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.. Excellence is never an accident. It is the result of high intention, sincere effort and skillful execution. It represents the wise choice of many alternatives."
.. THE BASIC AND STR8 TO THE POINT
I suppose my friends may call me silly, full of joy, a handful, crazy or nuts, sexy, a workaholic, a firecracker and/or a great friend. Meanwhile of all the things I may or may not be. I could definately say that Im loyal in all forms. I come in all shapes and sizes. I am a woman,I could be man. I am for sure a lesbian TO YOU but maybe thats str8 for me. I am usally outspoken with a hell of a kick. I am strange and dorky. Shy yet risky. Nasty and flirty. I am me. I can only be me. I love tits and HUGE ones, but I could settle for those small potatoes too. I enjoy life, my life is good. My life is private. I appreciate privacy like no other. You must be special if you get a entry pass.
GENERAL
My name is really simple. If you wanna know just ask. I was born many years ago in September in Los Angeles California. That makes my birthstone a Sapphire. Althought my birthstone is blue my favorite color rocks back and forth between blue in green. I currently live in a newly constructed desert city just about 30 miles outside Phoenix Arizona. My natural hair color in brown just like my sexy brown eyes. Cheese!
FEARS & WEAKENESS
My fears are spiders. I don't care how large or small. If you wanna see me run come with a spider and you'll see a ghost. My weakness is failure. Im so keen on success that failure can trigger a episode of lost.
OVERUSED WORDS
My overused phrase would be something such as "Dork" or "Idiot" although I don't mean anything derogatory by it. Although just by saying the words people who do not know me might take it as just that. However before now, the most common word I previously used was "You're a Crackhead". Its all fun and games. Nothing serious, So don't take it there!
EMPLOYMENT
Through the years I've gone thru many jobs left and right in attempt to self discovery. I've always been a hardworker, a achiever, a fast learner, a advocate for fast cash. However as far a work goes today... I have a job, Im very stable. I love my job only because I am the boss. No, just kidding. I actually do enjoy my job very much. Some may say Im Bossy lol .
SWEARING
Some may ask do you swear.. well lets see usually all the Fucking time and guess what you still here reading this shit! lol just kidding.
No but really I am really a laid back earthy person who enjoys friends, comfort, and just having a good time.
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RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME

My Grandmother name is Mary and I have it tattoed on my arm. My middle name is Renee. I used to drink so much when I was under 21. Now that I am older just the smell of hard liquor makes me sick to my stomach. I love Pink Panties ( the drink ) I had my own apartment when I was 15 years old I bought my own first car at 15 1/2 years old I don't know how to dance but I love to watch others dance for me. I would like to have a kid before I turn 33 years old. I would like to be cremated when I die. I hated broccoli as a child. I used to hide it in a napkin behind the stove. I love broccoli now I would like to travel to at least one Country or exotic land once a year. I am terrified of spiders. I like Sushi I love to travel. I've been to many places and hope to go to many more. I think Richard Gere is attractive. I get depressed during Christmas every freaking year ever since my Grandma died. I find the internet madly addictive. Im on the PC several hours out the day usually everyday and when I am not on the PC I am on my telephone talking, texting or checking my email. I probably need internet rehab by now. lol My life is practically perfect now. But it has not always been that way. I can get along with most people. However when you get on my bad side it usually stay that way. I am extremely organized; clutter drives me crazy. I love my house; it took a whole year for it to be built. During the summer months I run my air conditioner 24 hours 7 days a week When I was a kid, I used to make fun of other kids. I wish I could apologize to those people now. I love dogs. I have two. I love Starbuck Caramel Frappucino with extra caramel I sleep naked I had sex on top of a mountain. I've doubted many things about myself, but I have never doubted my sanity. Im attracted to Professional women, and women in uniforms. I like dangerous sports I like to make out and get frisky in places like elevators. I go pee every 5-10 minutes before boarding a airplane. I don't know why because I never feel nervous at all. When I was kid I got in trouble for playing Hide Go Get It. I witness a murder when I was 12 years old. I wear prescription glasses Without them I am blind as a bat When I was 13 years old I got caught ditching school at the arcade by LAPD and my Dad had to leave work to pick me up. I once had an affair with a married woman. I also did it to her daughter I'm sorry if you reading this When I was 7 years old I fell through the floor of a out house in Sherevport LA and had poop up to my knees. Im right handed I own over 300 dvd movies I was in love with my History teacher when I was 12 years old My grandmother used to throw potatoes at me when I was bad... She could not catch me.. lol I can eat ice cream each and everyday all day long.

I AM A LEADER, NOT A FOLLOWER!
Do not follow where the path may lead.
Go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.
A real leader has no need to lead he is content to point the way.

