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nerual esor kecaps

i have a story...

About Me

i'm on my own. i'm dealing with my own issues and loving it. i'm starting to understand what it's like to be a grown up. to be an adult. to take responsibility for everything that i do. i have two jobs and not a day off. i learning to deal with distance a little bit better. i'm in love and i'm loved back. hugs are my favorite thing ever. i have a bad back but at least i can still function. i miss my dog.

My Interests

doing hair, sleeping, reading, listening to sweet tunes, traveling to boston and back, the ocean, shoes, earrings, hair color, comfy beds.

I'd like to meet:

So this is odd, the painful realization that has all gone wrong. And nobody cares at all, and nobody cares at all.So you buried all your lover's clothes and burned the letters lover wrote, but it doesn't make it any better. Does it make it any better? And the plaster dented from your fist in the hall where you had your first kiss reminds you that the memories will fade.So this is strange, our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance where nobody leads at all, where nobody leads at all.And the picture frames are facing down and the ringing from this empty sound is deafening and keeping you from sleep. And breathing is a foreign task and thinking's just too much to ask and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.This is incredible. Starving, insatiable, yes, this is love for the first time. Well you'd like to think that you were invincible. Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time? Well this is the last time.

Music:

dave matthews band, my chemical romance, from autum to ashes, further seems forever, dashboard confessional,death cab for cutie,mason jennings, taking back sunday, jason mraz, senses fail, the get up kids, bjork, thrice, 311, thursday, brand new, the used, arcade fire, coheed and cambria, me without you, pedro the lion, matchbook romance, A.F.I., marc broussard, howie day, the shins, my cousin's voice, albedrio, lost 80, ruskabank, o'phil, the urge, men without hats, too late the hero, yoyo ma, johnny cash, thursday, the postal service, tv on the radio, the intercourse, enginedown, sky come falling, mars volta, bobby darin, consider godzilla, davan, eric clapton, Elton John(the man)

Movies:

braveheart, saving private ryan, what about bob, princess bride, the birdcage, ferris bueller's day off, igby goes down, the good girl, drop dead gorgeous, the breakfast club, better off dead, say anything, band of brothers(not really a movie but ill count it), tora tora, midway, cold mountain(you should read the book), goonies, stand by me, the monster squad, garden state, mr. holland's opus, monty python and the holy grail, ice age(or ishe agshe as my couschins and i call it)dumb and dumber, billy madison, office space, saved, wallace and grommit,

Television:

dirty jobs

Books:

dan brown, cold mountain, how could you not love harry potter, east of eden, she's come undone, the slaughterhouse five, night, death be not proud, of mice and men, mere christianity, the case for faith, catcher and the rye, atonement, the reader, the count of monte cristo, all quiet on the western front, lord of the flies, american gods, the amazing adventures of kavalier and clay, pillars of the earth, james and the giant peach, atonement, pride and predjudice

Heroes:

my mom and pops

My Blog

you’d think i’d get used to it by now

the year 2006 i went to six funerals, my grandma's being the last. the next year i went to three. every year i think it will be different. i always think i can get away from it. that for one year ...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Wed, 14 May 2008 11:45:00 PST

some day soon

so i bought a ticket to boston late last thursday night.  flew up super early saturday morning, got my life figured out and flew home even earlier monday morning.  not even 48 hours with my ...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Thu, 12 Jul 2007 09:05:00 PST

you say take this this medicine is just what you deserve

swallow choke and die.   i'm tired all the time.  i'm working every night.  it's not that i'm out late or that my job is hard or that i have long hours...it's just every night...every n...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Thu, 24 May 2007 06:23:00 PST

man your battle station.

i miss the sound of her voice. i miss the smell of her house. i miss her calling herself mother. i miss the sound her thumb made as it went up and down on her stomach i miss her dinners. i miss her ya...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 08:49:00 PST

My Children will be made of 100% post-consumer recycled material and get soggy when it rains

Did you know the Greeks have 4 different words for Love? That's not fair! Ithink I deserve to have a way to say I really love ice cream and I reallylove my Nanny (grandma) without bringing my Nanny in...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 08:05:00 PST

it's like negative 8 in the morning

so i moved home a few days ago.  colorado just won't let me cut hair.  it's a long story.  main part of it though is that i don't have enough hours to cut hair and do skin and nails and...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Sun, 18 Feb 2007 10:19:00 PST

you live, you learn

so i feel as though i have to have the next five years of my life planned out.  ok so i do...but i feel that the decisions i make in the next week are going to effect what i do for the next five ...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 07:08:00 PST

believe not God is in your heart child, but rather you're in the heart of God

every time an older lady comes into work looking for something for her grandkids i get a little sad.  the first couple of times that it happened after i got home from kansas were near impossible....
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 05:36:00 PST

while you are away my heart comes undone, slowly unravels.

your world fell out from under you once.  when you needed everyone they were no where to be found.  people hid under rocks as you walked by calling their names.  you tried and tried but...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Tue, 28 Nov 2006 02:19:00 PST

i love the name veronica

when i was in high school my friends decided they wanted new names.  we were at my house and my dad decided to help.  stephanie wanted to be called veronica after hearing that was my grandmo...
Posted by nerual esor kecaps on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 01:03:00 PST