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Esoteric Chuck

The absence of flaw in beauty is itself a flaw.

About Me

Most of the time i find favor in my being, though on occasion i consider myself defective. I really enjoy knowing people, but am frightened of the prospect of them knowing me, which probably negates all knowledge of anything. If there is something that i do not appreciate I dissassociate myself with it, and on more than one occasion it has been a human.If you have not seen me on a tuesday afternoon, you could not begin to know who I am.

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My Interests

trivial knowledge. pythagoras. reiki. sex. music. dancing. helsinki. environment. people. life. clothes. vegetables. fruit. FOOD. mom. montessori. animals. travel. Holland. BEER. future. past. love. trains. sunset. moon. grass. rain. camping. film. photography. fire. smiles. poi. japan. women. men. children. happiness. reading. writing. lyrics. poems. books. fashion. hair. spirituality. candles. fighting. playing. swimming. mountains. cities. buildings. hustle and bustle of city life. ocean. sarcasm. coffee. losers. winners. energy. sexuality. feelings. people. robert smith morning hair. garlic (never enough garlic). eyes that smile. cuddling. hugs. beautiful women. beautiful men. red wine. rainbow nerds. finding the misfit box of nerds with whites in it. yoohoo. elevators. my elevator. fighting all with kindness..... loving like there was no yesterday, and there won't be a tomorrow. TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!..

I'd like to meet:

Please allow me the time to accept your requests and read your messages, I am certainly interested and will respond to every message, but the amount is a venture. And the time is spent, but it is time............ Human beings that deviate from the remedial existance that most find some strange need to live. Those that understand that if you do not give life a chance it will cease giving you one.the non-conventional types. Strays, misfits, those who have their own outlook on this world we share. If you have no problem talking to your mom about how many orgasms you have on any given sexual encounter, if you have ever made your own clothes, decided that you should buzz your head and did it, ever been told you are too intense, wanted to sleep in a concrete room on a stripped mattress, felt that rain comes far too little, that chickens are cool, swam in the ocean naked, ran from the police, broke something because it needed to be broken, like to break hearts, wanted to kick a little kid, afraid of mongloids, danced in the moonlight, painted a picture of a beheaded woman, felt like crying because of the beauty in someones eyes, realize pain is just a feeling, told someone it is not you it is them, like the smell of books, taken a shower with your clothes on, kissed under an apricot tree, been in love with love, realized that not enough people enjoy sex for sex, got lost in Amsterdam just to come across a Texaco and laugh for hours, missed someone so far away it aches, missed someone so close it aches, gotten your shoelace stuck in an escalator and cursed in french because after all it is france, and they respect those who can speak their language, hitchhiked across america, laughed innapropriately, wanted to kiss a stranger and did, wanted to hug someone because they looked like they needed it, donated your time money or knowledge to someone who needed it, like good food, can speak another language, or care to learn, know that life is now. or if you have ever been told you are abnormal, deviant, different, freakish, irregular, nonstandard, peculiar, anomalous, atypical, odd, psycho, strange, untypical, weird, unconventional, unrepresenative, aberrant, eccentric, spook, socialy inept, demented, destracted, schizzed, manic, sociopath, unstable, heterclite, preternatural, anomalistic, off base, offbeat, uncommon, funny, extraordinary, divergent, anomalistic, unexpected, mutant, gross, freakish, bizarre, deviating, inconsistant, kinky, off-key, perverted, wayword, distinct, especial, novel, rare, special,antithetical, inappropriate, inordinate,unnatural, unorthodox, factious, unsuitable, improper,avant-garde, newfangled. OR YOU ARE JUST YOU. LIVE TODAY AND LOVE IT! though...

