I've learned a lot about myself and other people over the course of my life, and in particular my experiences the past 4-6 years have been steadily ramping up in intensity. I have a feeling that this is all preparing me for something big, but discovering what that "something" is will just have to wait until it's unfolded.
I'm learning a valuable lesson at the moment, and that is something along the lines of being at peace with what life throws at you, and not trying to impose your will over God or the Universe, and instead flowing with it and collaborating on the process as it unfolds. Freewill is our ability to flow with life and make choices that serve to bring us the experiences that we want, or to flow against life and choose to cut ourselves off from prosperity and providence. Now, realizing this as truth and living in alignment with it are two different things, and if I'm correct in assuming that my experience isn't a complete anomaly in all of humankind, this isn't always (or even usually) an easy task; at least not at this level of awareness.
I know that humanity has barely scratched the surface of its full potential, and the all-too-palpable madness that we see all around us is evidence of this, and absolutely not evidence of an inherent flaw in nature, creation, or evolution. I see the potential in everyone that I meet, and while it isn't my place to pass judgments on others' lives and choices and interject where I'm not invited (which I've learned by damaging a lot of relationships), I do my absolute best to consistently make myself available for others in away way that I'm needed to help bring out that potential.
I am a passionate person. I love music, watching cartoons, cooking, eating, cuddling, I love people, I love people watching, I am very compassionate and empathetic. I am an INFX, which is a "combination" of INFP and INFJ, which are psychological types from the Myers/Briggs Type Indicator test, and if you're interested in this sort of thing I highly recommend the book " Please Understand Me ", which explains all of the different types of temperaments that make up the people on this planet. Being an INFX means that I belong to a group that makes up less than 2% of 2% of the world's population (only 2% are INFJs or INFPs respectively, and of those groups, only 2% are male), so it's not surprising that I've felt as if I'm on the wrong planet most of my life.
I love wrapping up in warm blankets in cold weather, photography, walking in the rain in Seattle and Portland, the Northwest in general, looking at cute things, talking about ideas and dreams and life, kissing, sitting on my couch, meditating, caring for my cats, smashing Toast (one of my kitties) in a waffle maker, candles, animals in general, hanging out with amazing friends, spending time alone, writing, reading, pondering, being a part of things, experiencing life, being happy to exist, being in awe of existence in general, learning new things, trying new things, rocking my life as much as possible, being happy, overcoming obstacles, nurturing myself, being healthy, helping others, smashing or somehow violently destroying cute things, making people I love laugh, giving, watching, understanding, exploring myself ("in a totally sexual way"), and attaching the word "pants" to other words.
"I'd like to see my life being about the evolution of my soul. I'd like to see my life being about expressing and experienceing the part of me I love most. The part of me that is compassion and patience and giving and helping. The part of me that is knowing and wise, forgiving and... love."
