
Pasttimes: Creating things....clothing, art, jewellery
You love: DDR. Art as expression. Writing. Songwriting. Heat. Spirituality. Sensuality. Being let down. Men that reek of desperation. Shooting down said men. When all the people in the next catagory get rude awakenings. Vice Magazine. Vice Magazine parties. Travel. Encyclopedia Dramatica. Console Video Games. Passion. My dogs. My nose. My eyes. My heart.
You hate: Banana flavoured candy. Fansigns. Most devART stock photography models. Fat goth devART stock photography models who pose in renaissance style dresses with double-edged swords. Girls that reek of desperation. Most girls. High school students. The fact that I'm no longer one. Growing up, having my maturity be a necessity instead of a unique attribute. People who think they're too cool. Sterotypes that think they are unique. Ignorance. Ignorant people frustrating me with that ignorance. People who are mysteriously exempt from ration, common sense, and reason.
Friends: Sometimes
Online friends: Not so much anymore
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Yep
You as a person: I usually have pretty leet skillZ
Your words/phrases: No dice, würd, pwn, dece, whatev
Your phone is: Always on
Your room is: Messy
Describe your house and its surroundings: White and this town's a hellhole
Village/town/city: Hellhole...
House number: 128
= Family =
Parents:
I call them "Mom" and "Dad"
Stepparents: Not likely
Sibling/s: A younger brother
Step-siblings: Nope.
Pets: Two dogs, a cat, four fish
You live with: All of the above
Grandparents: I have half of them
First cousins: Four on my dad's side, seven on my mom's...I think.
First auntie/uncles: One of each on my dad's side, an aunt and...hmm, three uncles on my mom's?
Mother’s age and starsign: 60, Scorpio
Father’s age and starsign: 48, Pisces
Sibling’s age and starsign: 18, Aries
Your mother looks like: My mom. She used to have long hair and kinda looked like Cher
Your father looks like: John Cleese or John Lithgow
Your sibling looks like: A taller, skinnier, testosteroned up version of me...with some really cool hair
You get on best with: My bro sometimes, my dad others.
= Love =
Marital status:
Widowed and sterile
Boyfriend/girlfriend: Derek
In love with: As if I couldn't be! How much and why: Like I said, we're so similar but so different, it's crazy. Plus he annoyed the hell out of me then charmed the pants right off me. No, really. They actually came off.
Are you romantic?: Not really or conventionally
Do you have any kids?: Nope, unlike most girls my age in this town.
Kids names: Seeing as I don't have any, I'll put down fav names in case I accidentally get pregnant, lmao..for girls: Caledon, Audrey, Tiiu. for boys: Saché/Sacha, Artemis, Kerrigan
= Other/Misc =
Can you draw?
I try
Colours: purple is my fav
Shampoo/conditioner: SexyHair
Hair products: Matrix, BedHead
Hair dye: Not done by me anymore
Single/double bed: Single, and Derek pushes me off it because he takes all the room. So I kick him out :)
Furniture: No room, lol
Email: Ask me.
S/N: tALiMü
Colour curtains: Bamboo
Colour carpet: Red
Colour duvets: Brown, brown satin sheets
Pillows: Pink with Asian print
Favourite way of insulting: Someones' intelligence, subtly, so that maybe one other person gets it and snickers with me
Animals: Dogs (Danes and Labs), horses, ducks, hedgehogs
Religion: Hatemonger, lmao. j/k...Thiestic Agnostic (that isn't a typo)
Veggie/carnivore: Hopefully I'll pick up the veggie where I left off, rather soon
= Last time… =
Showered:
Two hours ago
Bathed: Huh? What's the diff? Like BATH? Hmm prolly a month. We're renovating that bathroom.
Cleaned teeth: 10 min
Brushed hair: Three nights, when razoring new layers in.
Listened to music: 30 min
Watched a movie: A Scanner Darkly, based on the Philip Dick book)
Wrote a letter: Today, to Wade.
Received a letter: The other day...my tax information :(
Wrote an email: Yesterday
Received an email: Today
Spoke to someone: A few minutes ago
Said what: My brother said "Bye" Sang: Last night, my newest work-in-progress
Walked in the rain: Um, I dunno, but it was with Derek. We always seem to get caught in the rain.
Felt unwell: Right now :(
Danced: DDR last week
Got drunk: Thursday at karaoke night. Where I rocked again.
Ate food, and what: Wedges just now
Went to a Gig: Jakalope in Dec
Watched TV: Flavor of Love (I know...) this morning
Argued: Hmm...I guess not since Derek was here, lmao..
Talked to someone online: An hour or so ago, Adam.
Said “I love you,”: And meant it I assume. I always mean it to an extent, but I rarely infuse it with meaning. Last time I did that was the last night Derek was here. :(

My Interests

Music
Art in all its facets (music is separate because of the degree, you see ^_)
Writing lyrics and attempting to pen them to music
Cosplay

