I am the master of self-sabotage. I'm temperamental. I tend to be in a constant state of worry. If I am relaxed, it's because something hasn't bothered me yet. My mind's always working - ask anyone who knows me very well and they'll tell you that I've got a million ideas flying through my head. I may seem cold but it's only because I'm shy and I'm kind of working on the "warming up to people" thing. I like meeting genuine and sincere people and have had the great fortune of doing so. I listen to a lot of boring music and like to focus on a part in a song that I might not have noticed before. I'll listen to it on repeat for an hour and fall asleep in some cases. I consider myself more of a writer and an artist. I'm always buried in some kind of reading material. I always look for an easier way to make something instead of paying a ridiculous price for it. My dreams are a clusterfuck of events that involve lots of strange times and intuition and they tend to haunt me during my days and nights.
I'm also much more of an observer than anything - watching people in public places and how they interact with one another is really interesting and fascinating to me. Have you ever gone to a club or a bar and noticed how no one ever stands in the middle of the dance floor when the band's setting up on stage? There could be music playing but every one just stands off to the side to see who'll be brave enough to stand in the middle. It's like watching someone go into the water before you do to make sure there aren't any sharks before you decide to dive in.