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CORMAC RU

Of such things are hearts made strong enough to last.

About Me

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Buried at PhotoCasket.com"Tonight, I’m certainly going to tell you a story, but ‘tis a story with a difference because, unlike virtually every other tale I tell-in this case, I was there. And yet I know that although I was there, and I saw people who were real, they have since become somewhat imagined-because I now view them through my memory. That’s something every human being does-but storytellers live by it.For many years I have had two powerful loves in my life; I have had them for as long as have been able to think clearly about my feelings; I have carried them in my heart, and they have defined my existence. When they were joined by a third love, my life felt completed, a circle closed. My feelings for these three-I shall call them “entities”-have been my salvation, although it has taken me until now to understand that fact. This realization broke upon me gradually; I had no epiphany, no blinding light, no voice booming down from on high. Slowly I began to grasp what they have meant to me.My sadness is that I do not have a fit receptacle for what I have learned. I know that one exists, but the fates and fortunes have not yet removed the obstacles between him and me, have not given me an easy access to the dispensing of such wisdom as I have where I most wish to place it.But we all do that; we merge our myths with our facts according to our feelings, we tell ourselves our own story. And no matter what we are told, we choose what we believe. All “truths” are only our truths, because we bring to the “facts” our feelings, our experiences, our wishes. Thus, storytelling-from wherever it comes- forms a layer in the foundation of the world; and glinting in it we see the trace elements of every tribe on earth."

My Interests



MY DAUGHTER: and selections from the journals for her...teasers from 'A Modern Adolescence' (by me) Category: Writing and Poetry'Six years ago I began the first bathroom book. It was an idea, newborn and fresh. A beginning that had come from a desire and hope that I would, one day, be able to recover anything we had lost in the battle with your mother. A hope that in case life proved to be too much, in case I destroyed myself while waiting for the future; there would remain some record and proof of my motives, my hopes, my intentions to be a father that you would love and trust.' *********'He was sharp, and raised his tone accordingly, trying to display an assumed power over this woman he had met when he had been married, altering his life, her life, his own wife and daughter's lives - creating my life, possibilities and future. "It's there all in there woman! God dammit, I'm telling a story here!" I remember the sentence, because I can clearly remember feeling relieved that he hadn't said he was telling a story to his son.' *********'I know that I never got to hold you while you fell asleep in my arms, hear all the first words, teach you to walk; and that is essentially my fault and I feel punished every day by those thoughts. But I choose not to be depressed and to use those feelings to motivate myself. I wear my mistakes as a shield and continue to try and do right by you. My desire, however, is greater than my means. I do not have the resources to have custody and raise you, I don't have any experience relating to a child, and I am increasingly frustrated by this opposition of motive and results…' *********I believe there is more to life than this; the things I did today, the conversation I had, the way we treat one another…I want to create this laterally, to layer it so you can discover and develop your own parable of what it means to be alive, to be here, to meet the people you meet and how you choose to love and hate. This is a holy gift, and I cannot force it on you, cannot really do anything but express what I have gained from music and art, laughter and writing and the people I had surrounded myself with…'

I'd like to meet:

"I should like friendship with you...and trust. I should like that respect for each other that grows in the breast without the demands for the huddlings of sex."AND THESE FOUR, SOMEDAY -.. width="425" height="350" ....

My Blog

Cicada's Song.

CICADA'S SONGDo not break yourself on this shore.Do not test yourself here - I have my feetfirmly planted inthe current.My hands alwaysfingering the keys.I have journeyed through the first flamesand e...
Posted by CORMAC RU on Fri, 01 Jun 2007 10:46:00 PST

learning 2 tattoo

A PICTURE BLOG OF MY EXPERIENCE FINALLY LEARNING TO TATOO...FIRST, I STARTED ON THE FAKE SKIN SUPPLY COMPANIES SELL NOWBUT WHY DIDN'T THEY HAVE THIS WHEN I WAS A KID? - IT'S VERY TOUGH AND THICK, DOES...
Posted by CORMAC RU on Sat, 31 Mar 2007 08:38:00 PST

funniest ever!

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Posted by CORMAC RU on Wed, 09 May 2007 03:34:00 PST

zodiac art

beautiful zodiac!...
Posted by CORMAC RU on Fri, 27 Apr 2007 10:42:00 PST

well - this should get me in trouble...

strong essay by Naomi Wolf in the GuardianBecause Americans like me were born in freedom, we have a hard time even considering that it is possible for us to become as unfree - domestically - as many o...
Posted by CORMAC RU on Wed, 25 Apr 2007 08:19:00 PST

what dead poet am I?

                                    Which Dead Poet Are You? ...
Posted by CORMAC RU on Mon, 23 Apr 2007 05:48:00 PST

testing time

Canyon train After watching cards disappear My best research done on paper And film.   Colonial campfires Lace and applause Painting my own sets In faded color Muted by age With passion...
Posted by CORMAC RU on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 04:54:00 PST

teasers from 'A Modern Adolescence' (by me)

'Six years ago I began the first bathroom book.  It was an idea, newborn and fresh.   A beginning that had come from a desire and hope that I would, one day, be able to recover a...
Posted by CORMAC RU on Thu, 12 Apr 2007 06:32:00 PST

not so sure...

repeated cave in'son the couchthis morningsearching for the dreamI wanted to lose you insweating like summer saxaphones...acidic nightsexplorations of yeastcall it indulgent call it shockI love you as...
Posted by CORMAC RU on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 07:15:00 PST

pencil, watermelons and egg art...

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------From: dusk like daggerDate: 01 Mar 2007, 11:02 AMJust pencils!! And we just used them to write with! then what a laser can do to an egg......
Posted by CORMAC RU on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 02:10:00 PST