I'd like to meet:



Music:

*The Secret Machines*

*Air*
Alanis Morissette
Alexz Johnson
Akira Yamaoka
Arab Strap
Arcade Fire
Arctic Monkeys
Ayumi Hamasaki
Barenaked Ladies
*Belle and Sebastian*
Big Bad Voodoo Daddy
Bloc Party
Boards of Canada
Bonnie Pink
boykillboy
Bright Eyes
**
Caribou
Children of Bodom
Coldplay
controller.controller
*Crosby, Stills, Nash, & Young*
*Dead Meadow*
Death Cab for Cutie
*Death From Above 1979*
*Do Me Bad Things*
DragonForce
*Dream Theater*
Duran Duran
Elliott Smith
*Emiliana Torrini*
Emma Bunton
Figurine
Final Fantasy
*Fischerspooner*
Franz Ferdinand
Garbage
Heart
Holy Fuck
Hot Hot Heat
Interpol
Iron & Wine
Jakalope
KT Tunstall
M.I.A.
Magnet
Maroon 5
Massive Attack
Metric
Minimoni
Miyavi
Morning Musume
My Morning Jacket
*Natalie Imbruglia*
Nobuo Uematsu
*Oasis*
Pink Floyd
*Poe*
*Portishead*
Pulp
R.E.M.
Radiohead
Richard Cheese
Robbie Williams
Rush
*Sarah Slean*
Smashing Pumpkins
Spice Girls
*Stars*
Sufjan Stevens
*Tegan and Sara*
The Beach Boys
The Beatles
The Cardigans
*The Cranberries*
The Darkness
The Decemberists
The Killers
The Mars Volta
The Old Soul
The Postal Service
The Shins
The Strokes
Thievery Corporation
*Tilly and the Wall*
Tommy february6
We Are Scientists
Yaida Hitomi
Zero 7

Movies:

What Dreams May Come
Silent Hill
Jacob's Ladder
Moulin Rouge
White Oleander
Garden State
The Neverending Story
Ghostbusters
Napoleon Dynamite
Stewie Griffin: The Untold Story
Anything Monty Python
Lost in Translation
Bishoujou Senshi Sailormoon R
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Television:

Family Guy
The Simpsons
The Oblongs
Sex and the City
Daria
My So-Called Life
Lazy Town
Dead Like Me
3rd Rock from the Sun
Sailor Moon
Rainbow Brite
Mighty Morphin Power Rangers
Trailer Park Boys
Faulty Towers
Monty Python's Flying Circus

Books:

Valis
The Art of Looking Sideways
The Book of Secrets
Many others but I prefer how-to books

Heroes:

Bill Nye
Neil Buchanan
Robbie Williams
Salad Fingers
Weebl and Bob (& friends of course!)
As well, anyone else who had to learn things the hard way. We're stronger for our bouts of misery.

