gabe (dwa)....................

letting people know I am not a "disabled person" but simply a person first and foremost who happens to have a disability some people do realize this but most do not it is very hard to change people's perspectives and sometimes there is success in this but even with these people I do not expect total appreciation of this reality because their first impression of me will always be in their minds because I use a walker at times and have a slight speech impairment ( and people can be very ignorant at times) at first most individuals assume i'm developmentally disabled or have some other mental disorder well the only "mental" disorder I have is a committment to militantly "enlightening" people to the errors of their un-educated and naive ways one thing that happens to me alot( I consider myself very witty! I will pun or give a unique spin to almost anything ) is i'll say something really funny or profound and the person I am talking to will be like "were you hear that?" under my breath i'm like "from a horses ass"this is how y'all make me feel...............at this point u should stop because to truly understand what i`m saying you need to read it all and it is long,understand though these rhymes are simply thought and are in no way indicative asfuckin` too how I think about or feel about any individual in their specific context but rather a general and broad assesment and statement on "how it is for me" in the human condition...........................................so all you little dames u just try and bellitle in games u can just step to back of tha` line u have not crept on tha` attack with in my design or kept no slack with me and mine so it's like I was far from last not a par in me cast of any those who slept back when I saw in my awe that ammenities in divinities lizzzzine`! fuck believin` in appealin` as we supoose in possibities i`m stuck recievin` an` dealing wit` those probabilities so step to this an` smuck u`ll be siezen` an`fuckin` reelin` ho`s wit no hospitalities!.................i'm never blowing up a cellphone to be upwardly mobile i'm ever showing up in hell alone as i'm inwardly hostile ...........when I was livin younger I was drivin by hunger a childhood up in that wild neirborhood inside was nothing more than government cheese outside something else instore in that covenant of sleaze being over exsposed down in all those parking lots to all those decomposed body-rots so sickly surrounded by the slum rows of burnt out tenements I quickly got grounded like any of the other hoodlum hoes and learnt to shout out my resentments where i`m from tha` only value is tha` sum homey and it's all due yes I was in the fast lane didn't anticpate getting out of here so I was like let it rain or precipitate without a care I was survin' by pain and precept of hate and fear the "lonley" small white boy fo` miles but I remained fuckin` erect and gained fuckin` respect as I was that homey all tight in my coy styles you know when yo` out an` `bout some homie runs up in disgust dyin` to catch a hit an` yo`just tryin` to scratch that shit so you bust an` match that shit an`then fuckin`dust flyin`in lust an` disgust an` dispatch that shit like i`m another fuckin` motherfuckin` bitch tryin` to find duckin` an` coverin`bring yo` shit` cuz i`ll sting and wring out wit` no doubt yo` shit with ease motherfucker please ! put that beef at peace and annilate obliterate any punk ass nimwit in his junk and crass bullshit forever rest assured however socond guessed or pressured i'm that new york motha` with not a crack but tha! back bone so you know i'll due my work to smack back in my zone........................ so you better believe I was down there stormin and swarmin at three in the mornin' con mios los amigos el banditos son peurtoricanos down in all those freakin` new yo~rican barrios and up on those transit tracks in all those rancid acts lay any man or kid on their backs in some real fuckin candid facts here you best know yo' pee's and Q's no fear lest' you get freakin' bum rushed by all those gees and crews or not and you'll get played school-yarded quick fast layed in a pool of yo' own discsarded prick of a carcas flying down those streets and N.Y.C.'s subways like fleets of M.I.G.'s coming off those runways all of us playing defiant creeps as were just preying taking those giant leaps over yet another seven story tenement alley seconds from breathing that last breath none of us saw any