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ali

Lessons on a life *thisclose* to something or nothing

About Me

Ok....I'll start.
My son Corey - "made" my my space -space for me. He filled in the answers as he saw fit....as he views me and it was both touching and ....
*cocks her head* why would he mention I like to find small little places to eat??????
Anyway...yes. My son Corey - who is 17 and the sweetest boy a mother could ever ask for. Where I might have fallen short in too many areas to count - he is my perfection. I can't even begin to say how proud I am of Corey.
We sort of grew up together - I was a very immature 23 when I had him and he got the honor of watching me in all stages of the climb. I think I've done a good job. I know he's happy. Loved. Secure. He is talented, funny, sarcastic.....
Did I mention sarcastic?
Am I a proud, proud parent? Yes I am. Do I hate that he is *almost* 18 and he's *almost* out of arm's reach....
I met John in 2001 and we've been together ever since. He's very tall.
He makes me laugh. He "gets" me. I get him. He's smarter than anyone I've ever met and the IBM has done a number in beating him into submission over the past couple years - but he plows on, making huge strides in his career and making me proud. He has the entire alphabet behind his name.
I've done too many things to mention right now. Do you know it's 5:00 am?
Who are you and why are you keeping me awake?
More another day.
Ok...here is more. It's a muggy July morning and the birds are singing and thunder is rolling in the not so far distance. The sun is barely up. I feel awake.Rain is hitting the window beside me and here I still am.+ +Another update: A few days ago, spring sprang into 2007 and the beauty and dynamic color around me really shook me awake and my entire body tingled.......Of course - here it is April and it's back down to 26 degrees and I've crawled back in that fucking hibernation hole......so does that mean I saw my shadow or something??
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My Interests

Music, more more more. No time now.

I'd like to meet:

John Malkovich. Jon Stewart. Oprah.

Music:

A to freaking Z

Movies:

Depressing ones. I like to cry. :)yep. That's me. The Town Crier.

Television:

Little House On The Prarie. The Waltons. It's true.

Books:

Also A to Z

Heroes:

Oprah.
Strength. Grace. Georgia O'Keefe.
Heavenly beauty through her fingertips... And then blindness. Bettie Paige
Raw. Ahead of her time. Never faded. Amelia Earhardt.
Soaring. Brave. An orchid for Nancy.
A woman I can only aspire to be as smart as, as clever as, as successful as, as creative as....and my good fortune and meet her in this lifetime. Marilyn.
This is my favorite picture of her. In this light - her beauty transcends and lasts and lingers and haunts. Is she a hero? I don't know.....but can't you smell the Chanel and gin? She makes me want to cry.
And this guy. .. Will he ever know it? Does he care? My son. My heart. My love. My pain. My everything.

My Blog

Simplicity frozen

That chill in the air is unlike cold I remember when I was a child.  There is little exhiration to it -it feels cold and raw.  Our planet is raw and chapped.  Our biggest accomplishmen...
Posted by ali on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 11:22:00 PST

Meanwhile..

Good stuff happening. At least politics wise..... now - if only somebody would hold me down and force feed me nothing but water for about 2 months maybe life would be good.   Breathe.  Breat...
Posted by ali on Thu, 09 Nov 2006 11:40:00 PST

My baby.

I just need you to know - no matter how old you are - no matter how grown up you become....   You are my child.  And I love you.   Everything is going to work out - and you are going to...
Posted by ali on Thu, 19 Oct 2006 08:02:00 PST

Awesome

Rock on to this awesome Malaysian tune, dudes.
Posted by ali on Thu, 15 Jun 2006 06:43:00 PST

omg. you will never believe what just happened.

i would tell you but then i'd have to kill you. make you clean my bathroom.   and remember........the foddy uses that bathroom.
Posted by ali on Tue, 30 May 2006 06:56:00 PST

Halloooo?

Is. This. Thing. On?
Posted by ali on Wed, 24 May 2006 01:33:00 PST