The wild music maker
Hi, I'm Rachael. I am a walking contradiction. I am not two-faced, but sometimes I say one thing and mean another. Having stated that, here is a laundry list of things about myself that I think are mildly important. I read FBI serial killer profiles before I go to bed (if I'm not reading Harry Potter). My worst fear is that people will forget me. I have ambitions to be a celebrity someday for something worthy of being famous for. I believe that I can change the world. I am undeniably neurotic and obsessive-compulsive. I dislike Paris Hilton more than most leaders of mass genocide. (Well, kind of..) I am loyal to the death. I live with passion. I HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE my natural hair color. I wish that we all still lived in Eden and wouldn't have to wear clothes. Everything I own is black. I am fascinated by hippie culture, but doubt that I could ever go that long without showering (plus, the whole drug thing kind of puts me at bay). I try to be vegan, but can't seem to give up chocolate or cheese. I have several irrational fears, including but not limited to: shuffle hugs, snakes, spiders, needles (the kind that inject stuff, not the kind that pierce your face), monkey noises...again, intensely neurotic. I have had several past lives. I am OBSESSED with France. I am comfortable in my body, but never feel that it is good enough--if that makes sense. I love to argue, especially about art, politics, and religion, and if you disagree with me, don't bring these topics up when I'm intoxicated because I won't listen to a thing you say and I'll just want to hurt you. I sing and dance in front of my mirror. I hate Republicans. I hate THE GAP with every fiber of my being ("Everyone in khaki", NOOOOO, be a fucking individual!!! That's what makes the world beautiful and good!!!) I procrastinate everything that has a due date. I love to sit on my couch and watch Disney movies. I like to party, but feel that I have outgrown that stage of my life. I yearn to be accepted by my peers, but dislike most of the people that I try to impress. My friends are my family. I absolutely refuse to back down from something I believe strongly in. I am extraordinarily opinionated, and have absolutely no problem letting you know exactly how I feel. I want my parents to be proud of me. I never had any desire to go to college, but I'm glad that I'm in school. I'm not ready for the real world yet. I love to learn, but hate busy work (75 photo journals? Right, Greg, dream on.) I apparently have a problem with hitting people when intoxicated. I thrive off of stress in my life. I always thought I was smarter than people gave me credit for. I have a hard time articulating what I mean when I'm furious. I lead with my instincts, and my heart. I am not afraid of failing, but tend to let that dictate my actions more than I realize. I am still discovering myself. I work best when under pressure. I am slowly developing a liking for beer *GASP* (the world may be ending). I really suck at keeping in touch with people; seriously, I don't know why it is so hard. I really dislike football. I rarely cry, but beautiful art (performance and still) and genuine honesty get me everytime. I sleep like a baby when it rains. I like to cuddle, but not when I'm sleeping. I wish I could believe in a higher power, but I just can't. I have been known to blow off class to play video games; I love arcade games. I can look back on my life so far and count the number of regrets I have now on one hand.