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Freakishly Mantastic

About Me

What is there to say about yourself without sounding cocky or self centered? I appreciate it when people read these things but I'm starting to think that no one really does because they don't care about anything important. Life is short enough, why not take the little time you have to get to know someone as best as you can? Is it because you're scared of telling them something you shouldn't? Are you scared that if they learn to much about you and then leave your life they'll hurt you? All I have to say is, "Big fucking deal," you grow up and eventually realize that it doesn't matter that much.Learn about the person you care about most not me. Find out what they do when they are at home and get bored. See if they do something that you do to. Just take the time to know the people closest to you instead of someone that you probably won't ever meet in your entire life.[LOVEMYFLASH]
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My Interests

I find it interesting that MySpace has dedicated this little section to the thing that I'm currently interested in. The thing that they must have forgotten about is the fact that not all people are interested in things. Some people are so boring that they no longer have interests or hobbies or anything in general of that sort.It seems extremely pathetic that human society as a whole has begun to be sucked into a computer screen. Which leads me to my first interest... CG Programming.The thing that's sucking the life out of people is the same thing that I want to create, or at least help make newer and better versions of it. CG Programming makes me think about the things that people look forward to in a website or in a computer game. Maybe even a movie if I get lucky enough. But the diverse layers of background and foreground composition are just so intricately woven together that it seems damn near impossible.Anyway, just like my about me section says... if you wanna know what else I'm interested in just hit me up!

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet the person that invented sugar so that I can shake his hand and thank him for destroying so many peoples lives over the last forty years or so. I want to meet the person who came up with the idea for gas and knock his teeth out the back of his head for making our planet collapse on itself. I need to meet the person who invented the television so I take him and drop him off the highest building in the world so when he hits the ground he's as brain dead as the population of children that are growing up in the world today. I have to meet the person who said that skinny was cool for the very first time and drive my fist so far into their throat that I can play hide and go seek with their kidneys.View All Friends | View Blog | Add Comment

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Music:

Music to me is what keeps my world moving, without it my life would cease to exist and my soul no longer walk the halls of my empty home.The music that I listen to most is what I use to describe the little things that happen in my life, even if it is just a day to day progression of music that is thoughtlessly endless. I like to show my emotions with music that has an acoustic piano... something to show how pain influences my life.If I feel like playing something that let's others know that I'm in a better mood than a depressed state of self pity I'll throw in a few string instruments to accompany the piano. Perhaps a love song? Add a dash of Bette Midler and string quartet and you have my perfect love song to listen to in the entire world.What if your angry? Give me some Metallica and Killswitch Engage and I'll have the world on a platinum platter. Do you ever have play music when you go to sleep? Add just a dash of the Chemical Brothers and maybe some Paul Oakenfold and you have the perfect recipe to get me to sleep the night away like a ICU patient that's loaded up on tranquilizers.

Movies:

Personally movies are my second favorite past time for throwing away a day doing nothing. I mean what better way to spend at least and hour or so doing nothing? Well I guess you could be smoking marijuana but you can do both at the same time.But I find no better way to enjoy time with someone more than watching a movie with some popcorn and a blanket to curl up with each other under. If someone were to ask me however what kind of movie I would watch with them, that's a whole other ball of wax.I mean how can you really pick the perfect movie to watch with someone? Personally if it was me picking the movie I would probably pick something out that was kind of romantic and sappy. But if I was to watch a movie with just myself, I would by far have to choose something extremely scary and fucked up.Something that would make you either piss your pants because it scared you so bad or the kind of movie that's so sick and disgusting that you end up puking before you hit a quarter of the way through it. My personal favorite kind of movie though would have to be comedy. I mean you just can't beat Margaret Cho or Lewis Black as they deem the current administration unfit to run a country that demands as much as ours does.

Television:

It's kind of hard for me to relate to TV in any way since I don't have cable. But I have watched TV in the past and from what I've watched I really like a certain show of a hysterical value that I have yet to come across again. I mean there is nothing better than the episode at the French winery when they get hella fucked up and Patsy falls into the car. I mean come on... there is no comparison in any other show currently on air.I guess I should probably tell you what show I'm talking about in the first place shouldn't I? Well, the show is called Absolutely Fabulous (AbFab for true Jennifer Saunders fans). The two main characters are Patsy and Edy. The two of them are long friends who have done so many drugs that it makes Kieth Richards seem like a pariah.The running joke is that Patsy is subsisting on alcohol and drugs since the 1970's towards when the two first met. Edy is a faint gestation of fashion designer who thinks that she has the looks the money and the style to make it in the industry. Enough about that... if you wanna know more about it get it from NetFlix or something.

Books:

I was reading a book by Richard Bach entitled One. The way that this man thinks is truly unique and gifted in a way beyond many other people in our time.Here's what the New York Times said about it: One presents a number of provocative speculations: What would it be like to meet yourself when you were older or younger? How would your life turn out if you had made different choices, split up with your spouse, been born in a different time and place?... With love and hope as their guides, and 'what matters most' as their destination. the Bachs touch down in different times and places, where they commune with some of their alternative selves.

Heroes:

Among the gamut of heroes that plague my mind as I fight to sleep each night, only certain people keep the demons of my subconscious at bay long enough to hit a point of solitude only possibly classified as R.E.M.The hero that I count on the most happens to be Leschel, she keeps me going even though we can't smoke with each other any more because I quit. She's there for me when I need her (as far as I know) and she's always able to make me laugh about crack heads. Hey Leschel! Remember from "Bet On It"? Have you ever been on a ride that you wanna get off?One of my other heroes is Paige. She's like my big sister only we aren't blood related. We've done things and been places together that only me and her can talk about it. She's the sanity that I need when I'm on the edge. She's the peace in my world of chaos.So there was this one time me and Paige and a bunch of others were kicking it at her place, when all of a sudden we heard a scream and then "PAT PAT PAT". Come to find out that the woman she was living with was getting fucked so hard that we heard the sound in the living room... from then on she was to be forever named Pat Pat Patty.