Music:

Iggy Pop, Billie Holiday, Black Halos, Whitesnake, Placebo, Wilco, The Cramps, Navar, onelinedrawing, Bow wow wow, The Postal Service, Sex Pistols, Neutral Milk Hotel, The Cure, Radiohead, Clinic, Queen, Rammstein, Bjork, Outkast, Depeche Mode, Michael Jackson, Prince, Manowar, Warlocks, Mick Jagger, Black Rebel Motorcycle Club, Spinal Tap, New York Dolls, duran duran, 34 below, Paul Simon, Cranberries, The Darkness, The Corrs, Bright Eyes, Benni Benassi, Bhangra, Ben Harper, Coldplay, REM, Dandy Warhols, Counting Crows, Wheatus, Coltrane, Varuca Salt, THe Sea and Cake, Jethro Tull, INXS, Lisa Loeb, Kishore Kumar Mohd Rafi, Electric six, Denali, Deftones, jackson 5, Dire Straits, Death Cab for Cutie, Minibosses, The Format, The Lovin Spoonful, Smashing Pumpkins, Motley Crue, Saves the Day, Stepa, Mercury Rev, Poster Children, IMA robot, Presidents of the United States of America, Tool, Psychadelic Furs,The Smiths, emo, electro, indie, hard, soft, classical what is not to like about all of it.

Movies:

Pi, cool hand luke, the labyrinth, the 4th floor, Kalifornia, trainspotting, me without you, amelie, romance (french version only), meet the feebles, gummo, love actually, sliding doors, city of lost children, about a boy, so many more................

Television:

6 feet under, the L word, Cheers, The Wonder Years, eh...

Books:

Dangerous Liaisons, Portrait of an Artist, As I lay dying, Men without Women, Sons and Lovers, Lolita, The Way of all Flesh, 1984, The Naked and the Dead. Not enough people read, it irritates me.

Heroes:

Chad, he knows why. Angel for having the strength to venture beyond the wall of ocean she knows. Jacob, for being the beauty he was not shown. Dr. Brian Greene, because I am jealous of his theories. Faith because it always comes back to me. Bailey because he is love.Though you should never model yourself after another, simply find truth in your own being.

My Blog

elliot smith says best

I had tender feelings that you made hardBut it's your heart, not mine, that's scarredSo when I go home I'll be happy to goYou're just somebody that I used to knowYou don't need my help anymoreIt's all...
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Wed, 23 May 2007 01:46:00 PST

Growing up.

30 only brought a few more creases hidden by many more pounds.At least you still binge drink like a teen. The void you try and fill has been misplaced between your legs.Your savings consists of a roll...
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Sat, 22 Jul 2006 08:12:00 PST

vituperation

What goes through one's mind when discussing what you know nothing of? It bemuses me to think that the interest lies in what I do or do not, how or why?To be questioned about something that the truth ...
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Tue, 11 Apr 2006 03:46:00 PST

about as pure as the fruit content of clear Koolaid

What I think of where this is going...is simply that I am no longer on that train, plane or automobile and I am certainly not waisting my strength and energy to follow on foot. Not even the length of ...
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Wed, 22 Mar 2006 05:43:00 PST

bras and bars.

Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Thu, 02 Mar 2006 09:23:00 PST

too...

Too close... I was told to talk to my inner child about my fear of love, that I could not judge her for her statements and I needed to hug and nurture her. WGAKRHKJHT? First, yes I know I hav...
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Sun, 26 Feb 2006 12:18:00 PST

to deflect an attack meet force with emptiness

Scars and stains are sometimes the only reminder of the things and people that we have allowed to touch us. Are they worth the reminder? Not always, certainly not never. " I have scars on my h...
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Wed, 22 Feb 2006 08:45:00 PST

so it is.

With dimunitive trust and short-lived belief  the weights of those that equivocate and mislead are no longer holding me here. It might not be the place or all those that inhabit it perhaps only t...
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Mon, 13 Feb 2006 02:29:00 PST

no time, many worries, and leaving

So many worries and inquiries. I will be settled soon, enough to write again, which i need because it is my stress reliever and lately stress is causing me to forget things. I need to remember said th...
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Thu, 22 Dec 2005 05:12:00 PST

right now.

Going to bed at 11:30 makes me sad. What is wrong with me...oh yeah i am.
Posted by Esoteric Chuck on Sat, 19 Nov 2005 12:58:00 PST