Love, joy, suffering, beauty, laughing until I snort, doing any enjoyable activity until I snort, epiphanies, idiocies, coffee, sugar, sunlight, sea water, imaginary sea people, monsters, gardens, fruits and vegetables, wine, songs, my beloved family and friends (this list is not in order of importance), imaginary and future travels to Greece, the churchbells which are ringing right now, fantasy, languages, gestures, thinking too much, staying in this moment...and THIS one....and THIS one, ginger, limes, the color of beet juice, living on Cape Cod which is like living in the middle of the ocean, how the stars look in the middle of the ocean when I remember to wear my glasses, ouzo on the beach, retzina with breakfast, dancing, fireplaces, singing, driving, wrenching my legs into the lotus position, red and pink together, winning at Liverpool Rummy, grifting, avoiding writing by inventing titles, avoiding writing by having a blog, avoiding writing by living my life, avoiding writing by making that seem like the noble and deep-living thing to do, nobility, deep-living, justifying my actions and inactions, overthinking again, quoting Wilde, quoting Keats, horseshoe crabs, giant extinct birds, being drunk on the talent and brilliance of the people I love, and my baby's eyes. And her screamy-laugh.
I'd like to meet John Keats. I'd like to meet my maker. I'd like to meet a mermaid. I'd like to meet someone who can explain a few things to me. Can you help?
Screamy laughing Ava.
I'm so tired!
This is kind of lovely and intimate in a technological, electronic sort of way. I'm just not really sure what it means. What does it mean? Yes, I'm talking to you.
The chest hair waxing scene from The Forty Year Old Virgin is my temporary Bible.
At this moment, my heroes are Kate Bush for creating the song about the washing machine, and myself for keeping my eyes on the prize, my shoulder to the wheel, my ear to the grindstone, my nose above water, my tongue in my mouth, and my hands to myself. And my eyes on my own paper, usually. AND YOU. Yes, I am talking to YOU.