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Tamia
Birthday: December 9th
Birthplace: Bracebridge
Current Location: Out of Everywhere
Eye Color: Lightning Blue
Hair Color: Ash Blonde
Height: 5'10"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: Canadian - 0.25 Norweigian, 0.25 Icelandic, 0.5 English Mutt
The Shoes You Wore Today: None yet...but I'm wearing green toe polish?
Your Weakness: Love
Your Fears: Things with too many legs
Your Perfect Pizza: Italian Margherita
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Allow myself to be happy and comfortable with who I am
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lmao
Thoughts First Waking Up: Warm...bed...
Your Best Physical Feature: I asked Derek and he said "All of you". So there you have it.
Your Bedtime: Hopefully before 12
Your Most Missed Memory: Milan
Pepsi or Coke: Orangina
MacDonalds or Burger King: Sushi
Single or Group Dates: Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: POM tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chai
Cappuccino or Coffee: Cappuccino
Do you Smoke: Not anymore! *pats arm*
Do you Swear: On yo mamma's grave
Do you Sing: Pretty well
Do you Shower Daily: Yep
Have you Been in Love: I envy anyone who hasn't
Do you want to go to College: Yep
Do you want to get Married: Maybe, to the right person...But the soulmate line on my hand says I'll only do it once, so hopefully I don't fuck up
Do you belive in yourself: Hopefully I will one day. It's getting better
Do you get Motion Sickness: In planes I feel woozy
Do you think you are Attractive: I'm not unattractive, but I've never really thought I was anything special
Are you a Health Freak: Yes, my body is my temple. I should treat it better.
Do you get along with your Parents: Not at all
Do you like Thunderstorms: Yeah
Do you play an Instrument: French horn back in high school
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: A bit of wine and a beer or two
In the past month have you Smoked: Nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs: No
In the past month have you gone on a Date: No, Derek never takes me on dates
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: Yep, Vaughan Mills..would be so wicked if it weren't for all the Ginas and Ballas
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: I don't think I ever have. That's a quick way to gain weight.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: Unfortunately no. I should go sometime this week
In the past month have you been on Stage: Karaoke in the Florida Keys! Lmao
In the past month have you been Dumped: No...hopefully I don't get dumped for a long time!
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: Nope
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: No, I don't steal
Ever been Drunk: Of course
Ever been called a Tease: Haha naturally
Ever been Beaten up: Nope
Ever Shoplifted: Nope
How do you want to Die: My life line says I'll be at least 100, so naturally I will want to die by bus gas explosion.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A fucking star
What country would you most like to Visit: Japan
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: Straw
Favourite Hair Color: Straw lmao
Short or Long Hair: Short enough to look like a guy, long enough to pull
Height: Not really important. Though over 5 foot is preferred, lmao
Weight: Not ripped, not chubby...A bit of an in between is nice. Haha, he can't weigh less than me.
Best Clothing Style: Clothed
Number of Drugs I have taken: I don't know...a lot?
Number of CDs I own: Not a whole lot anymore...I steal everything nowadays. Prolly less than 10 CDs
Number of Piercings: Seven
Number of Tattoos: Five
Number of things in my Past I Regret: None
I love when important things end because then I can look back on them and extract any possible lesson I could have learned from them..saying I learned.
I like laughing at drunks. Especially when I'm drunk too but more coherent than the others. But I don't really like spending alone time with them. They're devious.
I love hurting. I keep myself surrounded in memories of the things that have let me down so I can have some sick justification in behaving cryptically. So that others think of me as deep and intelligent.
Only five people have ever understood me (which is more than most people can say, I guess), and that took more time than any others would be willing to spend. Two were female, one was my father, one I admired so deeply, and the other tried to change me.
I used to think I was pretty, envied, unique, gifted, and even trophy-like. I've been called a muse before and that fit me so well. Not so much anymore. I only feel passed by...jaded and bitter.
I can't remember the last time I felt true happiness...that everything was right. The last time I had that chance there was something underlying, and a huge wrench thrown into the plan.
Links:
My devART page
My Windows Live Space
IMVU
Neopets
Scientology, illustrated!
665
Boners
GameFAQs
Weebl and Bob and Friends
Indie tits
Questionable Content

My Blog

In light of last night

You know that I won't regret this, and hopefully one day you will understand.And if this is to be the end, if you won't ever realizeKnow that I will never look back, knowing the error was not with meD...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 06:53:00 PST

Novembers past - Coming to terms, Upon turning 21

So much has happened these past few years.  Wow, what a typical opening statement.  Regardless, looking back on where I was at this time last year, and years prior (partially assisted by lit...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Wed, 22 Nov 2006 07:15:00 PST

One Day

Okay, Yes this is the new background song on my blog and no, you're right, I cannot for the life of me play guitar.  But hey, it's to give Andrew an idea of how the song goes so he doesn't t...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Tue, 21 Nov 2006 05:36:00 PST

Meaghan's Answers

Hello my name is Meaghan I am not Tamia Tamia is Beautiful Me and Tamia don't get to play barbies ever I really just want to bend over Tamia I wish me and Tamia could just not care about crap from oth...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 08:48:00 PST

You Killed My Thief - Song

New song!!  This one is by request from Rob, for PBB Under godly influenceThe whitest maiden fairWaits for the strongest bladeThe coolest hairWarrior in redWields Heaven and HellCrashing bol...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 07:18:00 PST

New song: Dear Sir,

Duplicate post from www.deviantart.com Dear Sir,   Going out of your headGetting into your mindWalking twice as fastBecause you're falling behindIn a world of regretSwirling deeper insideHol...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 08:28:00 PST

Haha, oh man, forgot to post this greatness!

Genius in my inbox!  Took me way too long to post this!  And all you assholes who didn't reply suck.  This rocks.  And I'm going to fill these in for the cool people only.  To...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Tue, 14 Nov 2006 02:49:00 PST

Sick...and the recent goings-on

Okay, well Myspace won't let me put that this was a 2005 post.  So fuck it.  Bastards.  This is all from Oct. 21 2005.   I have the fucking flu...coupled with a nice dash of migrai...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Wed, 17 May 2006 03:05:00 PST

Cosplaying

Link to the progress of my cosplay:  (It's on my MSN Space since they host images) http://rox-j00r-sox.spaces.live.com/PersonalSpace.aspx?_c11_ PhotoAlbum_spaHandler=TWljcm9zb2Z0LlNwYWNlcy5XZWIuUG...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Sat, 14 Oct 2006 11:01:00 PST

Been writing again!

I've been writing some new lyrics.  Actually, for whatever reason I had melodies in my head tonight and couldn't bloody sleep so I sang out some words to them and wrote the damn things down.They can a...
Posted by Tamia ~kikaiyashin~ on Tue, 26 Sep 2006 04:04:00 PST