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I am here for Friends and Networking

About Me

i've decided that my newfound social identity will consist of irish pubs and quaint northbeach italian restaurants (sans annoying tourists and yuppies as i mentally block them out in my imaginary headspace).
really, though. i'm an extremely reflective and introspective person. i have a pseudo split personality where you can catch me acting like a 5-year-old one moment and a wannabe textbook the next. social butterfly 7 days a week, except for any day i feel like being a hermit - which can be often. the happiest smile with a shattered heart. the lover of random acts of kindness who might break you in two if you cross her. self control but no control. i like to keep it positive the best i can. always trying to create balance, breadth, and depth in my life. i'm an overachiever and often hyper-optimist exiting her dormant stage and about to get a move on. some serious life learnings got in the way before :D. but i wouldn't be where i am and how i am without them, so i accept them.
revelation of present times: i am understanding and learning to value more than ever what it means to be a woman. and i love the woman company i currently keep.
more to come.

My Interests

pioneering the "ready today, better yet, yesterday" movement.
in a nutshell: a lover of spirituality, people, food, the arts, education, and culture.
all that i enjoy, i believe, is rooted in my sense of spirit; the unseen threads that connect humanity, this soil, and what is beyond.
more to come.

I'd like to meet:

not the selfish, the leech. not the stagnant. not the grossly indulgent, indifferent, ignorant, or prideful. not the insincere or the liar. not the bearer of baggage with an even heavier load of excuses. not the negative.
people are full of surprises. not only to others, but oftentimes to themselves. this, however, is not a surprise as we are ever evolving - learning ourselves through our experiences, relationships, and hopefully, some reflection. so- if we are constantly "updating" ourselves, sometimes barely understanding ourselves...how will others understand us? what defines who we really are? what is the best predictor of how we will act from one moment to the next? really, it's hard to say.
more to come.

Music:

all that on my harddrive that i haven't touched yet. and all of yours as well. in the words of an old friend - i'm a music hoarder.
in the process of trying to better organize, listen to my archives of older isht. but also need to update....like really, really.
love my soul. but also jazz, fusion, world, hip hop, house, broken beat, electronic - and still learning! love finding new music and my independent/underground artists holding it down!

Movies:

the one in my mind.

Television:

hour long dramas that i can watch backtobacktoback like veeeeeeerrrry looonnggg movies, allowing me to be a completely unproductive bum. that kind.

Books:

those on my shelf i haven't read yet. can you read them to me?

Heroes:

my mama. yo mama. and mama's everywhere for all time.

My Blog

i never learned to play

I never learned to play But I hear the sounds Of butterflies singing Their malevolent songs Lead-heavy drones Sorrowful weary moans The ecstasy of a pregnant loss found this was a collective piece, b...
Posted by . on Tue, 01 Apr 2008 02:38:00 PST

contentment.

mostly a stream of conscience.  i might come back and clean it up some more.  if i feel like it.contentmentthe irresistible smile of an infant a mother’s love the crisp breeze whisking...
Posted by . on Wed, 19 Mar 2008 05:35:00 PST

dont hold your breath

don’t hold your breath, just breathesimply receive, remain opengive and let bebreatheno expectations, but palms lay openface upwardlook inwardmove forwardbreatheinhale invisible ecstacyexhale kn...
Posted by . on Tue, 26 Feb 2008 12:01:00 PST

the unlabeled mix cd

ever grab a few "blank" cd's to burn, but then when you pop it in it's already burned?  that happened with about 4 of my thought-to-be-blank cd's today.  2 of them were full-length albums, 1...
Posted by . on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 10:57:00 PST

speaking to you

is difficult. nowadays are spent in non-remembrance of your memories overlooked is the detail with which you made me feel simple joys we conceived, forgotten my faith in you lays dotted on a line...
Posted by . on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 10:52:00 PST

that’s what i thought...

[incomplete] you don't leave my mind.and in the rare occassion that you do, you are in my breaths.as time has progressed, i've learned thatyou were embedded in my subconscience from the very moment we...
Posted by . on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 10:51:00 PST

the blur

an excerpt from my  blog...reading it still affects me... i feel like i'm living in a bit of a blur. things happen, then become happened. and i either move on to periodioc non-happening or contin...
Posted by . on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 10:50:00 PST

the stillness of chaos

time is either frozen, or the same moment insists on overstaying its welcomecontained in this space that plays into perpetuity, i appear intact but my side achesthere's a tickle in my ear&my hair&or a...
Posted by . on Thu, 09 Aug 2007 10:48:00 PST

now it's rehes.wordpress.com

it rhymes. KINDA fresh. http://rehes.wordpress.com
Posted by . on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 12:26:00 PST

sounds of your absence...

i consider all my works to be continually in progress...but:   sounds of your absence (4.3.06)the honey of your laugh drip dropsas my stomach flip flopsand my heart stop startstime passes with th...
Posted by . on Thu, 27 Apr 2006 11:50:00 PST