demented lei

How to make a Leslie
Ingredients:
1 part competetiveness
1 part courage
1 part instinct
Method:
Add to a cocktail shaker and mix vigorously. Serve with a slice of wisdom and a pinch of salt. Yum!I am a writer.I write about things, and stuff that concerns me and the people i walk around with. I don't have deadlines to beat, i write on my own pace. People say write well. I don't know, but i don't need affirmation to know that i know what I'm doing. I don't care if I'm good, all i care about is how good it feels after i finish one entry, after i justified one story, after i let go of the fleeting pain in my head, and heart.I was born to think.To run with the wolves and fly away. I have always dreamt of being tamed- by a lover, by a friend, but it's not easy gambling. I can't risk my trust onto anyone now because i know that will be my downfall.I am a fighter.I will die for my right to speak my mind. I will say fuck you in your face if you deserved it. I will not respect you if you asked to be treated that way. I practice my beliefs in my most unique way and damn all those who judge me- i am not out to live up to their expectations.I love.As a matter of fact, i love love love. A friend told me i am "Mindalovefool", meaning.. me, full of love to the point of being a fool. I laughed it off. I know, ive done many stupid things for love, but i don't care, really. No regrets. I embraced love like it will leave me in time, and doing so had made me the still hopeful romantic until now. I believe that amongst all those who came and went, there will be this one great love for me out there. i will only have to work my way into meeting him, eventually. Besides, what's there to lose if i believed?I am different.Complicated as others see me, i don't have problems with that. MAybe some women are just born to stand above everyone, everything. I am happy being me, and my being odd should not be any reason why i should never be that person i ought to be.I am not afraid.I have been to hell and back and who is there to be afraid of if i have already spoken with the Devil? Fear is a craft one has to experience in order to master. And as for me, there's no room to fear, for only cowards go to hell.I am beautiful.Correct me if I'm wrong, but i don't need anyone saying me all that bull about what makes a pretty face, because i don't need that. I have a big heart, bigger than my face. And if that counts more than anything to be happy in this lifetime, then i am happily beautiful.I am Done.