heaven or history in this vehement shadow of the valley of death yes I used to have some heavy hitter friends but they all payed the levy and hit their bitter ends all capped up in the drug vortex all wrapped up with a slug to the cortex all that remmains are some blood stains black crosses and body chalks but it's nothing cause your wizin' up motherfucker and your sizin' up any motherfucker as you become accustom to these pains and losses on those brutal new york sidewalks i`m not krazy an tryin` to be all jihad! cuz` I ain`t dyin` to meet my god! juz` applyin` it gee hard! an u will know this if yo`fuckin` flyin` at me on the yard! so don't be like i'm just a cripple ass smoking a newport cuz` i'll triple yo' cash when i'm loking in a freakin' fortnite in the aneurysm my survial was not cuz the achievement of good medics but an inner almost tribal commitment to hood ethics so plz don't stress and take personal but my life is no dress or fake rehersal so fuck you and fuck altruism cuz i learnt in the wrath of the vascular aneurysm to buck at you and buck all true in realism in my burnt path of singular egotism y`all know shit about coming up from behind in destitution unless you've had to sit enroute and recline in an institution or like me have been hit wit` no doubt divine retribution i`m tryin` to abstain tha` marriage to that bitch ass of death killer ka[u]li but I knew it was rusing in my head tha` wedlock when I was gushing red an` bled all over tha` fuckin` m.d.s smock in tha` brain hemmorage which has left a thriller all in me so don`t be like u can ride out an` straight thru cuz` I know tha` inside an` out tha` hate true so don`t press or even come wit` some fake wholistic appeal you best believin` i`ll be the one to make a hole realistic in u as u fuckin` congeal! your all dazzled as I master my smooth talk but ultimately frazzled when you see the disaster of how I move and walk take the term live spelt backwards it's fuckin' evil so you know as I squirm to live i've been dealt mo' black thirds on fuckin' levelso all you little bitchs to these barely blinking halfwits you give your freakin' time never to me as I'm constantly thinking in sanskrits as I continue to live and explore my rhyme it's not cuz i'm not a swell choice or lack ability but you all play me like a well source of slack cuz' tha' freakin'disability so bitchs whateva` you got to say you'd be wise to keep it as talking in yo' own head cuz however in dismay I realize i'm in tha' deep shit as one of tha`` walking alone undead you all think yo` that beholdin` beautay`with that golden bootay`come my way and you'll be just like that@! foldin` cutay` and you motherfuckers and othersuckers ain't got shit but physical brawn let's sting shit intellectual and then we can bring it on`shit i'll never know any pleasure or be looked at by a good wife i've been pressure-cooked by that hood and my strife after all the anuerysm got me livin` like I did a crime and am in prison an empty prism with know rhyme or reas`n chillings lights just bouncing of the wall filling my sights with disgust as i'm renouncing any and all it's like when I was in tha` coma they tried to enter me thru heaven and its gate but god laughed and said c'mon this guy runs in twenty fo` seven hate and then lucy boy shows up and says "yo` gabe just spit in face he's left you to sit in discrace in this shit of a place let's book and just quit this space then turned to god and said god don't even attempt to be aware in all yo` empty air an` try an pre-empt me here cuz contempt is what I see anywhere an`everywhere " u are all like just bioloical and so in my survival of the fittest in disgust it is but logical in my revival that I spit like thisl be that dumb slum bum who stept of late to this irate son of bitch! and you will find it unkind and shit as yo` swept in fate and hate done in a ditch! all was written is by yours trulyso don't think i'm spitten` fo' any you whores to try and school menever seen a chance fo' a dollar in these obscene rants I hollar but then again the motive is to calm this savage beast cuz i'm way explosive like napalm when set to ravage and release do me rightly an you can be aware with care I will come sweet and discrete but take me truly lightly and you best beware as I blare with the heat from the street last but not least you can all be cast at peace cuz' i'm no slow ho or undid stupid cupid cuz` who am I to expect as I role to be chilled with a mate when I constanly