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I am a total and utter narcissist. Probably way more of a narcissist than you are - wait,.. why am I talking about you?
"These myths going round, these legends, fairytales I'll put them straight; so when you stare into my face – Helen's face, Cleopatra's, Queen of Sheba's, Juliet's – then, deeper, gaze into my eyes – Nefertiti's, Mona Lisa's, Garbo's eyes – think again. The Little Mermaid slit her shining silver tale in two, rubbed salt into that stinking wound, got up and walked, in agony, in fishnet tights, stood up and smiled, waltzed, all for a Prince, a pretty boy, a charming one who'd dump her in the end, chuck her, throw her overboard. I could have told her – look, love, I should know, They're bastards when they're Princes. What you want to do is find yourself a Beast…
So I was hard on the Beast, win or lose, when I got upstairs, those tragic girls in my head, turfing him out of bed, standing alone on the balcony, the night so cold I could taste the stars on the tip of my tongue. And I made a prayer – thumbing my pearls, the tears of Mary, one by one, like a rosary – words for the lost, the captive beautiful, the wives, those less fortunate than we. The moon was a hand-mirror breathed on by a Queen. My breath was a chiffon scarf for an elegant ghost. I turned to go back inside. Bring me the Beast for the night. Bring me the wine cellar key. Let the less-loving one be me."
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I spent last summer in SE Asia (Singapore, Malaysia, Vietnam, Cambodia, Thailand, Japan) and I'm going back ASAP. It was awesome, stressy, funny, liberating, awe inspiring, humbling and frickin ace of frickin base. I've realised my life long dream of visiting Japan and it's even better than I imagined. Cutesy, sexy, bright, fun, to the moon. I heart Japan forever and ever and ever.
I drink and talk far too much. I moan lots. I don't eat enough vegetables or get enough sleep. I don't brush my hair very often. I grew up in a house of boys, so I don't really know how to act like a girl. I have pretty bad taste in men, clothes and music. But I'm rather snobbish when it comes to films and British comedy.
I do not trust doctors, instead I choose to self-medicate with caffiene drinks, night nurse, alcohol, pro-plus, pills, painkillers, and second-hand nicotine.
I am part Romany gypsy, part Russian mafia princess, part zombie. I am the spawn of two good looking people with mental abnormalities. Unfortunately, my brother inherited the looks, I got the mental abnormalities.
I'm stuck in Manchester, whilst everyone else I know seems to have migrated down South or is on t'other side of the world. I miss them all terribly. Myspace does allow me to spy on my beautiful friends, but it's not the same as looking at their beautiful faces in person of course.
"you can tell from the scars on my arms and cracks in my hips and the dents in my car and the blisters on my lips that i'm not the carefullest of girls...
behold the worlds worst accident I AM THE GIRL ANACHRONISM"
I do some writing for this awesome magazine
** I have decided to take these awe-inspiring quotes as my daily mantra:
"Irish Blood, English Heart, this I'm made of. There is no one on earth I'm afraid of" Morrissey
"Rather be a bitch than be an ordinary broken heart" Dresden Dolls
"If you can give it, I can take it. 'Cause if this heart is gonna break it's gonna take a lot to break it" Cher, my friends, motherfucking Cher.
If my heart could beat, it would break my chest.