MY INTERESTS
Daily interest are overcoming everyday obstacles Life brings on. Other interest may include but not limited to: Shopping, Computers, Business Week , Shows, Jet Skis, Pets, Dining Out, Women, Traveling, Uno, Pink Panties, Family &Friends, and whatever else is hot for the moment.
MY MUSIC
Varies day to day. Just to name a few you might hear in my ride: Avant, R Kelly, Mario, Omarion, Lil Kim, Rihanna, Marcus Houston, T Pain, Ne Yo, Keyshia Cole, or 50 Cent. I mainly enjoy R&B, Some Rap, Rock, and Pop.
MOVIES
I love to watch movies. In fact I go to the movies every Friday with my movie cup and I wear my harkin tee so I can get my Free popcorn. lol. It's common that you'll find me watching Foreign Films, Gay and Lesbian Flicks, Action, Drama and my all time favorite is Horror and Suspense. A few of my favorites are Ocean 11, I am Sam, Never Been Kissed, Flightplan, Derailed, The Notebook, Da Vinci Code, Click, Amityville Horror, My Own Private Idaho, Mind Hunters, Lackawanna Blues, A Lot Like Love, Million Dollar Baby, and Liberty Stands Still. I could keep going on... but the list is neverending.
TV SHOWS
I suppose you could call me a reality TV junkie. lol. A few of my favorites are Wife Swap, America Next Top Model, Paradise Hotel, Flavor of Love, CSI, Prison Break, L Word, Nip Tuck, The Animal Chanel and I recently began watching Treasure Hunt.

INVEST WISELY
Price is what you pay, value is what you get!

LOVE & LUST
Love is something more than an explanation can give, but lust is quite simple. Lust is physical desire for someone or something,but it doesn't have anything to do with human emotions. It's more an instinct, or function of the body, than anything else. Love on the other hand, is a gift. One who loves truly lives. Without love you would perish. However, you don't always need to follow through on all of your bodily functions to survive. For instance,one could starve for a few days before becoming really fatigued. But it has been proven that babies who don't feel any love from their parents or someone close to them, will die, even if they are completely physically healthy...and something I heard on the movie "equilibrium," that made me think, was that there's no point going through all the motions of life without feelings and love... in the paraphrased words of the movie, each breath and heartbeat merely becomes the ticking of a clock without love.

THE TRUTH
As you grow older, experience more things, you begin to realize the real importance in life, the truth behind the drama and issues, and what is really there, in reality. You realize that at one point in life, you will be disappointed by someone who you never expected would ever disappoint you. You start to see that finding someone to be with doesn't really matter because true love is not found, but come unexpectedly. You will come to the understanding that true love waits to be seeked. You shouldn't search for love. Love will come at the right moment. Love is the unconditional admiration that you have for someone.
It is the emotion that will lead you to do uncontrollable and ridiculous things. At one point in life, you stop believing that your life is a fairty tale. You have to fall and make mistakes in order to learn a lesson. You'll never really know until you experience things. One day you'll see that not everyone is perfect. Even your bestfriend will let you down somehow. Everyone makes mistakes, that's part of the process of growing up. You grow up making mistakes, learning from them, and then you try to keep others from making the same mistake you made.
Changing is part of growing up. Yes, sometimes growing up means growing apart from the ones you love, but it's not always intentional. Sometimes, people grow apart because too many changes have occurred for them to realize that they're fading away from the ones they are close to. Sometimes people grow apart because new things come and replace old things. It's part of life. You can't have an expectation that includes someones always being there. Never expect things from anyone, because in the end, you will get hurt. You're gonna be led down somehow by the people whom you expect too much from. Consequently, you should not expect too much from others in the first place. When people make mistakes, it helps them become the person they are today. People who make mistakes either learn from it, or make the same mistake continuously until they DO learn from it. Making mistakes helps you evaluate your way of life, what you think is right. The things that YOU think is right helps you become the person you are. As you correct your ways, you alter your personality and lifestyle. Mistakes are mistakes, everyone makes them and eventually learns from them.
Drama starts. Shit happens. You can't make everyone like you. No matter what you do, there's someone who's not gonna like you. Even if they don't know you, even if they have no reason to hate, it's still going to happen because people have their own individual reasons. Just accept that drama happens, and it's ok,it's part of everyday social interactions. Sometimes you have to learn that even though you want to save the ones you love from getting hurt, you have to let them learn on their own. You have to let them learn the lesson the way that they actually do LEARN. Yes, it's easier for people to listen to others rather than make their own decisions to fall and hurt themselves, but how are you going to ever learn to be independent? People won't always be there to hold your hand and tell you everything is gonna be okay,there will come a time when you feel like you have no one. Learn to rely on no one than you rely on yourself more. Learn to before you're left by yourself, alone, without anyone to turn to.
You know that someone is your true friend when they never judge you by who you are, but accept you for it. When they accept the stupid actions you make or ACCEPT that you're human and you make mistakes. You flake out on them when you're parents say no last minute. They do get mad, but they don't make a whole issue about. They understand that you can't go to every event, that you cant always go out every single time, that you need your own space sometimes. They don't judge you by those actions, they accept it. True friends are there for you even when you're in a huge fight with them and you need someone to cry to about your fight with your boyfriend/girlfriend/parents. They're there to listen to you regardless of the situation or how distant things are with youtwo. When someone loves you, but wants you to change, then they don't love YOU, the genuine you. The love that someone has will be unconditional. They love you because they accept YOU. They accept the mistakes you made in the past. Asking you to change is like asking you to be someone else, so that they could love you. You can change, but don't do it to benefit anyone BUT yourself. Be you, be genuine. Love yourself and someone will love you. Yea it's clich'e­, but it's true because how can you expect to be loved, genuinely, if you don't even love yourself, to the point where you would change to a different person in order to meet someone else's standards. If that's the way it is, then you don't love yourself and that person will never learn to love you.
I believe life challenges you. It challenges you by hurting you. When you get hurt, you are challenged by life because it makes you question yourself, "Do I go on and try to fix the problem that hurt me? Or do I stop dealing with it and go on with life, without the person who put me through pain? When life does challenge you, it is your decision on what road you take. Life challenges you over and over again until you accept its challenge and go for fixing the issues you have that caused the pain you feel. You can't always run away from what has been right in front of you over and over again. You have to face it, one day. Stop putting it down time after time,face it now.

