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About Me

I try to find pleasure in the little things in life: the contagiousness of laughter, the relaxation of an afternoon nap, the comfort of my blankey (yes, I said my blankey), the perfection of a new tube of lippy, the glorious warmth of the sun, the innocence of children, the joy of friendship, the smell of clean laundry, a heartfelt first kiss, and most of all the excitement of an excellent hair day. Somedays I feel like a walking contradiction. I like a simple life. But, I sometimes do things and own many things that may say otherwise. I have high expectations for others, higher expectations for myself, and the highest of expectations for my life. I truly do believe that honesty is the best policy and that you can only receive what you give. I also believe actions speak louder than words because even the best words can be so cliche. I don't believe that people have soulmates or that one person is meant for another. I will and have loved many. My opinionated attitude often comes accross as aloofness and selfishness. And, my sarcasm often portrays me as a bitch. I often have far too much to say about a situation (kind of like right now). And, the things I have to say are generally not the things you want to hear. It is nearly impossible for me to sugar coat anything. In other words, my mouth usually ends up getting me in trouble. The only thing I've found to be a benefit of this flaw is that it weeds out the people who don't really matter very quickly. I try to love openly and unconditionally when the conditions are right. My experiences have shown me that life will hold more meaning if you give it all you've got. While my brain says otherwise, my heart says to be open. I usually listen to my heart. Sometimes I say things without thinking, but I rarely take thoughtless action. Even though I hate to admit it, I like to have a plan. I am coming to terms with the fact that I am not at all spontaneous and that I hate suprises. I overanalyze everything to the point of exhaustion and I tend to remember way too much. I often times wish that I knew how to listen as hard as I know how to laugh. Oh yeah, and did I mention that I kick serious ass?! Background Artist:
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My Interests

drawing, painting, computer design, photography, any type of lippy, shopping excessively, myself, people who don't suck, sleeping 13 hour nights, laughing until I cry, tattoos (especially hot boys with tattoos), singing loudly in the car, getting lost in my eyes, makeup, hair, accessories (you know, all that girlie shit), spending time with my family, good friends, dancing until I can't dance no more, a glass of the perfect red wine after a long day, sarcasm, laying it on a little thick, CTJs, waking up everyday with a purpose, feeling like I've made a difference, a good movie and a great show, music, vacations, the beach, skulls and roses, sushi, cupcakes (god how I do love a cupcake), being too loud in public places, a good make out session, keepin' it real, intuition and insight, big cities, traveling, long talks and long walks (especially at the same time).

I'd like to meet:

Anyone, especially girls, with a good sense of humor. That seems to be increasingly harder to find these days. Anyone who can make me laugh until I cry. Boys with modern mowhawks and tattoos. Anoyne who truly understands the importance of saying please and thank you. Someone interested in something other than themselves. People who know who they are and what they stand for. Wishy-washy, self-conscious assholes just aren't my thing. Anyone who can hold my interest longer than a day. People with purpose and direction. For a world with little space to offer, there are far too many sucky people here wasting space and taking up air. I want to meet the ones who make it all worth it. People who are interested in opening up to life. People who scratch beyond the surface. People who's eyes are seeing the things that are not there to see. Someone who sees the pointlessness and still keeps their purpose in mind (thanks, Ani). Anyone who understands honoring their commitments in life and anyone who understands that making them, means keeping them. Afterall, you are only as good as your word. Anyone who is interested in cooking me dinner. That is assuming you can actually cook, and cook well. Thing is, I have most recently discovered that many people I think I want to meet end up being lame excuses for human beings. And in turn, the ones I thought I couldn't care less about end up being just who I was looking for. Maybe that means I shouldn't actually be answering this section of the profile.... Hmmm.

