♠ Carolyn ♠

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♠My Interests Are I like To Hang Out with hot sk8ter Guys that are sweet and like to Draws And Likes Poetry I Like all people because no one has a lable in my eye Well thats What Im Interested in Guys heres some of my poems i wrote♠_______________________________________________ _________ one of my poems Lost in A Dream That I Cant See My Way Through The Darkind ClOUDS thaT Tare Me A Part Of Lost Love Thats Was Never There A Love that Was Never Found Till I Saw Him Running around The Floor Of My Dreams Yealling Saying something i couldnt Under Stand I Was Lost In Thoughs Eyes Of His To Say not Word But Nothing Comes You know im lost In A Dream Thats No Longer A Dream by carolyn mcpherson Love Is Somthing You charish even if You Have No love________________________________________________________ ____
THE END OF A LIVED LIFE___________________________
the end of nothing in my life i cant see.
ill i need is some one to see me for who i am in side
to catch me when i hurt my self from unloved life.
stop the pain of the end of a depressed live that can see whats going on in my life.
to see another like me is to hard to find in the black covered street.
of my life a tear of sadness from my heart to say that there is never to of the same.
cant i ever find the one iv long for in my life.
so that ill nevere find the words to say two another despret corps.
thats no longer one of the that can to this unloved life that no one can see.
the tears of my broken heart that cant seem to find you from the start og my life.
im cought in a black empty street of my life no one under stands my emty hearts pain.
so stop me know for whats going to happen to me on the day that iv lived for the first time and the last.

The moments are lost like tears in the rain
theres nothing we can do now things will never be the same.
Not all scars show and not all wounds heal,
I wish I could tell you how I realy feel.

Torn up and broken inside,
all I ever wanted to do was run and hide.
To run away and never return,
forget all this pain I'v had to learn.

How can I follow my broken heart,
when I feel like my souls been ripped apart.
can't u see the pain in my eyes,
cant you see the tears I'v cried.

I'm left here alone and broken,
my hearts already been forced open.
I used to think I was strong,
but every thing changed when you came along.

My world came crashing in around me,
I just know that youll never see.
You'l never know why I cry these tears,
and you'l never know my darkest fears.

You told me we'd always be together,
but know I know nothing lasts for ever.

Shallow depths of one person, running holes through my heart.... won't ever like me for who I am but will for who I'm not, hurts my feelings all the time with words they often use....telling me I'm an embarassment is never nothing new. I hate my life theres no doubt about that, my lonely shame; for that I'll always have I'm never good enough for them I'm just a mistake I wish I we alone with no one here just me, myself, and I because getting critizied is what I fear. Shallow depths of one person running holes through my heart, they will never truly love me for who I am, but they will love me to pretent to be something I'm not.

I wear a mask.

I wear a mask to cover the scars
So nobody sees my broken heart
I run to my room so nobody sees
All the shattered pieces of me
I look in the mirror
And I see my crimson tears
I wonder if he sees the fear in my eyes
I wonder if he knows how much I cry
I wonder if he knows how badly he hurt me
I cant pretend to be happy anymore
My soul has shattered completely
I have to let go now from everything that captivates me
I have to let myself go from all the lies
I have to let my veins run dry
As I fall to the ground my vision fades
As I finally escape from all of his rage.

I will never forget the days we once had The days when you were everything to me My mind used to tell me we'd be together forever But now I realize that was all a big dream The feelings I have for you will never go I wish I could take back that one regretful day The day when I willingly let you slide from my arms Never did I think of the astonishing pain of regrets That I would once have to live through The sight of you in someone else's arms Makes my heart shatter into a million pieces I sometimes wonder if you still think of me Or if to you, I'm just a face in the crowd I wish so very much that one day we can have it all back But for now, I'll sit here silently Remembering all the memories we once shared Everyday my love grows much stronger Hoping that one day you will feel the same And put back the pieces of my broken heart.

An echo fades into the night, an eerie mournful sound. A shooting star disappears from sight, and I crumble to the ground. There is no life within this garden, my sobs are the only sound. I have poisoned the honeyed fountain, where your love could be found. Dazed, I stare at the stars above, my grieving howls fill the night. Unintended betrayal of love, has hidden you from my sight. I remember how is use to be, when we shared our fears and delights. You are a treasured friend to me, How can I make things right? Feeling afraid, cold and lonely, I long to tell you how I feel, but you don’t want to hear me. The pain for you is much to real. Should I back away and build a wall and block away how I feel? Or, should I give you a call? We both need some time to heal. An echo fades into the night, as our friendship disappears. How do I know what is right? How can I ease my fears? If I do call you again, would the old wounds reappear? I can’t stand to cause you pain. Hurting you again is my worst fear..

When I stand there in the dark corner of the room.
its like imp invisible. and I can see you.
Anything I ever worried.
Anything I have feared.
Goes away for that short while without any tears.

Tears are something that are never shown.
But are felt inside.
So when I stand there.
its like imp trying to hide.

I try to get away from the people I don't know or understand.
I wish I could over come this thing like fear.
Conquer it hand on hand.

I’m standing here so jaded.
I’m hiding here unknown.
I continue to live this empty life
Because I’ve got nowhere to go.

I’m standing here and fading
I’m dying here unknown
I’ve put an end to my empty life
Because I was so sick of feeling alone

I'm dying but you don't notice.
I'm crying but you can't hear.

Inside my soul is tearing apart.
But yet I show no tears.

I saw the pain in your eyes.
I heard your very last cries.
I saw the blood expose from your face.
I watched your body fall from its place.

I looked at the blood that was shattered all around.
I looked at your dead body as it lay life-less on the ground.

I stood over your bloody body and wondered why.
Now I stand over your grave and scantly cry.

Break away in the end.
Leave me heart for me to mend.
Leave my thoughts. Let me die.
These thoughts I will not defy.

These thoughts of death.
These thought of peace.
I tried to tell you that I was to weak.
I held on as long as I could.
But I was too misunderstood.

You tried to help.
but I pushed you away.
Now I live not another day.
Not another day shall I feel the need to hide.
Not another day shall I try to decide.

Decide if I should live or die.
Well I’ve made me decision.
To you it must be clear.
In the end.
You the one that put me here.

Here I lay.
Dead under the ground.
Here I lay.
In peace, so sound.

I look for what is not there.
I look for someone that cares.
Not someone or anyone.
Someone. only you.
Loved me to.

My feelings of love for you wonder.
But go no where in return.
I wish that it was possible
For feelings to be burned

You can burn possessions.
You can burn parts of memories.
I'll never be able to burn love.
or the times you've made me so happy.

In sadness without regret.
I drop to my knees.
Thinking over and over.
Painful memories.

I drop to my knees
with my hands over my head.
Wishing that all memories, feelings.
And I were all dead.