FRIENDSHIP
If you judge people, you have no time to love them. May you live as long as you wish and love as long as you live. Friendship consists of only one soul; inhabiting two bodies. Don't forget to love yourself. Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes...just be an illusion.
I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. A true friendship is like sound health, the value of it is seldom known until lost.
A friend is one who knows you and loves you just the same.

INTELLIGENCE
To me, being an intellectual doesn't mean knowing about intellectual issues; it means taking pleasure in them. Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is knowing which ones to keep. You never know what is enough unless you know what is more than enough. Never utter these words: 'I do not know this, therefore it is false.' One must study to know; know to understand; understand to judge. Knowledge itself is power. There are two things which cannot be attacked in front: ignorance and narrow-mindedness. They can only be shaken by the simple development of the contrary qualities. They will not bear discussion. Half of the world's misery comes from ignorance. The other half comes from intelligence. Every mind was made for growth, for knowledge, and its nature is sinned against when it is doomed to ignorance. I am not ashamed to confess that I am ignorant of what I do not know. Intelligence:
the ability to comprehend; to understand and profit from experience

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Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion |||||||||||||| 56%
Stability |||||||||||||||| 63%
Orderliness |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Accommodation |||||||||||| 50%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 43%
Intellectual |||||||||| 36%
Mystical |||||| 30%
Artistic |||||| 30%
Religious || 10%
Hedonism |||||| 23%
Materialism |||||||||||||||| 70%
Narcissism |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Work ethic |||||||||||| 50%
Self absorbed |||||||||||||||| 63%
Conflict seeking || 10%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 50%
Romantic |||||||||| 36%
Avoidant |||||| 30%
Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63%
Wealth |||||| 23%
Dependency |||||||||||| 43%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 70%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Individuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Peter pan complex |||||| 23%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Physical Fitness || 10%
Histrionic |||||||||||||| 56%
Paranoia |||||||||||||||| 70%
Vanity |||||||||||| 43%
Hypersensitivity |||||| 30%
Female cliche |||||| 30%

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STABILITY RESULTS
Were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Orderliness results were high which suggests you are overly organized, reliable, neat, and hard working at the expense too often of flexibility, efficiency,spontaneity, and fun. Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
TRAIT SNAPSHOT
Suggest that you are clean, organized, regular, self reliant,tough, positive, high self control, very good at saving money,dislikes chaos, resolute, realist, trusting, hard working,dislikes unpredictability, prefers a technical specialized career, not worrying, respects authority, enjoys leadership, finisher, normal, optimistic, controlling, prudent, modest, adventurous, does not like to be alone, intellectual, likes the unknown, very practical, high self esteem, assertive,perfectionist, busy, altruistic

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I believe the choice to be excellent begins with aligning your thoughts and words with the inten tion to require more from yourself.
Challenges are gifts that force us to search for a new center of gravity. Don't fight them. Just find a different way to stand.
Women are like fine wine. They all start out fresh, fruity and intoxicating to the mind and then turn full-bodied with age until they go all sour and vinegary and give you a headacheNASTY NASTY
Sucky Sucky up and down Licky Licky all around kissy Kissy on my lips, Rubby Rubby on my hips, Touchy Touchy on my breast, On my booty plzz caress, Tell me nasty things in my ear, And i'll tell u the rest from there, Roses are red, Violets are corny, When I think of you Ohh baby I get horny, Eat me, Beat me, Bite me, Blow me, Suck me, Fuck me, Very slowly, if you kiss me, dont be sassy, Use your tongue and make it nasty!THE KEYS TO MY HEART
Im attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, I feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and Im told that Im loved. I like my lover to think Im loyal and faithful... and that I'll never change.I would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. My ideal relationship is lasting. I want a relationship that looks to the future... one I can grow with.My risk of cheating is high. Sometimes I can't resist desire and lust. Although I think of marriage as something precious. I'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, I think of love as something I thirst for. I'll do anything for love, but I won't fall for it easily.
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