apply with tha` dialect of a soul filled wit` hate i'll kindly keep it real and retain my sense of manly Identity why appeal or complain when y`all are as dense as anti-gravity you' need to speculate an` evaluate an` investigate who I be an` whats true in me like i'm some sad co` dumb ho my bad y`all need to be that columbo juz inspectin` what is good but you y`all been rejectin` this kat misunderstood like any you not many but few could contend an` comprehend tha` appitures an` tempetures of tha` heat I must beat back wit` no slack in tha` parameters of dealin` an` appealin` wit` yo` ametuers yo` all semantic in this game so unromantic with no shame your all like he's hot she's not and when it comes to me it's like what kind a [email protected] fleas you got so yo` all like nothing like the wrath of a womens scorn but yo`all know jack `bout the path this fuckin`` demon's torn! my ex waz just a catalyst for my rhetoric fitness as I apeal wit` my diction just anotha` bitch ass catarac on this esoteric eyewitness of some real fuckin` friction after being almost totally biologically battered she thought she could leave me and bring me close emotionally and psycholoically shattered like she devotionally and chronologically mattered human history is eons why be consumed by the misery of peons so but I should think not! no slut could sink what I got! she knows who she is and she best keep aware an` that motherfuckin' distance cuz if she tries to creep near she'll be beggin' fo` some motherfuckin`assistance! who waz she to try an` break bread off in my inner sanctum to just tread off like some sinner phantom what issued her right to come in dickin` an` dabbin` in my pandora`s box cuz if I ignored tha` vishnued` light i'd already done bin` stickin` an` stabbin` all her motherfuckin` crayola cockz wit` lies an deception she tried too touch this heart of stone so I hope she dies wit` no affection much apart an` all alone juz` cringin` in her past denial juz bingin` fo` that last vial an` ~ so I should be hypocritical an` political correct an` except we were both in a mental fog an` forgive her ignorance but since day one in the anuerysm it is has been I `go tha` length an` convince in truth essential that I bring on tha` strength evidence in proof intelletual with no cognative dissonance....so why should I give tha benifit of tha` doubt when it`s like y`all live to be comin` up deficit enroute like i`m stalking any one of yous i`m only talking to any one yous fo` my motherfuckin` dues! i`m no fake but old schcool so whatever it may take cold an` cruel i`ll make you fuckin` fold fool all you wanna be concievin` an` believin` u`ll be stars in yo plight ain`t fuckin lived it real an been in yo` own mind in tha` zone an` on tha` grind like "oh shit i`m co hit ya know I must admit " an` gonna be bleedin an` recievin` fuckin` scars tonight do tha` walk fit then you talk yo` shit like in n.y.c tha` b.m.t an` i.r.t linez an` lokin` on tha d train in tha` soakin` rain out too enroute too coney islan`z! at five thirty in tha` morn` thrive dirty full of fuckin` scorn! yo` rhyme is dumb save it an` don`t slip in lip service cuz` when it comes time some brave shit to flip an` trip y`all get nervous! shit my slum lyrics son are advanced on my level only for those true hoodlum clerics who have done danced wit` tha` devil like I give a fuck `bout u or twenty five to life cuz` i`ve had too live as smuck enroute through plenty to survive my strife!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was brought and stung up in new york city where yo' taught from a young pup too work with no pity on whatever or any carcas or however many a smartass you need to sike dispel or bleed and then be like oh well indeed weak link narrow minded bitchs speak an`think in barrio blinded ditchs an` im not talking econmics but r u a real person or juz` appeal rehersin` walking in yo ergonomics so in my drunken pleasure it is no wonder any moral oe believe is like sunken treasure under a corral reeflike u know this fuck of scar through an` through an` can introspect of late on my disabilty so who tha` fuck are you too speculate on my ability like i`m ones of those hoes or othersmucks motherfucks` to be cryin` as i`m dyin` an` comin` undone all forgotten on a park bench with nothin` won all rotten` in a stark stench bring it here de-humanizing faggots cuz` i`ll be there de-fumagating you fuckin` maggots !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!