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metamanah

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About Me

what the fuck is going on...theres so much push and pull and im just stuck in the middle not knowing which way to fuckin go...im extremely complicated, indecisive, opioniated and open minded...im a living contridiction...i belive in everything which means i belive in nothing-this leads to indecicivness which leads to confusion which leads to frustration-but before it becomes severe depression i revert to drowning my sorrows from confusion and frustration with alcohol, laughfter, and friends...or i sit in solitude starring at walls, lying on the couch or in bed, or just observing nature...i usually play the devels advocate not only to keep a conversation interesting but to give and receive different viewpoints on subjects...its effect then cause for me-not cause then effect...every day of my life is completely surreal with never a dull moment...its about experiances and stories, entertaining and making people smile...my closest friends tell me "you should write a book," "you should be a cartoon character." its about being amused and excited at the small things in life...its about developing a relationship with God because even if there is no God-you cant lose...i have a lot to say but even more to teach...im very open-minded with an abyss of atypical thoughts and knowledge...im extremely spiritual, filled with love to give and loathe instant gratification including sex and masterbation. im completely dependant on others and wish i could be a bit more selfish...usually i like to look at what other people are doing-then do the exact opposite. im slightly bored-but with entertainful thoughts, severely confused-but still here...thinking has become the number one most disasterous habit of mine-oh how i wish i could be a zombie...ahhh...the past...living life in the pink happy little bubble where i believed everything and knew nothing and just went through the motions of life...im balanced between mind and heart, between right brain and left brain-but now what-now what the fuck choice am i supposed to make...where am i to go...what am i to do...or should i become an apathetic pothead...or a professional hobo and be content with losing all control of everything...i graduated college only to put a smile on mommy and daddys face...sometimes i count stripes on shirts or tiles on walls, while other times i just look up...but wait...im oh-so "successful"-at least thats what they say. sometimes i dont even know what i want-actually, the only thing i know is that i know nothing there is to know about anything at all. ive seen it all, stop the earth, time to step off...starting to think this world really isint for me anymore. im in love with love-everyone needs love sweet love-everyone needs a strong foundation of love. for me love is about things like respect, (especially in terms of an oposing opinion-because were all right) courage, disciplin, and understanding. its harder to find things i do like in the world as opposed to things i dont like. i consistantly cry sighlently masked by a glowing energetic charmful vibe. i know what im not but i dont know what i am. im creative in making money but not with what to do with it. my goal is to meet someone whos like-leveled and like-minded, can give me spiritual/mental stimulation, and can be a catalyst for me to make a change in this world or just simply sell all my assets, give my money to the poor, and become a sadhu...or maybe i could just become the ice cream man-everybody loves the ice cream man.

My Interests

anything thats interesting, which is everything. some of the more important ones include, ascetesism, idealism, understanding, art, aries, athletic, balance, being stupid, books, cats, class clown, compassionate, complex, confident, depth, differant, direct, ditsy, dreamer, eclectic, empathetic, endorphin junkie, experiances, extremist, fun loving, goofy, happiness, hippyish, honest, hopeless romantic, impulsive, inishiater, insane, intellectual, interesting, jaded, jokster, kindness, laughing, love, lucid dreaming, anything occult-i think, magic, metamanah, metaphysical, mystical, open minded, paradox, passion, philosophy, psychology, polrab, prodigy, purple, randomness, sadhu, sarcastic, sensative, travel, writing and poetry

I'd like to meet:

well ive defenitally given up on women so maybe a lesbian whos responsive and intelligent...someone who has opinions-and lots of them...maybe someone like me...maybe a motivational speaker who speaks on behalf of the nobility of suicide...or jim morrison or adolph hitler or timothy leary or benjamin franklin or conan obrian or william burroghs or neitchie or any freemason or anyone with the essene papers...or the emotionally disturbed...or the severely jaded...or the beautifully sad...or anyone whos insides are like eeyore but outsides like tigger...or anyone who dreams of flying and breathing underwater simutaniousely...or someone who constantly visualizes themselves lying on a bed made of flowers in the middle of a calm ocean, or just someone willing to journey into the amazonian rainforests in south america to do massive amounts of drugs with me-maybe thatll do the trick and ill receive some sort of clue to anything in this life.

Music:

im obsessed with music...there are over a thousand artists on my i pod since im more of a specific song person rather than a specific group person...some bands off the top of my head after a night out drinking include shpongle, stellastar, interpol, appleseed cast, george clinton and the p funk, massive attack, tricky, bijork, new radicals, counting crows, oasis, coldplay, muse, sneaker pimps, diana krall, assembalage 23, daft punk, tiesto, lots of djs, house music, faithless, hooverphonic, old radiohead, mogwai, neurosis, smashing pumpkins, soviet, sublime, slightly stupid, jimmy eat world, bob marley, a perfect circle, third eye blind, 3 doors down, vast, vnv nation, weezer, stone temple piolets, pearl jam, dave mathews, the cure, 80s music, aesop rock, incubus, 311, mostly non mainstream. everyone needs to connect to the universal language of love

Movies:

a movies-office space, waking life, the notebook, fight club, i heart huckabees, garden state, k-pax, x-men, and any movie with great dialogue and themes...b movies-pixar films, crash, american history x,...c movies-entrapment, oceans 11, to catch a thief, italian job, the big lebowski

Television:

i forget its there sometimes...but if i get stoned-defenitally the animal planet...if im drunk-anything with bill hicks or mitch hedgeburg, but usually the discovery, history, and national geographic channel

Books:

absolutely, but ive given up on them since they all contridict each other while leaving me severely confused, but if i had to pick, it would be NOTHING IN THIS BOOK IS TRUE BUT ITS EXACTLY HOW THINGS ARE by bob frisell, not because its the worst written book ive read but because hes at least searching for answers through making connections involving anything that has to do with new age belifes and conspiracy theorys and anything occult. and how i became stupid, and the giving tree

Heroes:

none, cause then the probable possibility increases to be who one wants to be

My Blog

the key to the next life

the magical green leaves-although i cant smoke it anymore due to extreme absentmindedness ...
Posted by metamanah on Fri, 19 May 2006 01:16:00 PST

withen your weaknesses there lies your stregnths sleeping

the only way to awake our stregnth is to face our weaknesses, through sorrow and pain until the hammer of God has finished shaping our soul. each day that you even find the courage to get up and mo...
Posted by metamanah on Thu, 18 May 2006 01:48:00 PST