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just.....cillyphreak

In the end we all are dead in some way or another

About Me

can you ask your self one question?
"When the pain ends...life ends... so do we really want the pain to end? "
i was born with the name 114201514915
giving the name 139381512
you can call me ... Cilly.
art, music, movies, make life easier
painting, drawing..sculpting are my ways to show my thoughts.
beauty, the human body, and life its self drives me to create.
serial killers, psychology, intense actions/moments
and psychology thrill me!
i crave beauty. i crave passion, i crave emotions that aren"t mine.
i smile at your pain and i constantly dream away mine
i dream during the day i dream during the nite
reach down inside yourself and feel what Im thinking...
true terror, horror, depression, confusion, darkness, or even happiness
just think and open up your mind, expand your boxes or look past them,
just a little bit more so one day you can be on a level were reality mixes with dreams.....
-cilly
I'm not perfect... so don't try to make me, I'm me ,
and that's all i want you to know me for..is me and what i do...my artwork
just because i write dark things, draw dark things, doesn't mean i am dark,
its just a side of me. get to know me, before you judge, i can be a very nice person. :)
I'm a dreamer the most importing thing to remember about me!
want to know more?? you know you want to IM me damnit


AIM & Yahoo = thecillyphreak


late
-cilly

My Interests

| Art |
Painting
Drawing
Sculpting

| Artists |
Francis Bacon
Egon Schiele
Richard Gerstl
more to come....

| Music |
Alt Rock
Rock
Metalcore
Hardcore
Metal
alot more!!!

| Movies |

Dramas
Comedys
Horror
Thrillers
Porn

will you watch
A movie with me?

I'd like to meet:

Artists

Musicians

anyone that can make my brian tingle! mmm tingling ::drools::

anyone that will inspire me and hopfuly i inspire them... lets hang out , lets be freinds!

Music:

If you can make me feel and think at the same time while letting me drift away within my dream...
i will enjoy your music...

Deftones
Elegeion
Escape the Day
Silencer
Ettison Clio (RIP)
Chalice
Agalloch
Cold
Serial Joe (RIP)
At Wits End
From Autumn to Ashes
Dead Even,
Norma Jean (old)
The Chariot
Luti-Kriss
Skycamefalling
Five Point O
Kenotia
Brightwood
NIN
The Highway Beautiful
Orgy
Mathew Good Band
A Static Lullaby (old)
Eighteen Visions
Dog Fashion Disco
Killswitch Engage (old)
Lollipop Lust Kill (RIP)
Hope for August
Who Killed Marilyn
Selfless
Brave the Fire
Nora
A Colder Year (RIP)
Crack Jaw
Videodrone (RIP)
Finch (old)
Korn (old)
The Haunted
Most Precious Blood
Garbage
The Renaissance (RIP)
Lifer
Monroe
Slumber
About Last Nite
The Used
Tubring
My Chemical Romance (old)
Silverchair
Remembering Never
Every Time I Die
Madison East
Downside (Strata)
Erase the Grey
Bleed the Fifth (RiP)
Burning Vegas
This Runs Thourgh
A Kiss Farewell
Haste the Day
Poison the Well
August Burns Red
Loko Phylum
AFI (old)
Zeromancer
Marilyn Manson
Mudvayne
Avenged Sevenfold (old)
Mushroomhead (old )
Static X
Lamb of God (first Cd)
Burn the Preist
Brand New
Chimaira (old)
Hopesfall
Coal Chamber
Beauty to Ashes (RIP)
Evenacense
When Dreams Die
Mod Flanders Conspirasy
Scarlet
Underøath
Theatre of Tragedy
Tweleve Tribes
Novembers Doom
Deadsy
30 Seconds to mars
Basement Love Underground (old)
A Perfect Circle
Mad At Gravity
Shadows Fall
The Dillinger Escape Plan
Atreyu (old)
Sw1thced
Taproot (old)
Prodigy
VNV Nation
Incubus (old)
Our Lady Peace
Bell Portable
Tadpol (RIP)
Staind
STP
Once Over
Soulfly
Feeder
Filter
Foo Fighters (old)
Tool
Matchbook Romance
Story of the Year
The Alter Boys
Skipline
...the liste goes on and im going to bed!

Movies:


The Last Samurai
Lord of the Rings
Starwars
Batman
American Beauty
Underworld
Miracle
King Kong
Samurai X
Suicide Club
Silent Hill
V for Vendetta
Prozac Nation
Constantine
Saw
The Truman show
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
The Wishingstairs
The Hole
Suicide Kings
Closer
Matrix
donnie darko
ghost world
Freeway
Final Cut
dangrous lives fo alter boys
Pumpkin
Empire Records
pump up the volume
sectery
What Dreams May Come
Requiem For A Dream
Lost in Translation
SLC Punk
Boondocks saints
The Crow
Secretary
groove
In dreams
stigmata
party monster
...again more but i must sleep now.. ha

Books:

no comment!

Heroes:

any kind of artist that has made there dreams come true...

and batman

My Blog

26 and counting...

    so here i am.. haha im sure you thought this would be blog sayin happy birthday to me... no..oopps i just did haha jkjkj, but its funny i dont care much about the birthday anymore, ...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Tue, 22 Jan 2008 10:15:00 PST

3...2...1 cilly signing off..

in over 4 years i haven't been off line more then 3 hours well kiddies im signing off for a few weeks now untill i can get the internet installed in the new place! please send those comments, and mes...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Fri, 14 Dec 2007 01:41:00 PST

my last week in ohio.. READ!!!

here is what is scheduled for the next week!!! tonite 12/8 - packing/cleaning , JD and Ryan, dinner, movies, video games.. and prob booze tomorrow 12/9 - packing, final time spending with family for a...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Sat, 08 Dec 2007 09:41:00 PST

how do you say good bye???

i guess after my night finding out that one of my coworkers from a year a go died in an car aciddent last nite, kinda got to me..  adam was a young kid of 20, engaged to wed a very nice young lad...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Sat, 25 Aug 2007 10:19:00 PST

artwork/ flyer!

ok so a few days ago i was asked to come up with a flyer desing, i did,  i drew an illustration, not my best work but it did well for what i wanted it to do, i think i will re-paint it again not ...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Mon, 14 May 2007 05:37:00 PST

Easter CArd + art work...

well its time of that year were we celebrate easter ya huh? haha, but i deiced just like xmas and v-day to make a speical card. my motivation easy.. thoes nasty eggs i dont like to eat yes thoes eggs ...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Mon, 09 Apr 2007 06:16:00 PST

Vday card!!!!

this is what i did for V-Day.. yea the artowrk is titled "out of order"  acrylic and ink,  i just played off the card i bought and came up with this image, cliche sure.. but i dont care, i l...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Thu, 15 Feb 2007 08:18:00 PST

soo..

so yea.. here i am waking up at 2am.. mostly i will be going to bed at 6pm and waking up at 1am to get shit done.. im just do damn drained after work these days to do anything after words i either fin...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 12:33:00 PST

your tears are carved in my mine

so.. a few days ago i went to best buy. things were normal, i went and bought V for vendetta. but when i was leaving i notcied something. the girl running the register eyes were red, closer i came. th...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 08:11:00 PST

About the new background image!!!!

so, i decied to create a new background image, pretty much its  what it would be if i took you though the trip i take while doing my art, things that infuence me.. movies, comics. art, skys, and...
Posted by just.....cillyphreak on Sat, 13 Jan 2007 08:38:00 PST