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Patricia

no, this isn't chocolate boxes and roses. no, it's dirtier than that.

About Me


i'm a disaffected but brilliant dominant woman interested in darkness in its various forms. i have been a lifestyle domme for many years and it spills out in too many ways in my waking life, but i am certainly multi-dimensional. i take less and less shit from the world the older i get...but i'm actually pretty funny in spite of that. however, i am a very unique, complicated woman....and if you really displease me, i can withdraw from you so fast you will feel as if you've had your limbs amputated and your mind dropped in fire. you want my attention? make me think. engage me on my level. show me the respect i deserve.
i tend to be rather geeky, and enjoy being around people who are wired similarly. i can also be very sarcastic, and i like those that can keep up with me. you will need a thick skin to be around me...i am blunt and direct about what i am and what i like. i am a thick (as in bbw) and curvy woman, and i like boys (and girls) that prefer big girls.
the first things people usually notice about me: physically....well, i do have one of those curvy latina asses. :P i have thick and dramatic waist length black hair, which i have a tendency to throw around...(i must confess a weakness for having someone else brush my hair...) eyes that kill with one glance.
mentally...i am a sharp smart ass who will leave your head spinning. i will haunt you.

My Interests



i am a bbw model for this lovely site on myspace:

this woman does some fab work with photo editing for bbws, go ahead and add her!

i'm really good at scheming. devising. getting my way. making you nervous.

foods i cannot live without: most chinese food, especially kung pao chicken and mongolian beef; mexican food, cheese enchiladas, crispy beef tacos, chicken teriyaki, del taco (don't you just love getting a burrito WITH FRIES?), pancakes, thick oatmeal, dark chocolate...the way to this girl's head is through her gut. remember that.

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of particular interest and fascination are those from the united kingdom, anglophile that i am. i will correspond only with those who are intellectual and capable of writing more than one sentence.

my biggest turn on is a smart english boy who can write well....but i will admit that the accent makes me weak in the knees. i have a definite attraction to and preference for young men from the UK. i adore the soft-spoken & polite & obedient boys that england seems to produce in great numbers. i also enjoy the humour and i love to exploit the kinkiness i always seem to find in them.

yes, i do like younger guys. however, i've found that i'm much better off just looking at and not talking to guys that are under the age of 24, as they haven't quite developed in crucial ways that are important to me....namely in terms of emotional maturity, conscience, ability to experience true compassion & empathy, and especially a strong ability to become a man that keeps his word. nothing is more bothersome to me than a little boy who cannot keep a simple promise. yes, boys....those kind of things matter to a real woman like myself.

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Music:


the cure, siouxsie and the banshees, the creatures, tool, a perfect circle, ladytron, U2, echo and the bunnymen, electrafixion, jesus and mary chain, lisa gerrard, dead can dance, burning brides, hooverphonic, duran duran, tori amos, godsmack, metallica, slowdive, ruby (lesley rankine), the gossip, garbage, velvet underground, lou reed, johnny cash, tom waits, cocteau twins, depeche mode, the chameleons uk, st germain, pulp, the smiths, ministry, revolting cocks, curve, lush, nine inch nails, portishead, orgy, skinny puppy, violent femmes, the police, pat benatar, tears for fears, sleater-kinney, dubstar, puncturevine, isis, hanin elias.....

Movies:


i don't much care for the movies that hollywood spits out...and i'm not much of a movie person in general, but i do love the odd independent flick. i tend to be too impatient with them, because i've often figured out what's going to happen long before anyone else has. i do like anything that tim burton has directed (especially edward scissorhands), mostly because i dig his geeky goth aesthetic. a few others: donnie darko, the full monty, anything monty python, heathers, delicatessen, dead poets society, gattaca, october sky, bubble boy, napoleon dynamite, real women have curves, volver, 2 women on the verge of a nervous breakdown, breakfast club......

Television:


come by & join my group devoted to michael bisping, he's an up and coming fighter in the ufc, which i'm hopelessly addicted to watching. he just also happens to be british. hey, i can't help it if i get all hot and bothered watching hot guys beat the living crap out of each other :P
i can't forget mythbusters! i also watch the discovery channel compulsively & have been enjoying survivorman & man vs. wild as of late. as much as i love british men, i think that les stroud (of survivorman) would own bear grylls any day :P
i'm also a huge star trek fan, i love anything trek (except for ds9)...the original series and voyager are my favourites but enterprise has been growing on me as of late, even in spite of that hideously god-awful theme song. :)
this is a site of erotic fiction about the crew of star trek: voyager. when i started reading it, it took the top of my head off and screamed right into my brain.
my star trek hotties:
tom paris never fails to make me think of very bad things, especially when he says "yes, ma'am!"
i could die a happy woman if malcolm reed just *said* anything to me, that gorgeous english accent of his could even melt antarctica.

Books:

random favourite authors: anne rice, howard zinn, clarissa pinkola estes, anais nin, sylvia plath, emily dickinson, carl jung...

Heroes:

my parents, now both deceased. they helped me to become the strong woman that i am.

My Blog

how to interpret a smart aquarian chick.

i've been also delving further into astrology as of late....anything to help me uncover more of my psyche & relearn some of my strengths. i had my natal chart interpreted, the results of which appear...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Mon, 16 Apr 2007 03:37:00 PST

so what if i'm acting out, i need to vent.

i've been going mad as of late collecting images that capture my current mental state, so please indulge me. feel free to right click & save any good ones you may like. :P...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 11:23:00 PST

i will fight you.

"and is it right, butterfly....they like you better framed and dried." ~ tori amos, "butterfly"those words capture so much emotion & evoke such feeling from me, even after all of these years. the im...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Mon, 09 Apr 2007 02:02:00 PST

guys want me.

guys want me.at least that's what myspace keeps telling me, and what seems to happen every time i go outside. i've been wanting to deal with this in some form for a while, and blogging about it certa...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Sun, 08 Apr 2007 05:11:00 PST

sometimes i can be really stupid...

well, i made a dumb decision but it may end up working out for me in the end after all.i decided to trade my dead laptop for a computer that ended up not being what it was supposed to be. at the mome...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Fri, 30 Mar 2007 06:50:00 PST

a little thought i needed to share.


Posted by ms. patrinska on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 01:32:00 PST

my sexual awakening, parts 1 & 2

my sexual awakening is something that i well documented in writing, but i've not shared much of it with anyone. i wrote this in two pieces, as if my mind and body were talking to each other. my head...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 12:02:00 PST

it is never just what i see.

this one is very appropriate for me at the moment. i was trying to deal with being friends with someone whom i cared for deeply, but he was blissfully ignorant of what really made me who i am. he'd ...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Thu, 22 Mar 2007 11:06:00 PST

i need a new mac. now!

as many of you may know, my mac laptop died a very premature death on me at the beginning of this month. i've done all i can for it, short of taking it to a REAL mac geek to get it fixed. i'm actual...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Sun, 25 Feb 2007 11:46:00 PST

volver was fantastic....& i'm still reeling.

i went to see the film volver on tuesday night, it stars penelope cruz in what i have to say is a career defining role. let me provide a brief synopsis of the film, courtesy of the official website:T...
Posted by ms. patrinska on Fri, 23 Feb 2007 12:43:00 PST