Lonely once the Drugs are done! I FEEL LIKE DYING

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music and writing are my life. i compose and write my own music. Im a singer, guitarist, and dabble in both bass, and drums. i relocated out in dixon. which is a crappy little town, but cheap ass apartments.
im crazy and i can talk to rivers!! i pick my nose when im bored :D....... if you wanna know anything else just message me!!
I was living in dixon, but now i just moved back to Bolinbrook, IL! FUCK DIXON!!
the perversion of life for the last caressing.
you cant achieve balance with out harmony.
I begin again with thoughts that inflict in my mind. With no real pattern, or order. in these disfigured writings if I were here to follow an order of some sort created by the rich.
then what am I? who created god?? and why do the rich create government??
an unforseen balance of good and evil is only an opinion by the one who chooses to catergorize such words.
there is no harmony!
we create such things in life, and they have no opposite.
we the divine higher than all can only see this, and why we chose to acknowledge it?
who knows, maybe we are the gods who chose this path. Our path to understand the sorrounding life.
fuck this!! I have no answers but i have it all. i cant speak anymore. my mind is still crumbling as I write.
my slurs of words dont make sense. sentences are mixed but I still coninue.
I dont know why I see things the way I do. I dont know why we do the things we do, but what is for certain?
that death will be our only freedom. as long as there is a value higher than life itself. a power higher than life itself, and a common interest higher than life itself!!!!!!!
this is what i speak of............... MONEY!!
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War Fair
War fair, A fair of ballistic proportions
Its fun and games at this attraction
Gorges of blood and body filled trenches
how many can you blow up in the next second
Ware Fair
Land Mines, Grenades
Bio Chemicals to mass annihilate
Nuclear Arms, Guerilla War Fare
Lets kill those Sons of Bitches, over there
War Fair
Stand up and Scream your name
The worlds ending so claim your game
We got guns
We got Jets
We got Bombs
A dumb President
George Bush your Fucking Stupid!
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Lately the days go by, but i feel the same. Never changing in any way. Each day ends up like the rest. My body corrodes and my mind i detest.
So I contemplate, why I am here?.........
As a young man I thought I knew what it was to be alive.
As a young man I thought I knew what death was, but as the days seem perpetual my mind starts to dwindle.
All I knew, was now forgotten.
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Looking inside a peice of my mind
Just to realize that I am nothing
Looking inside a peice of my mind
Just to realize that we are nothing
I wont look so far
I see what the world has to give and i dont want any part of it
so i will
kill you all
Disrupted Reasons
For Corupted Kingdoms
Our lives are lies
This illusion of power
Abolish systems
CONFORM LIKE CHRISTIANS
Now praise your god
I am Blasphemy
Kill Your Friends
KIll Your Family
Kill each other
These are God's words that i speak
So Listen well
Listen closely
"Destroy The Old, To Create The New!"
You are a Self-Discoverer
You're not religious, but you've created your own kind of spirituality.
Introspective and thoughtful, you tend to look inward for the divine.
You are distrusting of all forms of organized religion.
You especially dislike religious gurus and leaders, who you feel are charlatans. What's Your Religious Philosophy?