Music:

Ani DiFranco, Tori Amos, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Common, Hot Hot Heat, The Bravery, Franz Ferdinand, Me First and the Gimmie Gimmies, Matson Jones, Shout Out Louds, Monofog, Michael Jackson, Bloc Party, The Cure, Gang of Four, Interpol, LCD Soundsystem, Metric (or just Emily Haines on her own, for that matter), Cut Copy, Snow Patrol, Tegan and Sara, Pretty Girls Make Graves, Elkland, Bjork, Portishead, Outkast, India Arie, Signal to Noise, The Swayback, Ben Folds, Janet Jackson, The Clash, Coldplay, The Darkness, Phoenix, Death Cab, The Rapture, Desparecidos, Erykah Badu, Fiona Apple, The Roots, Foo Fighters, The Fray, G-Love, George Michael, Madonna, Guns n Roses, Rilo Kiley, Le Tigre, Jason Mraz, Joss Stone, Lauren Hill, Nora Jones, The Killers, Modest Mouse, Nine Inch Nails, Nirvana, No Doubt, Notorious B.I.G, The Velvet Underground, Smashing Pumpkins, Pat Benatar, The Police, Clap Your Hands Say Yeah, Prince, Queen, Radiohead, The Strokes, White Stripes, VHS or Beta, Voxtrot, Viva Voce, The Caesars, Beth Orton, 22-20's, Si*Se, Bebe, Gnarles Barkley, She Wants Revenge, Vaquero, Iron and Wine, TV on the Radio, Zero 7, Thom Yorke, The Raconteurs, theSTART, Matt and Kim, Wilco, The Black Keys, Cat Power, Bright Eyes, Arctic Monkeys, Chromeo, Joy Division, Siouxie and The Banshees, The Shins, Imogen Heap, Neko Case, Architecture in Helsinki, Ghost Buffalo, Amy Winehouse, Cold War Kids, Fujiya and Miyagi, Menomena, Pin Back, Feist, The Arcade Fire, Broken Social Scene, Jukebox the Ghost, Bat for Lashes, Ingrid Michaelson, Band of Horses, Stars, Bear Colony, Tokyo Police Club, Bastard Fairies, The National, CocoRosie

Movies:

Napoloen Dynamite, Never Ending Story, Garden State, Frida, Chocolat, Love Actually, Life is beautiful, Run Lola Run, Dirty Dancing, Grease, The Upside of Anger, The Station Agent, Shop Girl, Momento, A Beautiful Mind, Breakfast Club, Amelie, Crash, Office Space, Old School, Stranger Than Fiction, Capote, Transamerica, Sideways, Lost in Translation, Thank You for Smoking, Whale Rider, Science of Sleep, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Volver, The Lives of Others, Infamous, Little Miss Sunshine, Babel, Notes on a Scandal, Half Nelson, Little Children, Control

Television:

Six Feet Under, Sex and the City, stupid reality TV shows, MTV trash, Grey's Anatomy, Depsperate Housewives, Entourage, Da Ali G Show, Project Runway, America's Next Top Model, Flight of the Concords, The Office, Brothers and Sisters.

Books:

Lately, Hey Whipple, Squeeze This: A Guide to Creating Great Ads, The Kite Runner, Conversations With God, A Million Little Pieces, Valley of the Dolls, Lovely Bones.

Heroes:

Mi Madre

My Blog

The gray speaks softly

My head strong, stubborn attitude often forces me to believe that life is very black and white. All questions can be answered with a yes or a no. All direction is either left or right. All choices are...
Posted by ""erin"" on Thu, 16 Feb 2006 12:52:00 PST

Good thing...

Cause they are. Your Eyes Should Be Brown Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart What Color Should Your Eyes Be?...
Posted by ""erin"" on Mon, 12 Dec 2005 01:57:00 PST

needing vs. wanting

Recently, I came to the realization that I don't really understand the difference between needing and wanting. It's amazing how many times a day I use those words interchangeably. Actually, let me rep...
Posted by ""erin"" on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Food for thought

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to...
Posted by ""erin"" on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Frequently asked questions. Or, infrequently asked questions. Whichever....

How tall are you? Slightly under 5'7" and continually shrinking. Have you ever smoked heroin? Fuck no. That is one of the few things I have never done and never plan to do. Do you own a gun? ...
Posted by ""erin"" on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

truly yours

They say that you only ever really connect with about five people in your lifetime. That only five people you meet will stay with you throughout your time. Doesn't anyone else find that a bit disheart...
Posted by ""erin"" on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST