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Ocuponco

I live in the weak and the wounded

About Me

A look into your eyes and I swim in your confusion as i try to find myself in you. to weak to live alone and to strong to die without you. I walk this limbo of you and see memories we have yet to share, searching for the door that leads from your thoughts to heart, don't think just love, i think your lost in me too, but trust what i say, i have no reason to mislead, Don't leave this like it is we can never heal ourselves, lift your fog from me so i may thrive and plant this seed, forever think of me, when the bitter cold hits and your bundled in your blankets think of me, when you hold him or her in your arms think of me, when he hits you and stalks you think of me, think of me my friends, family, and lovers. I live for you, live for me too. Weakness swallows this world and we will still thrive. I will hold you above the haze and the darkness of this world will wash over me.

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My Interests

Music, Love, And The Night. I am truly a hopeless romantic. the rain..........tag in the rain........that one perfect movie moment kiss in the middle of a down pour where every sense is heightened and hair on the back of your neck stands up as goosebumps cover your body and you know that this is the single best kiss you could ever share."Slow Chemical"The wonder of the world is gone I know for sure All the wonder that I want I found in herAs the hole becomes apart I strike to burn And no flame returnsEvery intuition fails to find it's way One more table turned around I'm back againFinding I'm a lost and found when she's not around When she's not around I feel it coming downGive me what I could never ask for Connect me and you could be my chemical NOWGive me the drug you know I'm after Connect me and you could be my chemical

I'd like to meet:

Unhappy is he to whom memorie of childhood bring only fear and sadness. Wretched is he who looks back upon lone hours in vast and dismal chambers. Such a lot the gods gave to me- to me, the dazed, the dissapointed, the barren, the broken. And yet i am strangely content and cling desperately to those sere memories, when my mind momentarily threatens to reach beyond to the other. Myspace Contact Tables

Ropes of Life
I have killer friends.

Firefly

Stephanie

Fagadocious

Max

Mike

Sarahjane

Alex

Bob-o dad#2

nikki

kelsey

Finger Eleven

Leenie

View My Crutchs

Music:

I listen to a little of everything, But my passion is metal/Rock. the bands i mostly listen to are as follows: Finger 11, Metallica, Dope, Taproot, Korn, Slipknot, Killswitch Engage, Earshot, The Union Underground, Depswa, Dark Tranquility, Crossfade, Submersed, Seven Wiser, Stabbing Westward, Static X, Stonesour, 8stops7, 12 stones, 3rd strike, 40 below summer, Android lust, Apartment 26, Adema, Deadsy, default, Hoobastank, The Black Dahlia Murder, Extol, Lacuna Coil, Nightwish, Blindside, Blood Brothers, Apex Theory, Atomship, Atreyu, Audioslave, Breaking Benjamin, Buckcherry, Josh Todd, Chevelle, Closure, Coal Chamber, Cold, Cradle of Filth, Darwins Waiting Room, David Bowie, Deftones, Delerium, Demon Hunter, Die Trying, Disturbed, Drowning Pool, Dust to Dust, Edgewater, Element Eighty, Endo, Evanescence, Skindred, Unloco, Rise Against, The exies, Waterface, Wolfsheim, Zeromancer, Zao, V Shape Mind, Unwritten Law, Underoath, Twisted Method, Trust Company, Trapt, Tool, Thrice, Thousand Foot Krutch, The Rasmus, The Juliana Theory, The Haunted, The Deadlights, The Cure, Tenacious D, Systematic, S.O.A.D., Switched, Stutterfly, Strata, Stereomud, Static Lullaby, Spineshank, Speak No Evil, Soul Embraced, Soil, Socialburn, Smile Empty Soul, Sloth, Slaves on Dope, Skrape, Six Feet Under, Shinedown, Shadows Fall, Sevendust, Seether, Saliva, Revis, Reach 454, Razed in Black, Ra, Professional Murder Music, Powerman 5000, Poison the Well, Placebo, Pitbull Daycare, Papa Roach, Pantera.... And many many more.

Movies:

I love watching movies. I like movies that make me think. Some of my favorites are Donnie Darko, Saw, The Dangerous Lives Of Altar Boys, American Beauty, Seven, Fallen, Igby goes down, Chumscrubber, Thumbsucker, Underworld, underworld Evolution, Hellraiser,anything tim burton, and many more.

Television:

i don't watch tv

Books:

Glory road by robert heinlen. The dark tower series. Running with the demon. The goth bible(a look into an unknown subculture). american gods, fragile things, Anything h.p. lovecraft.

Heroes:

Musicians that make the music they love. James hetfield, Marky Chavez, John Davis, Anders Friden.

My Blog

Everything reminds me of how it tastes to know defeat

This is to all the ladies that have been in and out of my life for as long as i can remember cause it fits for all of you. I'm still loving you, after all we went throughI'm still needing you, after a...
Posted by Ocuponco on Sat, 05 May 2007 10:23:00 PST

Traveling. Love. Fog.

In one sense we are always traveling, and traveling as if we did not know where we are going. In another sense we have already arrived, we have all arrived at the perfect possesion of love in this lif...
Posted by Ocuponco on Mon, 26 Mar 2007 08:14:00 PST

Apparently.........

Whiskey makes me lick necks. Take it as you will
Posted by Ocuponco on Mon, 19 Mar 2007 10:08:00 PST

You don't even see me

you could have had it all, my empire of dirt.......
Posted by Ocuponco on Fri, 16 Mar 2007 09:56:00 PST

Will i?

open up my mindlook deep insidethese voices in my head aren't minelock away my brainthrow away the keymy own thoughts are killing medo you notice im gonecan you see the pain in my eyescan you hear the...
Posted by Ocuponco on Mon, 19 Feb 2007 08:52:00 PST

ponders his life away

Another evening spent staring at screens and color wheels of death getting lost in thought i shouldn't think, lives i have never lived, people i'll never truly know or touch again. I see only the mask...
Posted by Ocuponco on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 09:37:00 PST

release from life

Sitting in the darkexamining my lifeholding all my pain extruding all my fameyou all wanna know me im not a normal manbut all you do is hurt meso i close my eyesand hide my painimagine a worldwhere i ...
Posted by Ocuponco on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 09:12:00 PST

hearts and caskets

this is a brash exaggeration of my emotions and thoughts given words. when emotionsget visualized....Here i sit and see the onein her casket forever gonethe lve inside begins to fade the hate inside b...
Posted by Ocuponco on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 08:56:00 PST

and always

So tonight i contacted quite a few ppl to help me releive my lonliness, and it seems that you all have lives to busy to schedule me in, im sry for whatever in the fuck i did to pis you off or push you...
Posted by Ocuponco on Sat, 10 Feb 2007 01:22:00 PST

When memories invade

If you decide to read this do not judge me, I have been through more than you will ever understand, this is not a recent work it is at least 2 years old but i found it and thought it be interesting fo...
Posted by Ocuponco on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 12:24:00 PST